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Has it been 8 months since I’ve posted my art? Yes. Will I pretend that hasn’t happened and show you my ‘Dead Boy Detectives’ fanart? Also yes.

Bitter sweet symphony

Genre: fluff & angst  Words: 6.220 Prompt: 90s grunge boy Jeno x female reader featuring Donghyuck

Warnings: mentions of cigarettes and smoking, alcohol, drinking, insecurities, being emotional while drunk

A/N: Donghyuck is baaaack! Well technically it's the first time he appears but the second time I've written for him! I'd love to hear your thoughts on him and his relationships with both the MC and to Jeno 😈 I also don't know why this is so long... I'm sorry?

Timeline wise, this plays after I'll be there for you pt. 2. 

Everlong masterlist | Bitter sweet symphony pt.2

When Jeno had agreed to drive you and one of your friends to yet another party on the other side of town after his shift at work, he had expected to be met with one of your many girl-friends. But the person sitting on his living room sofa like they were owning the place was distinctly male. “Hi..?” Jeno asked slowly, clearly confused as he put his keys and wallet down to shimmy out of his leather jacket so he could neatly hang it up, fishing out his pack of cigarettes and lighter right after to stuff them into his back pocket instead. “Are you the infamous boyfriend?” The male on his sofa asked instead of returning Jeno’s greeting, squinting his eyes as he scanned over Jeno’s outfit: Just a simple, worn black band tee he had found in a thrift store and ripped jeans, his feet clad in his beat-up black converse that he toed off to throw them into the pile of shoes near the door. You'd probably nag at him later for not properly putting them away. If he were to guess what the state of his hair was, chances were high it was a mess of inky strands from the short drive in his car. “I guess?” Jeno answered the question, running his hands through his hair to get it in at least some kind of order. He really needed a haircut. Talking about good first impressions… “Hi, I’m Donghyuck,” the other finally introduced himself, jumping over the backseat of the sofa, a bright smile on his face and skidding over on sock-clad feet to shake Jeno’s hand. “Jeno,” he mumbled as an answer, a little overwhelmed with the tan boy’s approach. 

“Hyuckie, I can’t find it anywhere, I’m sorry. We gotta- Oh, you’re home already,” you immediately interrupted your rant about the necklace you had been searching for when you spotted your boyfriend in the living room, seemingly a bit lost. Smiling widely, you quickly wound your arms around his waist to press a kiss to his cheek, delighted when all he smelled like was his cologne and not the stench of cigarettes. He had been trying to cut it down again and it seemed like he finally was able to get through a work shift without a smoke break. Or he had gotten better at hiding it. But you chose to believe the first option.   “Hi babe,” you giggled happily, “You’ve met Hyuckie already?” “I wasn’t expecting your friend to be male,” he confessed quietly, one of his hands easily finding home on your waist to squeeze it softly, “No offense to you, Donghyuck.” “None taken,” the boy with the honey-brown hair waved it off, “Even though your cat does hate me.” “What?” Jeno immediately frowned. Bongsik usually couldn’t wait to inspect new people, rubbing her fur all over any of your friends until they complained about it clinging to their clothes. She’d immediately curl up to Jaemin whenever he was over as well, loudly demanding pets and ear scratches. “She’s hiding on top of the fridge,” you sighed, “And she won’t stop hissing at me when I try to coax her out.” “I’ll go get her,” Jeno sighed, pressing a kiss to your temple, “When am I dropping you guys off?” “In an hour or so is fine,” you smiled, letting go of your boyfriend’s waist so he could go and get your cat out of the kitchen where she wasn’t supposed to be in the first place. 

Slipping into the kitchen, Jeno couldn’t even make out a single whisker of his kitten. “Bongsik?” He asked lowly, quietly approaching the fridge so as to not scare her further, “Hey my princess.” Even when he was standing on his tiptoes, he could barely make out the white patches of her fur in the darkness between the top of the fridge and the cupboard hung overhead. “Come out, it’s me,” Jeno cooed, softly tapping his fingers against the fridge to get her attention. For a while it was quiet, before Bongsik let out a very soft meow, turning so he could see the light reflecting in her eyes. “Come here,” he repeated himself, carefully extending his hand with his palm up to let her smell him. Not even a second later, he found himself with an armful of kitten, the small animal purring loudly as she nuzzled into his neck. Chuckling, Jeno scratched the fur behind her ears, coddling her like a baby until she went boneless in his grip. “What’s with you, huh? Hissing at people? That’s not how I raised you.” Since Bongsik still was just a cat and could neither understand Jeno nor answer him, she just innocently blinked her eyes, still purring loudly. Shaking his head, he let her rest over his shoulder, one of her favorite places to perch so she could see the apartment from a different point of view. “That’s my girl.” 

“I don’t know what happened for her to hide like that, but she seems fine to me,” Jeno announced, walking back into the living room with Bongsik still perched on his shoulder, attentively scanning the room like she had never seen it before. “She was hissing like crazy when I tried to approach her,” Donghyuck said with a pout on his lips, “I just wanted to pet her.” “She usually likes people, I really don’t understand why she didn’t like Hyuckie,” you sighed, slowly approaching your boyfriend to reach out for the kitten who calmly let you stroke through her fur. “You sure she doesn’t have a twin or something? This seems like a completely different cat,” Donghyuck joked from his spot on the couch, making you giggle and Jeno frown. If Bongsik didn’t like him, something must be up with him. “Nope, just this one,” you smiled, scratching the kitten’s chin, “Jeno saved her from the streets.” “And she just let you?” “She’s very docile,” Jeno explained, holding her a little tighter when Donghyuck got up. But your friend didn’t even manage to come close enough to pet her before Jeno felt her tense up in his grip and her claws pierced through his shirt and into his skin. Hissing from the pain, Jeno took a step back from Donghyuck. “I’m sorry, she just doesn’t seem to like you at all.” “Did she..?” “I’m okay, bubblegum,” Jeno simply smiled, letting Bongsik jump from his hold to dash somewhere to your bedroom, adding some more scratches to his skin in the process. 

“Cats are such weird little dudes,” Donghyuck tried to divert the tension that seemed to build in the room. Biting his tongue to not give a snarky comment to defend his kitten’s honor, Jeno simply shook his head. He was not about to start a discussion over his kitten not liking your friend and how it probably was his fault and not hers. Good first impressions, good first impressions… “Did you eat already?” He ended up asking instead. “Yes, we did,” you dragged out your words, rolling your eyes at your boyfriend. “Hey,” he giggled, playfully digging his fingers into your sides, “I’m just looking out for you and your alcohol tolerance.” “I know, you idiot,” you laughed, batting his tickling hands away to throw your arms around his neck instead. “Just want you to be safe,” Jeno whispered into the small space between you, wrapping you up in a warm hug and pressing a kiss to the tip of your nose. “We’ll be fine,” you smiled, carding your hands through Jeno’s hair, “And I can always call you.” “Always. No matter the time,” he reminded you, his breath ghosting over your lips, “No matter how drunk you are.” Before you could either make a snarky reply or reassure him, he closed the distance between you to press a sweet kiss to your lips. “You sap,” you chuckled softly, kissing him again just because you could, smiling into the kiss when Jeno held you just a little tighter against him.

“Hey, eh, uhm,” Donghyuck coughed, interrupting the moment, “I’m still right here, you know?”  Visibly flinching, you untangled yourself from Jeno who only awkwardly scratched his neck. “Sorry, Hyuckie we didn’t mean to make you uncom-” “It’s all good, I get it,” he tried to laugh it off, “I’d do the same but we still gotta get ready because you’re not going to a party in that outfit.” “What’s wrong with that outfit?” Jeno asked, smoothing out the back of your shirt. He really liked to color on you. And if he wasn’t mistaken, the jeans were one of your favorite pairs. “Nothing’s wrong with it but I have something else in mind,” you smiled, pressing a quick kiss to your boyfriend’s cheek before you took Donghyuck’s hand to pull him into your bedroom. “But you’re not going to…” Jeno trailed off, gesturing into the general direction of the room to get his point across. “No, I’ll leave when she changes,” Donghyuck cleared up, holding his palms up in defense, “But I’ll help her choose.” Jeno didn’t like the way your friend’s lips spread into a grin as he spoke. Not one bit. But for the sake of not wanting to ruin your evening, he swallowed down the jealousy clawing at his throat. “I’ll be outside if anyone needs me,” he gritted out instead, opening the window so he could climb out onto the fire escape. He really needed a smoke. 

“I’ll pick you up at three,” Jeno reminded you when he dropped you and Donghyuck off at one of his friend’s houses, the music already loud even on the street in front of the house. “Yes, Jeno, I’ll be out,” you smiled, leaning through the window of his car to kiss him softly. “Don’t drink weird stuff strangers give you and call me sooner if you want to leave or get a cab.” “I’ll be careful, I promise. Don’t worry.” “I always worry, bubblegum,” Jeno sighed against your lips before he claimed them again, tasting the sweet cherry of your lipgloss that left his lips sticky. “I’ve got Hyuckie and the others with me, we’re gonna keep an eye out for each other,” you reassured him again, “Go watch your stupid horror movies with Jaemin.” “I’ll get you to watch one with me eventually,” Jeno grinned, starting his car again, “Be safe.” “I will,” you playfully rolled your eyes at him. 

Jeno had barely driven a couple of meters when you felt Donghyuck attach himself to your back. “We’re gonna have sooo much fun tonight,” he promised. “Then lead the way,” you giggled, letting him pull you after him by your intertwined hands so he wouldn’t lose you in the crowd that was already inside. Expertly maneuvering through various bodies, Donghyuck took you to the kitchen first, grabbing two cups to mix some concoction for both of you. “Drink up and then we’re gonna dance,” he challenged you, drowning his own drink in record time. “Shouldn’t we look for the others?” “Is now a good time to make a confession?” Donghyuck looked almost bashful, looking up at you from below his long lashes, “It’s just the two of us tonight. The girls didn’t feel like coming all the way out here. But I didn’t want to go alone and your boyfriend always drives you to all the parties regardless of where they are.” You just sighed and gently bumped his shoulder, not really having it in you to be mad at your best friend. Especially not if he jutted his bottom lip out in a small pout. “You could just have told me before, I would have come regardless.” “But we’re here now,” he pouted, already refilling his cup, “So let’s have fun.” Shaking your head at his antics, you quickly drowned your first cup as well to have him refill it again with the questionable mixture that burned down your throat. 

“But you do know the people throwing this party, right?” “Don’t worry your pretty little head,” Donghyuck grinned, “I went to school with the guy living here, he was my senior. Let’s drink up and dance.” Rolling your eyes at him for good measure, you threw back your second drink, barely managing to keep your whole body from cringing when you felt it burn down your throat. “Don’t you dare lose me in this crowd,” you threatened, holding out your hand to him. “I won’t. Promise,” your friend smiled, interlacing your hands to drag you to the living room turned dance floor. 

You had lost track of time after a questionable amount of drinks and dancing until your feet hurt, only remembering laughing and drinking even more with Donghyuck, his smile lighting up the dimly lit room. But after the last colorful shot that one of Donghyuck’s friends had handed to you, the stuffy room began to spin around you, your knees giving out beneath you as you stumbled right into Donghyuck’s arms, trusting him to catch you. “You alright?” Your friend giggled, tightening his grip around your waist as his fingers dug into your overheated skin where your shirt was showing off your midriff. “I think I need some air,” you panted, hooking your arms around his neck to hold onto him a little more securely even if the denim of his clothes scratched your bare skin. “Hold on tight,” he rasped, pulling you flush to his body so you could feel the heat his body seemed to radiate through your thin clothes. “Hyuck-,” you gasped, instinctively tightening your hold on him as the room only started to spin harder. “I’ll take care of you,” he promised, slowly making his way through the crowd, his hold on your waist tight. 

Once he managed to get you both outside, you took a deep breath of the chilly air of the night, still heavily leaning into Donghyuck’s hold. “Let’s sit you down,” he spoke quietly, his breath sending shivers down your spine as it tickled your skin. Suddenly feeling very breathless, Donghyuck’s familiar perfume clouding your senses, you could only nod. A gentle smile spread on your friend’s handsome face before he mouthed an ‘okay’ and slowly lead you over to the edge of the porch where he helped you sit down. “Stay here, I’ll get you some water. Don’t move.” “I don’t think I can,” you giggled, a dopey smile on your lips. “Stay,” he said again like you were some kind of dog he was training, tripping over his own feet on his way back into the house, making you snort out an unattractive laugh. “Don’t laugh,” he called over before slipping back into the house. 

Once you were alone in the backyard, you sighed loudly, tugging a hand through the mess that your hair had become. God, the night air really did nothing to sober you up, if anything it made more of the dizzying feeling rush to your head. Sighing, you let your body fall backward onto the wood of the porch, looking up into the starry sky. It somehow made you think of all the nights you had spent with Jeno under these stars. Or under different ones back in your hometown. Would they be the same? You didn’t know but were sure that Jeno must know the answer and would explain it to you with a gentle smile tugging at his lips. Jeno… You sighed loudly, a smile spreading on your lips as your insides seemed to heat up. You really were stupidly, absolutely irrevocably in love with him. You had to giggle at the thought. 

Jeno. Perfect Jeno. With his gentle heart and crescent eyes. Always being nothing short but the world’s best boyfriend to you. Always knowing what you needed without you even having to tell him. Gently holding you in his arms after a stressful day at uni and pressing kisses to every inch of skin he had access to until you were smiling and squirming away from the tickling feeling. Bringing back little treats from the bakery he passed by on his way back from work every once in a while for you to enjoy. Singing to you while playing his guitar when you asked him to. Even watching stupid romance movies with you even if you knew that he didn’t like them, too cheesy for his taste. Or studying for your tests with you. Attentively reading over your notes as you recited the answers to him and never losing his patience no matter how bad you were doing. Driving you to uni on the days you had tests just so that you could sleep a little longer after cramming the whole night. Which of course you had only stopped because he had coaxed you into bed and wrapped you up against his chest so you could fall asleep with the sound of his heartbeat beneath your ear. And what did you do? All you knew was how to take, take, take. When had been the last time you had done something nice for him? You couldn’t remember. But what you did remember was how Jeno had woken you up this morning with sweet kisses when he had to leave for work, whispering sweetly how you had to get up to go to your classes and that a steaming cup of coffee was awaiting you on the kitchen counter. 

You hadn’t even noticed that you had started crying, only realizing it when you tasted the salt on your lips. Just then a sob clawed its way up your throat, whacking through your body. Crying even harder, you rolled onto your side, hugging your knees to your chest. You were truly a terrible girlfriend, how did you even remotely deserve someone as loving and kind-hearted as Jeno? You weren’t just a terrible girlfriend but a terrible human altogether, exploiting Jeno’s kind and loving heart. Why did he even stay with you? What did you even have to offer to him in return? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. You were just some bubblegum girl and he was- well he was him. Jeno. Perfect Jeno. 

“Hey, hey, hey,” Donghyuck’s voice pulled you from your spiraling thoughts, “Breathe for me. Take a deep breath.” Heaving through your sobs, you tried to do as he told you, feeling your world spin on its axis as you were pulled up and into his chest. “Hyuckie,” you hiccuped, tightening your fists in his shirt. “Hey, what happened?” He tried to soothe you, rubbing your back in a comforting manner. “I’m worthless.” “Hey, hey, hey. Who told you that?” Instead of answering, another sob whacked through your body, thoughts of how loving Jeno was and how he never wanted anything in return running through your mind. “You need to calm down, please,” Donghyuck begged, cradling your face between his palms to force you to look at him, “Breathe. Take a deep breath.” “Hyuck-” “Shh, focus on breathing,” he cut you off, gently stroking your tears from your cheeks, “You’re beautiful inside and outside. You’re so far from being worthless. You’re- You’re such a precious friend to me. You’re smart and so incredibly pretty. And caring and warm. And one of the most hardworking people I’ve ever met. And you always put your friends first, are there when we need you. You’re funny. Like actually hilarious. Maybe not as much as me, but I love- I love laughing with you. And being around you. You’re a good person. A very good person. A person worthy and deserving of love.” 

“Hyuckie, stop,” you laughed through your tears, “Or I’ll cry even more.” “No more crying,” Donghyuck declared firmly before he pulled you to his chest in a tight hug. “Okay,” you mumbled where you buried your face in his neck, allowing yourself to pull comfort from his embrace. Reveling in the little kisses he pressed to your hair. “What happened?” He asked quietly when he felt you relax in his hold, the tension leaving your body. “Got lost in my head,” you admitted. “And you came to the conclusion you’re worthless?” You only barely didn’t wince at how harsh Donghyuck’s words sounded. Like he was scolding a child and he was truly disappointed in you.  “Because you’re not. Okay?” He emphasized again, pulling back so he could see your face again. You must look like a mess, makeup smeared down your cheeks and nose snotty but his honey eyes bored into yours nevertheless. “Okay?” He asked again. “Okay,” you whispered, no confidence behind your statement. 

“And now again like you actually mean it.” “But I- I’m not sure,” you sighed, letting your body sag against your friend’s, not able to bear seeing his eyes pierce into yours like that. “You want to talk about it?” “It’s... It’s about Jeno,” you admitted shyly. “What?” Donghyuck exclaimed, his eyes going wide, “He better not treat you like anything less tha-” “That’s not it,” you immediately shut him down again, waving your hands in front of him, “It’s... It’s the exact opposite. He’s... He’s perfect, Hyuckie. He’s caring, he’s understanding, he makes me feel so loved, and he’s always there for me when I don’t even know I need him. He makes me coffee in the morning, brings my favorite cake back from his work at the diner and he’s the world’s best cat dad. And don’t even get me started on how in bed he-” “I don’t think I want to know,” Donghyuck was the one to cut you off this time, a grimace on his face. “But Hyuckie, the way he-” “No. Do not want to hear it,” he emphasized, pressing the cup of water he had gotten you to your lips to shut you up. Tentatively, you took the cup from him to feel the cold water smooth out the roughness that had built up in your throat both from the stuffy air inside the house and from crying. 

“But Hyuckie-” “No, I really don’t need to know what happens behind closed doors.” “But you-” “I know I’m the king of oversharing,” he giggled, “But I really do not want to know what your boyfriend is like in bed.” At that, you just pouted, the sight smoothing out the furrow in Donghyuck’s brow and you could tell that a smile was tugging at his plush lips. This was unfair when Donghyuck would always go on and on about his hookups. Both the good ones and the ones that had ended in a mess. “Stop pouting, dummy,” he jokingly slapped your naked arm, “Let me protect my virtuous image of you. Bad enough that I know that you do the dirty.” “You do the dirty all the time, this is unfair.” “Shush,” he silenced you with a finger pressed to your lips that you gently nipped at, making him squirm away. “Behave.” 

At that you just pouted again, taking another sip of your water. “And this is not what we were trying to discuss here, sweety.” “I don’t wanna talk about it anymore, it’s stupid,” you sulked, turning your body away from him to curl into a little ball. “You’re the worst when you’re drunk,” Donghyuck laughed, simply laying down next to you. “I’m not drunk,” you mumbled, swallowing half of your words. “Sure, if that makes you feel better.” “I’m nooot,” you whined, turning around all at once to slap his chest but it turned out not only to be a bad idea because the slap ended up half-assed at best but it also made your head spin violently, pulling bile up to your throat. “Hey, take it slowly,” Donghyuck comforted you, tucking your hair back into place as you groaned loudly, pressing your eyes shut tightly to fight back nausea. 

“I hate this. Why did you let me drink so much?” “Where’s the fun in partying if neither of us is drunk?” He just laughed it off. “I want a new best friend, you’re horrible,” you whined, hiding your face in his chest. “You love me,” Donghyuck giggled softly, wrapping you up in his arms again. You didn’t answer him, at least not verbally, simply seeking the warmth his body always radiated liberally. 

“You going to tell me now how you ended up making yourself sad to the point of crying any time soon? That can’t have been it,” He mumbled after a while. Of course, he’d bring it up again. Sighing, you nodded, hands playing with the frayed hem of his well-worn shirt. “I just,” another sigh, “I just thought about how he’s just. He’s just so perfect and I’m just. Just me.” “No one is perfect, darling.” “No. He is. Like. He’s perfect for me,” you tried to explain, “He always knows when I’m sad and just need a hug. He brings me back my favorite food from the diner, he always goes along with what I want to watch on TV. Hyuckie, he even plays me songs on his guitar if I ask him to. And I just. I don’t do any of that which means I am a terrible girlfriend.” “Hey. Easy. Take a breath,” Donghyuck immediately noticed when your breathing picked up again, soothingly running his hands up and down your back. “But Hyuck-” “Stop, sweetie,” he sighed, softening his voice down again like he was talking to a wounded animal. 

“You don’t get it,” you sighed in defeat, trying to wind yourself out of his embrace. “Hey, stop.” “No. You stop.” “Shh,” Donghyuck shut you up, gently cradling your face between his palms to make you look at him, his eyes boring into yours before his features softened again. “God, you look fucked up,” he giggled, clearly trying to ease the tension that had built between you as he used his thumb to gently wipe away the black streaks of tears on your cheeks. “You’re the worst,” you sniffled but leaned into the comfort of his touch anyways. “You’re not worthless okay?” Your friend reminded you, carefully tucking a strand of hair behind your ear. “But-” “No ifs and buts. You are worthy of love,” he repeated himself, pulling you close so he could press his lips to your forehead in a fleeting kiss. “You hear that?” He whispered, “You’re worthy of being loved. Of- Of you know- Jeno’s love. You probably don’t even realize how much you’re doing for him in return. Like that time when you made us all wait outside that record store because you saw a vinyl he might like? Or when you ditched us so you could be the perfect housewife to surprise him at home with his favorite meal because he was having a rough week. Or when you chewed my ear off about how you found the perfect cat tower on the side of the road and needed me to help you get it into your apartment for the cat he rescued? And those are just the things that I know about.” “Hyuckie…” “No. What I mean is. You’re probably doing all kinds of things for him and you don’t even think twice about it and he’s probably the same. He’s- He- Jeno seemed really in love with you,” he pressed out in one breath, his voice trailing off at the end until it was barely audible. “You think so?” “I wouldn’t lie to you,” Donghyuck promised, running a hand through your hair, “Not about something like that. You are lovable.” 

“Thank you, Hyuckie,” you sighed, winding your arms around his torso and pressing your head into his chest, “I’m sorry for ruining the night.” “You didn’t ruin anything, darling. If we hadn’t gone outside, either of us would probably be puking our guts out right about now,” he joked, gently working out the knots in your hair. “Should we- Should we find a phone and call Jeno?” “Let’s stay like this for a little longer,” your friend whispered, holding you just a little bit closer to shield you from the cold of the night. 

“Good morning, bubblegum,” the deep baritone of Jeno’s voice slowly coaxed you from your sleep. You could only groan, your throat dry and your head pounding with a headache as you tried to bury yourself deeper into your fluffy pillow and blankets that enveloped you with the smell of home and comfort to block out the light of the sun. “You gotta get up, baby. I made breakfast. Well, technically lunch,” he chuckled, the sound like music to your ears. When he yet again didn’t get any reaction out of you, you felt the bed dip next to you with Jeno’s weight. “Come on, bubblegum,” he tried to coax you out again, prying the blankets back that you had pulled tightly around your body, “If you’re not coming out, I’m coming in to your little burrito.” “Jeno,” you whined but let go anyways, not enough strength left in you to fight him off. “Stop fighting me,” he laughed hoarsely, snaking his arms around you to pull your back against his chest so he could nuzzle his face against your neck, pressing small kisses to the skin. “Not fighting you,” you sighed, going lax in his hold, just basking in the attention he was showering you in. 

“You feeling okay?” He asked after a little while. “Headache,” you grumbled, intertwining your fingers where he had them splayed out on your stomach. “You were pretty drunk when I picked you up,” Jeno mumbled lowly to not agitate your headache any further. “‘m sorry…” “No need to,” he reassured you, pressing a kiss to your shoulder, “You were mostly tired and already fell asleep halfway back home. But you- you looked like you had cried.” 

That made you tense up in Jeno’s arms, memories of last night flooding your brain: Of crying in Donghyuck’s embrace, of feeling stupidly worthless and like a terrible girlfriend to Jeno, and of Donghyuck’s comforting words and touch. “Hey,” Jeno gently called out when he felt your body locking up, lifting himself up onto his elbow so he could look down onto you, his kind eyes filled with worry. “You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to, bubblegum,” he immediately reassured you, gently stroking your matted hair from your face. “I just,” you tried to explain it, your voice cracking both because of how dry your throat was and because of the raw emotion in Jeno’s gaze. “Wait. Here,” he interrupted you, carefully grabbing a bottle of water with electrolytes from the bedside table and opening it before he handed it over to you. “Thank you,” you smiled, grunting as you sat up against the headboard, your stomach fluttering with butterflies instead of nausea when your smile was mirrored on Jeno’s face, his eyes just slightly curling into the crescents you loved so much before you took a sip from the drink, the cold liquid doing wonders for your sore throat as well as calming down your upset stomach just a little bit. 

“You look like shit,” Jeno laughed softly when he took the bottle back from you, maneuvering around so he was sat next to you against the headboard of your bed, throwing an arm around your shoulder to hold you close. “Geez, thank you,” you chuckled, letting your head fall back against him. “I didn’t do a good job at cleaning your face,” he snickered, “You look like a little raccoon.” “You cleaned my face? And I didn’t wake up?” “I think you did once after I had carried you all the way up the stairs and put you into bed already,” he chuckled, “Smacked my hands away and mumbled something I couldn’t catch before you hugged my pillow like your life depended on it. Had to sleep without it until you decided it was better to hug me than to suffocate yourself in my pillow.” “I’m sorry,” you pouted, feeling your cheeks heat up with embarrassment, “I don’t know why Donghyuck and I drank so much last night.” “I’m just glad you called me,” Jeno simply said, “And that you were safe out there. I mean. Except for the crying thing…” “Yeah- I- I just- I drank too much and then started thinking and I- I was getting worried and overwhelmed and got lost in my head,” you tried to explain what had happened without worrying him any more than he probably already was. 

Jeno simply hummed to indicate that he had heard you, pressing a kiss to the side of your head. “I don’t know what else to say,” you mumbled, curling your body further into his, craving the comfort his touch always brought you. “You don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to, bubblegum,” he reassured you, winding his arms around you so you could climb onto his lap to bury your head in his neck, your thighs bracketing his hips and inhaling the smell of your laundry detergent mixed with Jeno’s perfume. “I just- I want- Jeno, I-” “Shh,” he gently shushed you, running his hands up and down your back, not unlike Donghyuck had done yesterday just that Jeno knew exactly when to squeeze a little tighter and when to simply leave featherlight touches to calm you down. After a little while, he let his fingers slip beneath your shirt which you only now realized actually belonged to Jeno. It was one of his favorite big, baggy graphic tees, the print already fading with how often he had washed it. Encircling his arms around your naked waist, he pressed you even closer together until you swore you could feel his heart beating in tandem with yours. “You listening?” “Of course I am,” you could feel Jeno’s voice rumble against your chest, “I’m here for you. Always.” “I just- I need you to know that I-” Taking a deep breath, you threaded your fingers into the long strands of hair at the back of Jeno’s head. “Need you to know that I love you. I love you, Jeno. I love you so much. And I appreciate everything you do for me. When you make breakfast and when you pick me up from parties in the middle of the night and when you-” 

“Hey, hey, hey,” Jeno interrupted you, prying your face from his neck so he could look into your eyes, “I know.” “You know?” You sniffled, fighting back the tears that were blurring your vision. “How could I not?” He smiled, gently stroking his thumbs over your skin, “You remind me every day. When you nag me to bring a jacket because it’s going to be cold when my shift is over. Or when you hide my cigarettes and lighter. Or when you whine about how much you miss me after not seeing me for the whole day. When you try to fuse our bodies together on the sofa when we’re watching one of your romance movies. When you play with my hair so I can fall asleep faster. And when you listen to the little mixtapes I make for you.” “Jeno,” you mumbled, feeling how your bottom lip started wobbling. “Hey, don’t start crying on me now,” he chuckled, “I hate seeing the love of my life crying. Especially because of me.” “You can’t call me that and expect me not to cry,” you sniffled, quickly closing and opening your eyes over and over again so your tears wouldn’t spill. “What? The love of my life?” “Yes, that, you idiot,” you whined, weakly hitting him in the chest, a smile spreading on your lips when you saw his grin. “But it’s true,” Jeno smiled, gently cupping your cheek, “You are the love of my life, bubblegum. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone or anything.” “Please stop,” you whined, feeling your face heat up beneath his palm. “Make me then,” he spoke softly while his smile turned mischievous. “You’re the worst, Jeno Lee,” you chuckled, leaning your forehead against his. Up close like this, you were able to count each of Jeno’s long eyelashes that you’d forever be jealous of. “And yet you love me.” “I do. So, so, so much.” 

You didn’t give him a chance to say it back, instead pressing your lips to his in a featherlight kiss. “Love you too,” Jeno breathed against your lips when you parted before catching them with his own again, “Love of my life.” “Stop,” you sighed but fell into him again, languidly moving your lips against his and winding your arms around his shoulders to press yourself against him until not even a sheet of paper could have fit between your bodies, the dark thoughts of last night fading into the back of your mind, behind the little door those feelings were usually locked up in to be replaced by thoughts of Jeno and Jeno only. How solid his body felt beneath your fingertips, how his bangs tickled your face, how he let out these little sighs into the kiss and how his fingers were caressing your skin. Right now, beneath the midday sun peaking through your curtains, sitting on Jeno’s lap, surrounded by him and his love for you, everything was perfect and it felt like Jeno and you were the only people to exist, made for each other to stay like this forever. 

Beautiful 🥰

I love Elide and Lorcan  ❤️❤️❤️

Someday maybe I’ll come up with an artist rendition of what exactly Lorcan did since Sarah didn’t deliver.

Aww, they are so lovely!

Childhood friends <3

Obi-Wan & Bant + Qui-Gon & Tahl

Bant was one of my fav charas in the Jedi Apprentice series but there’s so little art of her…understandable, drawing Mon Calamari is HARD. >.>;

I know Tahl looks quite different from her comic depiction, but this is kind of how I imagined her. I had a chat with @deadcatwithaflamethrower a while ago and we agreed that we both disliked her comic hair and outfit. I have no clue if this is how she imagines Tahl, but this is my take on (Padawan) Tahl ^ ^

(also Qui-Gon’s hair is long + in a hamster tail b/c I personally interpret the Padawan cut as encouraged but not mandatory. And well, if anyone were to ignore suggestions, it’d be Qui-Gon…)

The double couple of the cul de sac besties is funny cause in one hand qiu is both supportive and a hater of seing his besties kissing…. And then in another hand Valentin sees his bestie flirt with their sister.

They both pay the price-

nothing that makes me happier than (re)watching ep1 and seeing charles and edwin's dynamic before they became a group

waste it on me

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✦ Do you understand

with every seed you sow

you make this cold world beautiful ✦

BURNT PROMISES, SECOND CHANCES : a wonwoo atla au.

genre. avatar the last airbender au. arranged marriage au. slow burn. no communication istg. mutual pining. angst. fluff. fire lord wonwoo. nobleman's daughter/fire lady/briefly assassin reader. ft. advisor!jeonghan & brother!mingyu. warnings. wonwoo is frustratingly bad at anything social. reader is neglected. reader is depressed. wonwoo is overworked ngl. dragons. swords. (reckless) firebending. brief brief mention of child abuse. burns from firebending. blood. assassination lol. wonwoo is shirtless like... 3 times BCUZ AXE WANTED IT OKAY?? kissing. pairing. wonwoo x fem!reader. wc. 14.5k (i am so insane and i almost died 15 times writing this.) a/n. this fic is my longest ever fic and tbh idk if i'm ever gonna write a fic this long for a long time. i used to not be able to write more than 3k and then suddenly BOOM 14.5K OUT OF NOWHERE?? this is definitely a fic i'll remember for a long long time, and i have to say i'm extremely proud of it. fandom cross-overs have always been one of my absolute favorite things to write, and this definitely filled a little spot in my heart that i didn't know needed to be filled w a svt atla au. special thanks to @blue-jisungs who has hands down been the most helpful person in me being able to complete this fic-- i seriously wouldn't have finished it without you </3, and thank you to @wheeboo for proofreading this beast for me <3 i love you both very much :D

Wonwoo stood at the edge of the coffin, blank eyes staring down at the body that lay inside it. The news had been shocking to the whole Fire Nation. As far as anyone knew, the late Fire Lord had been healthy and suspected to rule for several more decades, yet here he lay, lifeless and cold in the wooden box. Wonwoo felt neither sadness nor grief. His father had always been a cold man who had shown little attention to his children.

Mingyu, Wonwoo’s younger brother, had become a ship general the year prior, and was still at sea, unable to return in time for the funeral or his brother’s suddenly announced coronation. Though, hearing the news of his father’s passing had started him back in the direction of home, it would take him several months or more to arrive still. He would stay for a month or two before returning to his diplomatic travels to the Earth Kingdom.

Wonwoo had, of course, been aware from a young age that he would one day become the Fire Lord. It was destined for him as the eldest son, and he had spent his entire life leading up to now preparing for it. His training had been twice as intense as Mingyu’s growing up, and while he had sometimes seen it as unfair during his teen years, he quickly grew to understand the burden he must bear as the next in line to the throne.

He had responsibilities that Mingyu did not. He was not only expected to attend extra fire bending lessons, but he was required to be well-versed and knowledgeable in political matters, royal etiquette, local affairs, military management, and public speaking. On paper, he had all the qualifications necessary to be a responsible and wise leader, though it was Wonwoo’s own doubts and uncertainties that led to the uneasy feeling in his stomach at the thought of the power.

His gaze wandered a little, up to the throne surrounded by crimson flames, once occupied by his father, now empty. Soon, he would be the one seated there. There was a sense of pride that flickered in his eyes as he took in the sight. He had always been determined to become a leader that the nation could trust. He had always assumed he would have a little more time to prepare, though.

There were many things that still felt improper about his coronation in two days. For as long as the position of Fire Lord had been in place, it was customary that the lord be already wed before taking the throne. And, if he happened to already have children to secure the family line, even better. 

Wonwoo had neither.

He had barely ever thought about women or love, having been too focused on his studies. But now, the task of finding a wife as quickly as possible was plaguing his mind among the other sudden changes. 

“Your Highness?” 

Wonwoo turned at the sound of the voice echoing in the empty throne room. It belonged to Jeonghan, Wonwoo’s advisor and long-time friend. Jeonghan was one of the few people that maintained Wonwoo’s absolute unwavering trust, something that not even Mingyu could say he possessed.

“I’ve compiled a list of eligible young ladies that would be suitable to be your bride. Given the pressure from the public, there isn’t much time for you to spend much time with them, but if any of them pique your interest, you could at least meet them before the wedding.” He explained, handing over a scroll to Wonwoo. 

Upon unravelling it, Wonwoo scanned a long list of names, each clearly stating who the woman's father was and what connections she had. Below each name was a brief description of background, and important or notable skill sets and events were specifically stated. 

“You’ve put stars next to some names.” Wonwoo noted, furrowing his eyebrows as he read further down the list.

“The stars are to separate the ladies whose fathers have already expressed their approval of their daughters marrying you. I didn’t star the ones who seemed greedy for the throne or possibly had ulterior motives, I might add. I would suggest picking from them if no one particular interests you.” Jeonghan clarified, pointing to a couple of the starred names, “These young ladies are well beloved by the public for their beauty and skills. Some are excellent firebenders, others have accomplishments in different areas.”

“How long do I have to choose?”

“About 4 days… 6 at most. Though, I’m sure the wedding planners and the lady’s family would both be appreciative of extra time to prepare for the ceremony. If you leave it to the last minute, they’ll have to scramble to get everything ready in less than 48 hours.”

Wonwoo nodded, “I’ll decide by this evening and give you my selection. Please set up a meeting with her family for Thursday. If the wedding is on Sunday, I’d like to have at least met her once before then. Thank you for the list, it makes the process a little easier.” He said sternly.

Jeonghan laughed and threw an arm around his shoulder, “Why so gloomy? You’re about to become the Fire Lord! And you get to choose among the most beautiful young ladies of the Fire Nation to be your wife! Brighten up a bit!”

“Despite the celebrations, I’m not feeling particularly cheerful about any of it. I’m juggling the coronation, picking a wife, the wedding, keeping track of Mingyu’s route back from the Earth Kingdom, electing a new army recruit, firing some of the higher ranking generals that only survived because of bribes with my father, and tending to the public’s complaints about the reconstruction on the East side of the city. My brain feels like it’s about to explode.” Wonwoo sighed.

“For this week until your wedding, focus on the first two of those tasks. The coronation will go smoothly even if you don’t write the speech ahead of time. You’ve prepared for many years for this. The rest can wait a little, but you can’t show up to your wedding without first choosing who you are marrying, so please inform me of who you choose as soon as possible.” Jeonghan patted his shoulder reassuringly. 

Wonwoo nodded, taking one last look at the long list of potential wives before rolling the scroll back up, “You’re right. I’ll make sure to give the time sensitive tasks my full attention.”

“Would you like to join me for some tea?” Jeonghan suggested, “I’d like to take one more chance to address you as Prince Wonwoo before your change in title. Or should I start calling you Fire Lord Wonwoo already?” They both laughed at Jeonghan’s teasing, and Wonwoo agreed to the offer for tea. He was glad that amongst all the change, Jeonghan remained a constant steady fixture of his life.

Wonwoo kept his word and picked out a bride from the list before his coronation. He trusted Jeonghan and his judgement on who were the best potential wives, and so he picked from among the starred candidates. After comparing descriptions and seeing some portraits, he finally landed on his final choice.

His crowning as Fire Lord took place on Wednesday. The ceremony went by surprisingly quickly, which relieved him of some of the stress he carried. The Fire Lord headpiece felt heavy and unstable on top of his head, and though he had made it through the coronation, he still felt uneasy. Was he really qualified to take on such an important role?

Wonwoo didn’t get much sleep Wednesday night. Shuffling in the corridors and disturbance of the long red curtains in his bedroom kept him awake most of the night. He was sure it was just all the sudden changes getting to his brain and keeping him up, but the anxious feeling that he couldn’t shake off almost tormented him.

He put on one of his best robes to visit his soon-to-be bride the next morning. The walk to the family’s house was short as they were among the nobility of the Fire Nation and lived within 20 minutes of the royal palace, in the heart of Caldera City. Wonwoo had done some additional research on the lady he had picked with the help of Jeonghan. Since he wasn’t able to pick a bride the traditional way, he wanted to try to lessen the chance of unhappiness in the marriage by trying to pick someone with qualities he respected, which is how he landed on you. 

Y/n L/n: the daughter of a high-ranking government official who worked in Ancient Studies and the Preservation of Fire Nation Culture. Wonwoo had heard that your father was quite the fire-bending expert, though it was said that you did not possess the gift. You were renowned for your beauty and intelligence, as well as a kind heart. 

If it was true that you fit the description, Wonwoo had high hopes that even if he didn’t fall in love, he would still be able to proudly say that you were his wife. He just hoped that you wouldn’t despise him. He didn’t have the best track record when it came to romance.

Being busy with his princely duties and preparing for the throne all his life, whenever he received any romantic gestures or subtle flirting from girls, they usually went right over his head. He didn’t have the slightest grasp on the concept of flirting or reciprocating emotions, and since it wasn’t something that came naturally to him as a teen, he always assumed that he would learn later in life. He had always expected there to be plenty of years for him to find a wife when he felt ready. He certainly hadn’t bet on being rushed into it when he was barely 22. 

But this was the way things had panned out, and Wonwoo had no choice but to face it head on. He was the Fire Lord now. There was no room for nervousness.

He left his guards by the gate of the house, strolling through the pleasant front gardens by himself. There was a stone pathway that led to the front of the house. He took his time getting there, stopping to smell the flowers that had been planted on either side. His real intention of getting to the door as slowly as possible was his quickly growing nerves in the pit of his stomach, but he masked it well.

As soon as he knocked on the door (Wonwoo swore even before he opened the door), it was opened by family servants. They immediately bowed at him and welcomed him inside, leading him towards a large sitting room where the family was waiting for him.

His eyes immediately fell on you, and without even knowing, his lips upturned into a small smile. The portrait he had been given of you really didn’t do you any justice. You were infinitely better in person, he thought. He introduced himself and took a seat, preparing for the conversation that would unfold in the next hour or more. 

He could tell that you were nervous as you talked. You fiddled with your fingers in your lap each time you had to answer a question Wonwoo or your father posed, and for some reason, it made Wonwoo feel more at ease. He was glad he wasn’t the only one feeling anxious over this first meeting, though he was sure no one would be able to tell. He had perfected his public speaking at the age of twelve.

The basic introductions and formalities were coming to an end after almost an hour of speaking. Wonwoo had clarified all the expectations that would come of being a Fire Lady and your father seemed overjoyed that Wonwoo was taking interest in his daughter.

“It seems this conversation is dying down a little. Would you mind if I talked with Y/n alone? Perhaps we could take a walk around the garden?” Wonwoo asked gently and was met with enthusiasm from both your parents.

“Of course! Take as long as you want with her.”

You led the way out to the back garden which Wonwoo found to be even more charming than the front garden. There were twice as many flowers, as well as a stone fountain in the centre of the grounds. What Wonwoo found most pleasing was the small turtle duck pond nestled by a tree. He made his way over to it with you.

“I hope you’re not… opposed to this marriage?” Wonwoo started tentatively, first addressing his biggest fear.

Thankfully, you smiled and shook your head, “I would be a fool to be opposed to a marriage to the Fire Lord.”

“But, are you not disappointed?” He asked.

Again, you shook your head, “You must be referring to the fact that we are not marrying for love? Of course I had always hoped that my marriage would contain mutual love and respect… who knows, maybe it still can? I know I will be making my parents happy with this, and I am flattered that I, of all the Fire Nation, seemed to catch your attention. I wouldn’t have accepted this marriage if I hadn’t considered thoroughly all that it would entail. I’m ready to commit to being your wife, though I am not sure why you sought out me.” 

Wonwoo smiled, “You don’t seem to give yourself enough credit. Your list of accomplishments was longer than any of the other ladies.”

“My ‘list’?” You questioned, digging into your pocket to pull out a small piece of wrapped up fabric.

“Yes,” Wonwoo laughed softly, “Given the rush for this marriage, I was given a list of ladies to pick from to make it easier.”

You unfolded the piece of fabric, revealing some small pieces of bread, and crouched down to toss one piece into the water. A baby turtle duck swam up to eat it immediately, the others following along, hoping to get a piece of the bread too. Wonwoo smiled again, watching you feed the turtle ducks with care. He hoped you would like the turtle duck pond at the palace as well. 

“What accomplishments were on that list… If I may ask?” You were curious. You didn’t view your life as particularly grand or accomplished. You had spent most of your childhood sheltered and started school late.

“You graduated top of your class from one of the most prestigious schools in the nation. I heard you took up a variety of extra classes beyond the basics, including painting and even army history despite not being able to firebend. Your list of charity work was particularly long. If I remember correctly… over ten different organizations are in your name?” 

“I’m glad they included that, at least. It might be one of the only things I’m actually good at.” You mumbled, and Wonwoo furrowed his eyebrows.

You stood up again to face him, “Is it true that you own a dragon?” 

Wonwoo was partially taken aback by your question, but he answered it nonetheless, “Yes. Part of my firebending training was studying the behaviours of Huoyan. We learned together. She was just a baby when I got her. I owe my firebending skills more so to her than any of my past masters.”

You watched Wonwoo talk about his dragon, intent on the way his eyes— which had been dull and tired looking all during his visit— seemed to brighten and sparkle as soon as he started telling you about Huoyan. You had always been interested in animals, particularly Fire Nation ones. You took close care of the turtle ducks, but because you couldn’t firebend, you were never allowed to own a dragon.

“She sounds incredible. If you wouldn’t mind…” You started, your cheeks flushing halfway through. You weren’t sure if what you were about to ask was entirely appropriate— you could be majorly overstepping. The way Wonwoo was waiting expectantly pushed you to complete it, though. “Would you be so kind as to introduce me to her once I move into the palace?” 

Wonwoo graced you with a smile back, “Of course. Once you move into the palace I’ll be sure to introduce you to her. Perhaps I could even take you for a ride on her?” Wonwoo suggested, and was met with your ready agreement. You asked again if you really had his word to complete the request. You wouldn’t rest until you were sure of his sincerity. You grinned when he promised— within the first week of being at the palace, in fact, you would be well acquainted with his dragon. 

Wonwoo had other meetings for the day, so he had to leave shortly after your discussion about dragons. The next time you would see him, he would be your husband. You wondered how living with him would be. Would it feel awkward and cold like your conversation in the house or would it feel warm and honest like the brief discussion about dragons?

You hoped it would be the latter, but you soon found that your hope only led to disappointment.

Your wedding to Wonwoo was a very public affair. All the nobles and half of the middle class of the Fire Nation were invited to the ceremony. While you weren’t unused to public events from growing up in the nobility, the massive number of people attending a royal event as prestigious as a wedding was definitely foreign to you. You used to be part of the crowd and only very rarely the subject of attention. Given that you were becoming the Fire Lady, you would have to get used to the attention quickly.

There was no chance to talk to Wonwoo before the ceremony, despite getting ready at the palace. The servants helped you with your wedding garments, which were fancier than anything you had ever put on before. The gold elements of the luxurious silk robe were hand-sewn on and glimmered when the light shone on them. They depicted flames of gold and red, and even the red thread seemed to shine brightly. The dress was mostly made up of a rich dark red material which was lightweight but clearly much higher quality than anything you could buy at a market. 

The maids applied gold shimmer to your eyes as well as a dark red lip, as was traditional of the wife of the Fire Lord. The last piece of your outfit was an elegant headpiece. It, too, was gold and was pinned uncomfortably tight into your hair to keep from slipping. 

You looked in the mirror one last time before the ceremony, turning your face to the side to view every angle with scrutiny. These were your last few minutes as just the daughter of nobility. Within half an hour, you would be the new wife of Fire Lord Wonwoo, ruler of the Fire Nation.

As soon as you stepped into the view of the public, there were deafening cheers. More than half the Fire Nation was in attendance, it seemed. Such a cause for celebration hadn’t happened in years. 

The public had always been nosy about the personal lives of the royal family. There were groups of people who loved to romanticise it and believed that every royal wedding only came about when a son or daughter of the royal family had fallen into the deepest of love. 

There were people with a bit more sense, thankfully. They still wished you and Wonwoo to have the happiest marriage possible, but their judgement wasn’t clouded with the unrealistic idea that royals had the luxury of marrying for love. 

You could only hope that Wonwoo would fall in love with you. You believed yourself capable of loving him if you were sure he loved you back. Until you were sure, though, you took everything with healthy apprehension. You weren’t going to allow your mind to be clouded with the softness and warmth that you had felt from him during your walk in the garden. Your mother had always told you that you couldn’t judge a person by how they acted when they were trying to make a good first impression. You needed to watch and silently observe— and only then would you know the true nature of your husband.

This is why your eyes stayed firmly on Wonwoo throughout the ceremony and afterparty. The public thought you were enamoured with him, oblivious to the fact that you had barely spent more than two hours in his presence. You were eager for the wedding to finally be over, hoping in your mind that Wonwoo would invite you to meet Huoyan after.

He did not, though. Instead, he bowed to you and said he had some things to attend to before retreating back to his chambers, letting the servants show you to your new room. You were disheartened when you realized it was almost on the opposite side of the palace from Wonwoo’s. What kind of married couple slept so far apart? Even the justification of this being an arranged political marriage didn’t constitute that level of separation. 

You sat down on the edge of the bed, contemplating the issue. Your brain was screaming to bring it up with Wonwoo. How were you supposed to get close to him when you were separated during the day and during the night? He was your husband. There was no reason why you couldn’t bring it up with him. 

But what if he wanted to be separate from you? You thought about the possibilities for minutes before finally dismissing it. You felt nervous at the thought of asking him about it first. You didn’t have the courage to speak to him that freely yet— you were sure you would sound entitled if you did. 

You hoped that the situation was just a result of how the royal palace worked, and not because Wonwoo had no wish to get to know you more. Despite growing up a nobel, you had never set foot inside the royal palace and were ignorant to its inner workings. But there was still time to learn.

You spent the next 2 weeks familiarizing yourself with the palace and your responsibilities as Fire Lady. There weren’t many— especially compared to the Fire Lord’s responsibilities— but it was enough to keep you busy for a few hours of the day. They were mostly social matters, enriching yourself with the people of the nation, and listening to their concerns.

You quite liked the work you were given. You had always excelled at finding solutions to tricky problems, and it stimulated your brain much more than at home. The times you were working were the best part of your day. When you were left on your own in the palace, you succumbed to boredom. It was big and empty inside— the only warmth in the place coming from the elaborate flames used as decoration. It didn’t feel like home to you, so you spent most of your day by the turtle duck pond in the gardens. Though you longed for some human interaction, the turtle ducks at least kept you company.

One thing continued to bother you, though.

You barely saw Wonwoo at all.

Since your wedding, you had only had two other conversations with him in 2 weeks, each of which only lasted for a few minutes. Wonwoo woke up earlier than you did and didn’t wait for you to come down to eat breakfast to start on his tasks as Fire Lord for the day. He would often go on overnight trips without informing you, which made you feel almost invisible to him. 

Whenever you crossed paths with him inside the palace, he was very clearly on his way to somewhere important and couldn’t spare any time for you. You had started to try to initiate conversations with him in hopes that a little effort would break the ice between you two— just simple things like asking about his work or how his day had been. He responded gently, but it was very clear in his tone that he had no desire to continue talking to you. It had been unsuccessful so far, as each conversation ended abruptly when one of the servants called for Wonwoo’s attention or he excused himself from your presence. 

You often saw him talking to his advisor: Jeonghan. He seemed to follow your husband around everyday with a huge pile of scrolls. You assumed they were the daily tasks of the Fire Lord.

You were the last person to interrupt someone when they were so clearly busy working, so you kept to yourself as much as you could. Despite your loneliness and constant boredom, time seemed to pass quickly. April fourteenth marked six months post the wedding. By this time, it was quite usual for you to not even see Wonwoo at the palace for weeks at a time. 

You didn’t ask for much. You were never a greedy or dependent person. But the lack of attention given from Wonwoo had started to affect you more than you realized. You used to be social and bright, filled with energy to tend to people’s issues or helping animals. Now, you barely even went out to the market anymore. 

You had become rather dull and cold to Wonwoo whenever you saw him, hoping that he might pick up on your change of demeanour and fix something in his attitude, but he seemed as oblivious as ever. In your head, you had absolutely resigned to the fact that your husband did not care for you at all, and that the rest of your marriage would carry on in this sad lonely state. He still slept in his room that was on the other side of the palace from you. He still kept busy with duties all day long. He still woke up earlier than you and turned in early (you had started to think that he was doing this to purposefully avoid you). You felt hopeless and your loneliness brought with it depression.

You even felt a little betrayed by him. He had made several promises to your father that first meeting, one of which was that you would be sure to be happy and content at the palace. He couldn’t have been more wrong on that. 

Your brain also kept going back to his later promise that he made to you in the garden— that you would get to meet Huoyan as soon as you moved in. All these months, you had clung in vain to that side of Wonwoo in the garden. If he was truly like that to you everyday, you were sure you would’ve fallen deeply in love with him.

But now you knew for certain that it was all just an act. You had been wrong about Wonwoo all this time. He had no intention of getting to know you. The warmth you had once felt from him was truly a one-time thing. You didn’t expect that he would ever showcase that sincerity to you ever again.

Over time, you slowly lost interest in making an effort, and retreated further into your new life of solitude. There was a lot you could do in your room, big open space secluded from the rest of the palace. With a quick trip to the palace armoury one late night, you found yourself a new hobby.

If you had done this right after your wedding, you would’ve made sure to ask Wonwoo about it first; another precaution in hopes of being a “good wife” and “one that he could grow to love”. Having tried everything you possibly could think of and failing at that task, though, you didn’t care if he minded or not. The servants all took your orders as the Fire Lady without any questioning, and you quickly learned to use your position of power to keep yourself entertained enough to not entirely lose your mind stuck doing nothing for months.

And so, with two borrowed long swords from Wonwoo’s collection, one sharp dagger, fifteen ancient martial arts scrolls and five sword-fighting ones, you dedicated yourself to the art of self defense and battle. If you were careful enough, Wonwoo would hear nothing about this.

Wonwoo had been anticipating Mingyu’s arrival back home for weeks. It was unsurprising that he had taken twice the expected amount of time to get back home than any other general would have. Mingyu’s skills at directing a fleet of ships were… questionable. No one could strip him of his position, though. His title as prince overruled any judgement from any of his crew.

“Wonwoo! How have you- Ow!” 

Wonwoo looked up from the map he was studying, quick enough to catch Mingyu hop forward in pain, clutching his foot from where he had bumped it against the edge of a table. Wonwoo smiled. He had a lot of affection for his younger brother, no matter how incompetent he was sometimes. And though he would never admit it, he had missed him while he had been gone for a year.

“I’ve been well. It’s still the same here. Quiet. Especially when you’re away.” Wonwoo commented, rolling up the map and setting it aside.

“It’s still the same? Father died, you became Fire Lord, and you got yourself a wife, yet it’s still the same?!” Mingyu asked incredulously. Wonwoo could only nod, stepping down from the throne to walk with Mingyu.

“How is married life?” Mingyu asked once the two were walking out of the throne room.

Wonwoo shrugged, “I thought it would be different from being single, but it barely is. I still spend most of my time in solitude.” 

“Don’t you talk to her?” 

Wonwoo paused before answering, “I don’t see her much. We both seem to be rather busy.”

“Do you at least make an effort to talk to her when you can? You can’t be that busy. No matter how many tasks you had, I know you still drink tea with Jeonghan every day.” Mingyu pointed out, disappointed in his brother’s excuses. “I know you were always hopeless when it comes to this, but you must have considered how lonely she must feel in solitary in this massive palace, right?” Mingyu studied Wonwoo’s face carefully, sighing when he caught the guilty look in his eyes which he had hoped would not appear.

“So let me get this straight,” He took a breath, “You married one of the prettiest ladies in all of the Fire Nation, only to never talk to her and then wonder why married life is so quiet?” 

Wonwoo admitted to it in a hesitant mutter, causing Mingyu to groan.

“God, you’re stupider than I thought! At this rate, she’ll want to break off the marriage, Wonwoo. Don’t you see that she has the power to ruin your reputation as Fire Lord if she chooses? If you don’t remedy this, she could tell the entire Fire Nation that their beloved Fire Lord is a cold and cruel man with no affection for his wife, despite her efforts to get closer to him.” Mingyu stated clearly.

Wonwoo frowned. He had never thought of that possibility before. “It’s been… almost a year since our wedding already.” Wonwoo realized, shocked at how fast the time had all gone. The days seemed to bleed into one another, and with his lack of sleep keeping up with daily tasks, you were often the last thing on his mind.

“Do you think it’s even possible to make it up to her now?”

“Well, yes, you have worsened your chances of fixing it by studiously ignoring her existence for 12 months, but you shouldn’t feel completely hopeless. If you put in the right amount of effort, she might come around.”

“What should a husband do to try to win the affection of his wife?” Wonwoo asked, feeling completely overwhelmed at the situation. 

“Send her flowers, do her favourite activities together, take her on dates, devote time to her! And for God’s sake, don’t forget your own wedding anniversary! You can’t expect her to care for you when you don’t give her any of your time.” Mingyu explained frustratedly. Among the two brothers, he was definitely the more experienced when it came to love. Unlike Wonwoo, he actually had time to date amongst his other commitments. 

Wonwoo felt a pit in his stomach, an uncomfortable lurch in his core that was screeching out all the mistakes he had made. He realized in an instant how truly awful he had been treating you without even knowing it. He had foolishly assumed that you, being of nobility already, would do fine on your own in the palace. Given the nature of the marriage, he hadn’t even considered your possible desire to get closer to him, or the stress that would come with being uprooted so abruptly, going from your own familiar living space to the deafening quiet of the royal palace. Now that he was aware of all of these errors on his part, he felt a strange crack in his heart; an ache that couldn’t be soothed without knowing that he could make you happy again.

He had made many mistakes— almost innumerable. As his brain raced, it only pulled more and more instances of your clear discomfort that he had never bothered to pay attention to before this moment. He thought back to every interaction he had with you over the months, and it was never more clear to him that you had only been comfortable around him during your first meeting together. The feelings that the dragon conversation had brought in both of you had never been repeated.

Wonwoo now knew what he needed to do. He was determined to get you back to the way you were smiling and laughing that first conversation. He needed to fulfil his promises— however late he was to that. And he had a hope that the key to setting everything to rights was sleeping on his back doorstep: Huoyan.

Your mental health had significantly improved since you had picked up your new hobby. It gave you a thrilling surge of excitement whenever you were able to pick up the two long swords from the box under your bed. It was more dangerous than anything you had ever been allowed to try as a nobleman’s daughter— yet, it was always something you had been interested in.

You liked delicate things well enough. Sewing and painting and dancing were all enjoyable hobbies, but they never truly excited you as much as dragons or firebending or sword fighting. You had grown up watching your father teach Fire Nation history and demonstrate some of the very first fire bending techniques; learned straight from the dragons. 

Tried as you did when you were a child, you could never seem to produce a single spark or flame. It disheartened you early on in life, and once that fantasy of adventure had been shut down, your father never saw the point in teaching you sword fighting. You had been disclosed to be a gentleman’s lady: one who sat still and looked pretty and smiled a lot. But now that you had the tools and authority, you weren’t one to let this chance to indulge your inner child go.

You quickly got in the habit of sneaking out to test your quickly improving skills in the real world. You used the training grounds in the middle of the night when no one would see you, and after a couple months, you felt confident enough to go even further. You found a list of active criminals in the Fire Nation and took it upon yourself to take them on.

Charity work had always been your favourite— helping people had always been your passion. It fuelled you like nothing else had, and each night that you snuck back into the palace having successfully taken down another threat was another night you slept soundly. 

It wasn’t long until the Fire Nation started to notice. A new hero taking out the nation’s top criminals— ones that not even the royal guard had been able to capture. They named you The Scarlet Shadow for your dark crimson and black robes and your proficiency in the art of stealth. Your smaller frame and stature helped you get around unseen. You used the shadows to your advantage, slipping in and out of them without being caught. 

It was incredible how much you learned without a dedicated master. You wished you could hire one, but you didn’t want to be found out by Wonwoo, so you kept everything as secretive as possible. You spent the entire day reading scrolls and practicing in the privacy of your room. Once the sun set and you had told the servants you were sleeping early yet again, you snuck out.

It was now the first week of October, and you were dreadfully reminded that your first wedding anniversary would come on the fourteenth of the month. The first six months had been some of the worst of your life— mercilessly having been ignored and made to feel insignificant by your own husband. But the latter six brought some of the best months of your life.

The freedom of The Scarlet Shadow completely disconnected you from your duties as the Fire Lady. It brought a freedom that you never had, and if this was how you would be spending the rest of your life in the palace, you would gladly accept it.

Your target for tonight— the fourth of October— was an infamous and nefarious man named Orin. He was known to capture children from homeless Fire Nation families with an excuse of paying taxes. He then sold them to the rich and corrupt as slaves. The abuse didn’t stop there, as many of them were malnourished, overworked, never paid, and even beaten. 

Your heart ached for the victims of the man. You had known about this situation for years, but was never able to do anything about it. Given his reputation, Orin would have probably taken one look at you before being determined to marry you. You could only wonder at what horrors his past wives had to go through. They had all run away from him as soon as possible. Some, less fortunate ones, had died trying.

You got dressed in your garments: a black and red robe that was easy to move and fight in. It was stealthy, and didn’t make any sound when you walked in it unlike the fancy bejewelled silk robes that you wore as Fire Lady. You sheathed the long swords and stuck the dagger safely in your shoe, ready to pull out and throw when you needed to. You pulled up the black cloth over your nose, shielding all but your eyes so that no one could identify you. 

And then, you jumped out the window.

It was a cold night: one of the first proper ones in October. Given the change of the season, more people were sleeping earlier. Most of the city was hushed and in their beds already, which made your task even easier. It was always more risky to navigate in the summertime when night festivals were held until morning.

Orin’s house (or mansion, that is) was on the East side of town. The man slept late, usually partying until the early hours of the morning. You wished you could get the job done while he was sleeping, but it would be too risky. If anyone found out that you weren’t at the palace, you would never hear the end of it from your personal servants and advisors. You grimaced, thinking what Wonwoo would think of this whole situation.

You weren’t sure why he was always on your mind. Everything you did came back to him, even though you still didn’t know him. You had always thought that the relationship between a husband and his wife should be intimate and companionable. You wanted to be able to tell your husband anything and everything— to be able to confide in him and seek comfort when you needed it. You wanted to be taken care of, and in turn, take care of him. You wanted the supporting relationship that you had seen in your parents.

And though you knew that Wonwoo had none of these qualities, you still held out hope that he would one day improve. You had seen many people have changes of heart; even the cruelest man had a chance to change his ways.

When you had first met Wonwoo, you had been overcome with just how beautiful he was. You had been so sure that his heart must be as beautiful as his face, foolishly having fallen for his charming smile and pleasant offers which you now knew were just a facade to win you over. Your chest tightened thinking about how wrong you were. 

Yes, he was still the most beautiful man you had ever seen. His dark silky hair always fell perfectly over his forehead, hitting just below his eye, complementing his face shape. He always dressed in only the finest silk. You admitted to being guilty of admiring his figure from afar. You were sure he was in shape— any firebender who trained as vigorously as he definitely was. You had never seen more than a sliver of his collarbone; but it was enough to confirm that he had enough muscle to run a nation.

And that was something you did admire about him. He was able to run the Fire Nation to perfection. Within the first months of being Fire Lord, he had already come up with several clever solutions to problems that his late father had started. He was healing the Fire Nation’s relationship with the Earth Kingdom through his younger brother, Mingyu. He sent diplomats to the other 2 nations as well, promising aid in any crisis that might arise. He preached peace and harmony between the 4 nations, and you were glad he wasn’t a proud Fire Lord with elitist ideals, but a humble and honest one.

You still held respect for him as a Fire Lord, but any respect that you had for him as a person was dwindling the more days spent as if you didn’t exist. You longed to be noticed, to be treated as an actual person. You didn’t need to experience love, but you had always wanted to. Didn’t you deserve to at least once?

Wonwoo huffed, sweat beading on his forehead and back from the challenging training he had set himself to do. He breathed, and with each breath came new sparks of fire. It was hot in the room, but he barely noticed, too focused on the new skill he was attempting to master. It was a sort of jet propulsion— using the flames he was able to create to propel him forward at a high speed. 

Huoyan watched him from the corner where she napped. Her red scales brandished against the warm light that came from the fire in the room. Since Wonwoo was 13, he had stopped taking lessons from the palace masters and learned on his own with Huoyan instead. She was a strict master, one could say; but the bond he had created with her was stronger than anything else.

Wonwoo attempted the move again, faltering at the last second, causing the blast to hit the ceiling in an uneven flurry. He groaned and fell to the ground, frustrated at how long it was taking. He used to be the quickest learner in the Fire Nation. He was able to focus all his attention on mastering new skills with ease, and that allowed him to pick up on techniques twice as quickly as others.

He just couldn’t focus at all right now.

Huoyan whined from the corner, showing her disapproval of Wonwoo’s inability to pick things up quickly. He frowned, rolling to the side, still on the floor, and looked at her. She was curled up, almost catlike, her wings wrapped around her body like a blanket. But Wonwoo couldn’t miss the grumpy look on her face. He stood up and walked over to her, reaching out his hand to rest on her nose, scratching it gently.

“I’m sorry, Huoyan. I don’t think I’m in the right mindset to train right now…” He muttered, sitting down in front of the dragon. He reached over for his silk robe that he had folded before training, slipping his arms through the arm holes again but not bothering to tie it across his body. Huoyan licked Wonwoo's hand— a sign of affection and trust amongst dragons and their owners, and Wonwoo smiled.

“Do you think she hates me?” Wonwoo asked quietly, not really looking for an answer from the dragon, though she gave him a low rumble. “Right. She probably does. I would hate me too…” He sighed, running a hand through his hair. He had been thinking of you ever since Mingyu had come to visit almost a month ago. It was all he could think about. The guilt was eating him up from the inside out. Whenever he heard mention of you, his stomach lurched forward and the guilt practically doubled. 

“I don’t know what I need to prioritize anymore. I prepared my whole life for being the Fire Lord… I’ve learned what to do in situations and what choices to make that keep the wellbeing of the entire nation at its core. But no one prepared me for being a husband. How do I even make it up to her?” He frowned. 

He had always confided in Huoyan. As ridiculous as it sounded to talk to a dragon, Wonwoo had always found it the most natural. She couldn’t give him responses like Mingyu or Jeonghan, but she had insights that they didn’t. She couldn’t talk, but Wonwoo could still understand her. Their bond was strong enough for that.

He was too scared to talk to Jeonghan about his struggles. He was sure that he would laugh at him, unable to see how serious the problem was. He had never had any problem with dating or love.

“How do I show her that I care?” Wonwoo questioned. Huoyan huffed, making Wonwoo scowl and raise an eyebrow. “What do you mean? Of course I care about her! She’s my wife. It’s a husband’s duty to care for his wife.”

Huoyan shifted, tucking her wings closer to her chest and wagging her long tail along the floor.

“You’re right, I haven’t been showing her any attention… But… I have noticed her. I always have. She looked hopeful… and then… it was gone. I-I watched it fade away. Her eyes stopped shining. They’ve been dull for months.” He explained, distraught. “I wanted to talk to her. She always caught me at my busiest— or maybe I’m just… too nervous? You should see her Huoyan. She’s prettier than you. I’ve never seen anyone so… angelic. She used to try to start conversations with me; ask about my day and the sort. I wanted to keep talking to her but my heart would race so fast in my chest. It felt… uncomfortable.” He narrated with a small smile. Huoyan listened intently, her eyes closed. Every once and a while she would give a response— a grunt or a huff whenever Wonwoo was being unreasonable.

The conversation proved incredibly productive thanks to Huoyan’s sharp ears. Wonwoo was able to let out all his thoughts. Explaining them out loud helped him understand where things had gone wrong and how he could fix them. He decided to talk to you tonight. No more avoiding it out of fear, no more suppressing the guilt he felt. He would lay it all out to you; admit to every mistake. 

He needed to earn your trust, and he would do that with being painfully honest. He knew his ego would take a massive blow, but it already had. It was dwindling. The great Fire Lord that he had always aspired to be wasn’t able to even win over his own wife. The thought was laughable.

The walk down the corridor towards your bedroom was filled with nerves. His throat felt dry as he gave a gentle knock to your door. When he didn’t hear a response, his heart sank, but he knocked again. Did you hate him so much that you weren’t even willing to listen to him?

His chest tightened at the thought. He felt entirely helpless. If you wouldn’t even listen to him, there was nothing else he could try. He knocked one more time, calling out that he would open the door if you didn’t say anything.

There was no response, and so he pushed it open slowly.

The room was empty, and Wonwoo’s eyes widened. You had nowhere to go except for the palace and the servants had informed him that you had gone to bed early and should be in your room. 

Panic flooded through every inch of Wonwoo’s body. From the top of his head to his finger tips. His hands started to shake as he thought of all the possibilities.

The most likely of which? Kidnapping.

You were a nobleman’s daughter. You weren’t a firebender— you couldn’t defend yourself. You were the Fire Lady, an extremely desirable victim for enemies of the Fire Nation who wished to get some leverage over Wonwoo. His mind raced to the possibilities of needing to choose between you and whatever the people who took you wanted.

If it were a case of life or death, he would choose you in an instant.

Thanks to his extensive training, Wonwoo was easily able to think of the best move to take. Mingyu had brought with him a pack of shirshu from the Earth Kingdom. They were excellent trackers. They would be able to find you faster than Wonwoo’s search party could.

He found one of your headpieces from on top of your vanity and took it. He was in a frenzied rush, calling over his personal guards to come with him in case he needed backup. He had the shirshu sniff the headpiece, a relieved sigh escaping him when the animal seemed to pick up on your trail. He mounted Huoyan and had the guards go with the Shirshu, and started on the hasty search.

His heart was racing the entire time. Each time it looked like the shirshu had picked up on something, his heart rate felt like it doubled. It didn’t take long to find where you were, but when Wonwoo realized the location, his heart completely sank.

Orin was well known in the upper circle of the Fire Nation, and he was without a doubt, the most sickening man Wonwoo had ever met. His father had held a position in government and Orin had inherited it. Though Wonwoo wanted to arrest the man or even banish him from the Fire Nation, he didn’t have the means to expose him for his wrongdoings yet.

Kidnapping was one thing, but knowing that you were in the hands of Orin had Wonwoo’s stomach twisting inside out. He had never felt so sick to his stomach. And worst of all, it was all mostly directed towards himself. He hated himself.

If he had taken better care of you then this would never have happened. If he had paid attention to you— made sure you were safe and happy and looked after. If he had gotten over his stupid nerves and been a good husband, then you would never have had to have suffered like this.

Until he saw you with his own eyes, he could only pray with his entire being that you were still alive. He didn’t even want to think about the things Orin could do to you. Would he manipulate you? Threaten you? Take advantage of you? Harm you? Kill you?

He didn’t wait another second to storm into the house, startling the servants who quickly got out of the way. He quickly made a search through the entire house, his guards taking the lower floors while he took the upper. He blasted down the door to Orin’s bedchambers with firebending, not wasting a second to rush in.

What he found there was certainly not what he expected. The man was lying on the floor, a pool of blood underneath him, dripping out from a heavy stab wound to his chest. It was obvious that he wouldn’t survive more than 10 minutes at the most.

Before he took his chance to interrogate Orin, he saw a dark figure jumping out of the window from his peripheral vision. Was it the person who killed Orin? Then… Could they have taken you?

Wonwoo quickly changed his course, believing that going after the assassin would be more productive. If they had killed Orin then they must also know where you were, and maybe even, what Orin had done to you. He knew better than to trust anything Orin said to him. It was likely that even if he asked, the man would lie even until his dying breath. Honesty had never been one of Orin’s virtues. Not that he had any of those to begin with.

It was hard to pursue a person dressed in black and dark red during the night time. Wonwoo was thinking with a panicked and terrified brain— and so the easiest way he thought of to see where he was going was to firebend. He tried to be careful as he sprinted, shooting flames in front of him when he needed to. Sweat was building up as the exertion started to take a toll on his body. He needed to catch his breath; calm himself down from the panic he was dealing with. But the assassin was almost within reach, so he pushed his body just a little further.

He blasted one more flame forwards, but due to his exhaustion, it wasn’t perfectly aimed. It hit the assassin square in the back, knocking them to the ground roughly. Wonwoo’s eyes widened and he rushed forward. 

He heard them cough, trying to roll on the ground to put out the flame, but it had clearly already burned through their garments. They screamed as the fire scorched their skin. Wonwoo felt like he couldn’t breathe. He had never used firebending so carelessly before. Even in an Agni Kai, he was focused and precise. He had rarely been in combat that wasn’t for training purposes, and even when he was, he knew how important it was to stay in control of fire. It was known that fire was the easiest element to lose control of; and so, the first thing that new firebenders were taught was the first rule of fire bending to never break: never lose control of your flame. 

But Wonwoo had done just that.

Wonwoo quickly put out the flame on the assassin’s back, grimacing at the bright red scorch marks they had left on their skin. From the design of the robes, he quickly realized that this wasn’t just any assassin. He had come in contact with The Scarlet Shadow. 

He quickly pushed her back so that her face was up, holding her shoulders so that her exposed back couldn’t come into contact with the rubble on the road. His hand trembled as he moved to pull down the black fabric covering the assassin’s face. She needed to be able to breath easily after being burned so badly.

Wonwoo had already been through enough panic tonight, but this was more than anything else. The face he was faced with once he removed the cloth was the last one he ever expected. Soft eyebrows, delicate eyelashes closed over eyes that he knew well, perfect lips parted to let uneven heaves escape, cheeks tainted with dirt and scraped from the fall. 

“No… N-no…” He struggled to breath, holding her up as carefully as he could. His eyes stung with tears that he refused to let fall and his chest constricted for the fifth time that night. It had all gone wrong from the start— his attempts to help had all backfired. And now he was faced with a reality that felt like a stab to the heart.

Wonwoo had burned his own wife.

Wonwoo’s brain made sure to remind him of his very first conversation with you as Huoyan flew him back to the palace, you securely in his arms. You had asked to meet his dragon. You had been excited to, even making sure he promised to. Those promises had burned to the ground like everything else. He would never allow himself to forget the sparkle in your eyes as you asked him. He hadn’t seen the same shimmer of excitement since you had first become his wife.

“Would you be so kind as to introduce me to her once I move into the palace?” 

He had smiled at your question back then. He had been pleasantly surprised that you seemed so interested in dragons. It wasn’t what he would have expected from you, but it gave him hope that he would be able to go closer to you. He had also always loved dragons.

“Of course. Once you move into the palace I’ll be sure to introduce you to her. Perhaps I could even take you for a ride on her?”

Take you for a ride on her. That promise was finally being completed now, in the worst way Wonwoo could ever imagine. He held you a little closer as he thought about it, his heavy breath dispersing into the air with every heavy sweep of Huoyan’s wings.

He would never forgive himself.

The healers at the royal palace were the nation’s best, and Wonwoo made sure that they had strict orders to give you their full attention. He couldn’t leave the room; couldn’t bear to think of leaving you again. No, he would stick by your side from now on. He would never leave you alone. He would devote all his attention— his heart, his mind, his body, his soul to loving you. He would make sure you never questioned his affections again. 

As he watched the healers apply medicinal creams and ointment to your back, he was again reminded of that very first conversation with you. 

“Of course I had always hoped that my marriage would contain mutual love and respect… who knows, maybe it still can?”

Your hope and optimism was something Wonwoo should have cherished. Your faith that a love-filled marriage was still possible for you was a quality that he could only wish he possessed. He had been entirely foolish. He had made every mistake possible to make. He had watched silently as all that hope and excitement and trust had faded from your body.

He would never forgive himself.

He always saw you roaming the corridors alone. You often went out to feed the turtle ducks. They were your only company other than the servants. Wonwoo assumed at first that you would immediately find ways of entertaining yourself. You had all the power you could wish for; anyone would bend knee and foot to your every command. You could host extravagant balls or buy gifts for yourself from across the world. You could wear the most precious gemstones and fabrics in the entire Fire Nation. 

But you never did. Your humbleness had stuck with you all this time. It was something that Wonwoo could not take away from you. He didn’t know whether to be grateful for that or not. The virtue was admirable, but if you had not possessed it, could you have been happier?

Wonwoo shook his head. It was all too late for these trifling what if’s and maybe’s. The past was set in stone, unchangeable. All he could do was look to the future with hope and treat the present with the proper determination to change his ways.

Your burns were severe. Being blasted by such a powerful fireball from such a short distance had certainly left an impression. Wonwoo cried when he first saw it. Red, angry, scorched skin marked right in the middle of your back, sticking out awfully against your otherwise smooth skin. It was all because of him. He had left a second mark on you— one much more visible than the first. He had damaged your mind, and now, he had damaged your body. The guilt he carried was sickening.

Wonwoo asked Jeonghan to cancel every single responsibility for the next 4 months. Jeonghan panicked, of course. It was nearly impossible to expect the Fire Lord to do nothing for that long, but Wonwoo was firm in his request, and somehow, Jeonghan managed it.

He spent most of his time by your bedside, looking after you as carefully as he could. He ordered the healers to show him how to properly wrap your wound and apply new medicine, and once he was sure he could do it properly, he assured them that he would take care of it.

Huoyan slept closeby as well, knowing that Wonwoo wouldn’t leave your side, but wanting to be a listening ear if he needed it. Wonwoo was grateful for that, and used the opportunity well. Daily talks to the dragon helped him clear his thoughts and understand his feelings. Huoyan couldn’t lift the guilt, though.

There was only one person who could.

Wonwoo anticipated when you would wake up for more than a week. He needed constant reassurance from the healers that this was normal. Your body needed to conserve its energy to focus on healing itself. The medicine helped, but it was your own body that was going to heal it.

It took ten days for you to regain consciousness.

The first thing you felt when you woke up was excruciating pain in your back. You felt like you barely had any strength in your body. Everything felt as if you were in a daze, and your memory was extremely foggy. You couldn’t remember anything from the last month.

When you gathered enough strength to open your eyes, the first thing you saw was the symbol of the Fire Nation. A large red tapestry was hung on the wall, at least four times the length of your body. You couldn’t see much else besides it, as you were lying on your stomach, your head resting on the pillow sideways.

Ah. The palace.

You sighed, but immediately regretted it as any movement brought more shocked pain to your back. You grimaced, a pained whine escaping your lips. You felt relief before you could register the reason why, and forced your eyes open.

It was Wonwoo, pressing a cool cloth against your bandaged back gently.

Wait.

It was Wonwoo?!

“Wonwoo?” You questioned, your voice softer than you were used to. It would still take some time to get your energy back— even talking felt like more exertion than comfortable.

“Y/n. Don’t talk, please. It will only tire you out.”

You furrowed your eyebrows. Wonwoo sounded different. His voice was deep and slightly raspy, but soft and full of worry. You were sure of it. It was impossible to miss. He was… worried about you?

“Wonwoo?” You asked again with a little more urgency. You felt the cloth on your back stop moving. He stayed silent, waiting for you to continue your thought. Clearly you wanted to talk, and though he didn’t like the idea of you overexerting yourself, there were many things that you were probably curious about.

“Why are you… doing that?” You were almost scared to ask. Your own sensibility forbade you from blindly trusting Wonwoo in the moment, even though your heart was screaming for it. He was so close to you (literally within 30 cm of your face), and it was all you had wanted in the past. You had just wanted to be close to your husband. You wanted to love him, and for him to love you back. 

You forced yourself to be rational and not fold immediately, though everything about him was entrancing you at this moment. The smell of bergamot hit your nose and almost distracted you completely from the pain in your back. Wonwoo’s touch was soft and hesitant. He handled you as if you were a piece of glass that could shatter at any small impact. He had already hurt you enough for 1 lifetime. He never wanted to do it again.

“I want to take care of you. You’re badly injured, Y/n.” He muttered. You looked at his face, searching for sincerity in it. And it was there; clear as day. His eyes were scared and tired, as if he had barely gotten sleep in the last week. 

“What… happened? Why- how did I get injured?” You demanded. Your throat was strained from the energy it took to speak, but you needed answers.

“I don’t want to distress you. You’re still in pain. Please, just… sleep for now?” He asked hopelessly.

You were torn. Sleep sounded like a dream right now, but you didn’t know if you could trust Wonwoo for answers later. You couldn’t figure him out— you didn’t know him; you couldn’t trust him. He changed like a switch after a year, and now you weren’t sure what to believe. 

“Will you tell me later? Will you tell me everything?”

Wonwoo nodded, “Yes, of course. You are overdue for an… explanation. And I am sorry. I’ve treated you worse than an animal for the past year. I… I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to regain your trust, but I want to. Please believe me— there’s nothing more I want to do than to make things right.” You saw his eyes get hazy, overcome with emotion; grief, remorse, self-loathing, hope. You wanted to believe him, and you barely had the energy to do otherwise, so you found yourself humming in small agreement. It seemed to put him at ease a bit. He relaxed his shoulders and stood up.

“I’ll be here if you need anything. Let me know if you’re uncomfortable.” He smiled at you— an expression you hadn’t seen from him since that very first meeting. This smile was sad, though. It couldn’t reach his eyes and it quickly fell back down. You wondered what it would look like in full. You wanted to see him smile brightly. You wanted to be able to be the cause of his smile; to be able to make him happy.

He drew the curtains to block out the sun that had just risen and walked out of your view. You closed your eyes and welcomed sleep, falling into dreams quickly. Your dream was unpleasant. You tried again and again to get Wonwoo’s attention and affection, only to be met with his old attitude. It was as if he was unaware of your existence. When you woke up, you had a bitter feeling in your chest.

You were in significantly less pain after your sleep. From the light outside, you reckoned it was a couple hours after dinner. You could sit up on your own, and you could feel your strength slowly coming back to you. You sat up quietly, having your first view of the room you were in. It was large and spacious. A large balcony was to the other side of it, decorated with elegant golden statues of two dragons. They were embracing each other; a couple.

You looked over to the dresser, and heat immediately spread up your neck and to your cheeks. You had caught Wonwoo changing his top robes. His back was right in your view. You couldn’t deny that you had pictured it before. Wonwoo had always been the most attractive man you’d ever seen. His skin was milky and smooth. His muscles were defined but he still kept a lean physique. Your eyes were trained on him as he slipped his arms through fresh red robes, tying the garment across his chest. It was only when he started turning around that you forced yourself to look away, pretending as if you hadn’t been staring. 

“You’re awake.” Wonwoo commented, soon joining you on the bed— sitting on the edge of it. “Did you sleep well? How are you feeling now?”

You shied away from his dark pupils that were examining your face. His eyes looked brighter and more refreshed than before— he looked more alive than he had hours ago, and you liked the look on him. He looked… prettier.

“I’m not in as much pain now. I slept okay… just had a bad dream.” You admitted, frowning at the thought. It was hard to trust that Wonwoo would keep being this nice to you. You had never been an attention seeker; usually you hated any kind of focus on you, but something about Wonwoo’s attention was pleasant and warm. 

“A bad dream?” Wonwoo echoed, his eyebrows furrowing in concern. “What was it about?” You shied back slightly, unused to his contented look as he waited for you to respond.

“It was just… you were ignoring me again. In the dream. I hated it.” You whispered. Wonwoo’s eyes softened and saddened, and without thinking, he reached out to cup your cheek. He knew that he had hurt you by ignoring you all those months, but to know that it had hurt you this much? It felt like his already shattered heart was splintering into his insides, tearing apart his entire body and being. 

“I am so sorry, Y/n… For not showing you the love you deserve, for ignoring you all that time. I don’t know if I have an explanation for it… there’s no excuse that justifies treating you like that. Especially you. I-I’ve thought about it every day since my brother’s visit. I’m ashamed to say that it took him to knock some sense into me. I would try to explain myself… but I’m afraid I’ll only sound selfish and stupid.” He sighed heavily, shutting his eyes tightly and dropping his hand from your cheek.

“No. Tell me, Wonwoo. I want to know, no matter how bad it sounds. I want to know everything. You said you’d tell me everything.” You demanded. He nodded.

“You’re right. Are you… quite comfortable? Explaining it all might take some time. I’m still worried about your back.” Although it warmed your heart that he was so worried (the cute frown that he wore while trying to inspect if you were in pain had you melting), you cared the most about hearing what he had to say.

“I’m okay, Wonwoo. Don’t worry about me.” You reassured him. That was all it took to get him to start talking, and he started from the very beginning.

“After my father’s death, I had to find a wife quickly, as you know. I didn’t have time to deliberate much on who to pick— I just had my instincts to trust. I am certain I picked the right woman, though. You have never once disappointed me, Y/n. The fault was always on my part. I was the one who ignored you. I was the one who never tried to get closer. I was the one who failed you. And I’m so, so sorry for it.” Wonwoo’s eyes were getting teary— he couldn’t hide the gut-wrenching guilt that he felt whenever he thought about it. 

You had never seen him this emotional. You were happy that he felt comfortable enough with you to be this vulnerable, but the burden he was carrying made you feel heavy as well. You wanted to comfort him, console him, assure him that it was alright. You didn’t like holding grudges— for as long as you can remember, you were always hopeful that people could change. Wonwoo was finally showing the sincerity you had always longed for. He blinked back the tears before continuing, taking a deep breath and steadying himself by looking at you.

“I always wanted to talk to you. It just… felt uncomfortable. I’ve never been good at talking to people casually. They don’t train you for that in classes, believe it or not. I’m good at public speaking and strategic planning for the nation; but if you had ever put me next to girls in school, I’d end up a flustered and oblivious mess. I was always like that. Mingyu was better with the ladies and I was better with… textbooks or animals. They can’t be hurt as easily.

“I can only assume that by ignoring you, I was trying to avoid hurting you with my words. I never considered that by doing that, I would have caused you much more pain than a few awkward conversations. You always left my heart racing when you would smile at me from across the room those first few weeks. I kept a straight face because I knew the image would stay in my brain for the rest of the day and keep me from completing important tasks. Ignoring you and the effect you had on me was a bad way to cope with my feelings. I didn’t think I had time for love.” 

The explanation took you by surprise. You had always presumed that Wonwoo had never cared for you, and that was why he never put any effort into talking to you. Knowing that you had been in his heart all that time surged the hope that you had for him that had been hidden away in your heart.

“I planned to talk to you sooner, but on the night I tried to find you, you weren’t in your room. I assumed you had gotten kidnapped, so I tracked your scent with a shirshu brought from the Earth Kingdom. You can imagine my distress when I realized that the trial led right to Orin’s homestead. I was so panicked. I could only imagine what a man like him would want to do with the Fire Lord’s wife.” He breathed, the panic he felt from the time rushing back slightly.

You frowned, your heart aching to hear how much he cared for you. You grabbed his left hand gently, slowly giving it a reassuring squeeze. The gesture made a tear slip down his cheek, but he wiped it away as quickly as possible. 

“I… saw someone jump out of the window and decided to follow them given that Orin was already almost dead on the floor. I thought they would know where you were if they had searched the house in order to assassinate him. I-I didn’t know it was you, and I was so panicked from it all that I used my firebending recklessly. I…” His lip trembled and more tears spilled past his waterline. 

You were close to crying as well. Seeing Wonwoo so heartbroken by his own actions twisted your insides together. You pulled on his hand, making him lean forward until you could wrap your arms around him. You had never wanted to hug someone as badly. The way he crumbled into your embrace immediately finally broke you, and you allowed the tears to fall. You didn’t want him to talk until he had calmed down, so you rubbed his back, tracing the line of vertebrae one by one. You pulled away when you felt his breathing stabilise, but still kept him close to you.

“And then? After you hit me?” You questioned softly but curiously.

Wonwoo sucked in a breath, “I never meant to hit you— even before I knew it was you. I never knew you were The Scarlet Shadow. I wish I could have taken the time to be proud of you, instead of harming you.” He frowned again, but you just shook your head.

“It was all a mistake. I will heal soon. I’m pretty strong, you know?” You smiled, brushing away a tear stain from his cheek.

“I brought you here immediately and the palace healers took care of you. I asked them to teach me how to change your bandages and apply the medicine. I’ve been taking care of you for the last week.” He smiled, and you were glad he wasn’t teary anymore. You didn’t like seeing him cry.

“Wait… What’s today then? How long was I out for?” You asked. 

Wonwoo looked up, counting in his head, “It’s the 14th of the month… You were out for 10 days.”

“The 14th? Isn’t that…?” You looked up, meeting Wonwoo’s eyes. Realisation dawned in them as well. It was your wedding anniversary.

“1 whole year and this has been our longest conversation yet.” You giggled. The hurt feelings you felt from that reality were gone now— replaced with only amusement as you knew the cause had been nothing but the shyness of your husband.

“I am never going to ignore you like that again. I promise.” He said seriously, and you smiled.

“I know you won’t.” You kissed his cheek before you were even realising what you were doing. Both your eyes widened simultaneously before blush spread to your cheeks. “Sorry, you just looked– I just-” You didn’t register that as you were stuttering, Wonwoo’s eyes were focused entirely on your lips. He cut you off before you could finish, catching you by surprise.

You had never been kissed before, and neither had Wonwoo. It felt new and unfamiliar, yet somehow comforting. Wonwoo’s lips were warm and soft, and feeling them move against yours instantly brought butterflies to your stomach. It took a second for you to properly kiss him back, and even more time for you both to find a steady rhythm. 

It was like a dance almost; You had to tilt your head the exact right amount in order to not bump your nose against his, all while still moving your lips against his at the perfect pace. You weren’t sure what to do with your hands. They felt awkward just sitting in your lap— especially when Wonwoo’s right hand was gently holding your jaw. They found their place on his shoulders before too long, and that seemed to feel right to you. It grounded you while also allowing you to pull him closer to you, which was something you desperately wanted.

When you tried to deepen the kiss, though, Wonwoo pulled away. You blinked open your eyes, breathing heavily. 

“Why’d you stop?” You asked through short inhales. Wonwoo’s face reddened. 

“I- you were pulling me closer, and I wanted to hold you, but then I’d have to hold your back, a-and I can’t risk hurting you…” He whispered.

“Wonwoo… You’re going to make me fall in love with you.” You whined softly, your eyes staring into his.

“I always wished you would.” He breathed.

“You don’t have to wish for it anymore.” You promised him. “Can I… kiss you again?” You asked in a small whisper. Wonwoo nodded, immediately resuming where it had left off— lips connected; gentle, loving, and long overdue. 

“I told you not to get up!” Wonwoo yelped, surprised by your arms encircling his waist before he could finish tying his robes.

“I said I’m fine. It’s been over 2 weeks. It barely even hurts anymore.” You shushed him, hugging his middle and resting your cheek against his soft silk robes.

“Barely?” He repeated, “I’m not letting you do anything until you can say it never hurts anymore.”

“You’re so stubborn.” You complained. Your hands soon found the tie on Wonwoo’s garment, and you smiled subconsciously as you realized he hadn’t been able to finish getting dressed. You held the sash in one hand, the other briefly running over his abdomen before he caught it.

“You can’t keep your hands to yourself, I see.” He muttered, amused at your actions. You shifted around until you were facing him, and started to cross his robes, tying them together (not without sneaking one last peak at his chest and abs).

“I was just trying to help you get dressed; obviously.” You rolled your eyes before stepping up onto your tippy toes to give him a small kiss.

“Are you really feeling okay, though?” He asked softly. You nodded. You really did feel fine this morning, and especially excited. Wonwoo had promised to take you for a ride on Huoyan; finally fulfilling his promise to you over a year ago.

“You know I always tell you when I’m in pain.” You soothed him.

“I know, but I can’t help but be worried about you. It’s my fault, after all. I want to take responsibility to make sure you heal properly.” He sighed. He always made sure to look at the burn every day to see how it was progressing. It had gotten significantly better, but he always had lingering worries that he had permanently damaged your body.

“It was an accident, Wonwoo.” You brushed your fingers over his cheek, tracing the line of his cheekbone with care. Falling in love with his good looks from afar over the year he ignored you was almost inevitable, but in the past two weeks when he was by your side at all times, talking and laughing and loving you, it was impossible to not fall 100 times harder for him. 

“Accident or not, I hurt you. It was a mistake I am never going to let myself repeat. A husband should never hurt his wife.” He frowned. You felt like you had this conversation with him almost every day. He wouldn’t let go of the thought that everything that had gone wrong was because of him. While it was true that he had made many mistakes, you didn’t want him to carry that guilt forever. 

“I already forgave you enough times, my love. There is no need to feel guilty anymore.” You shushed him for now by hugging him, knowing that you would probably have the exact same conversation the next day. Wonwoo hugged you back— it had been 4 days since you had convinced Wonwoo that he could touch your back without fear, and 7 days since you had started trying to convince him. You had both enjoyed hugs where you didn’t need to be careful of any pain, and you enjoyed another one. Wonwoo squeezed you tightly before letting you go.

“I’ll help you get ready, and then we can go.” He smiled.

“I can get ready by myself.” Your argument was bound to fail. Wonwoo followed you like a lost puppy wherever you went, and when you started walking towards the dresser for a fresh set of robes, he quickly followed.

“You ready?” Wonwoo’s bright smile was something that you would never get tired of. The gentle creases in his face to the way his eyes brightly reflected his smile, shining brightly; it was all so perfect. You would truly never get tired of him.

“I’ve waited 382 days for this. I’ve never been more ready!” You were eager and still a little impatient as Wonwoo had made you wait until after breakfast. The much looked-forward-to dragon ride had been one of the only things on your mind for the last week. And the second you saw Huoyan, you knew it would be the most magical experience you’d ever have.

Wonwoo helped you onto her back after you said hello and gave her some nose scratches which Wonwoo told you she loved. Wonwoo got on in front of you and told you to hold on tightly. Lifting up into the air caused some shrieks from you and giggles from Wonwoo. You calmed down quickly as Huoyan flew steadily. The view of the entire Fire Nation capital from up so high was unbelievable. You had never seen anything as gorgeous.

“Everyone looks so tiny from up here.” You breathed, watching the ground below as you flew gently around it. People looked to be the size of ants, and large houses were merely the size of a gold piece coin. Huoyan soared upwards above the clouds once you had had your fill of looking at the ground. 

The sky was even more beautiful than the ground. It was a clear sunny day, and the clouds in the sky were varied. From large fluffy ones to misty thin ones, you tried to spot as many as you could with Wonwoo. You got tired near the end of the flight. You wished you could stay up in the sky with Wonwoo all day, but you still hadn’t recovered all your energy. You rested your head on Wonwoo’s back, closing your eyes and letting a happy smile envelop your face.

“Tired, my love?” Wonwoo asked softly. You hummed. You had been up in the air for hours now and easily lost track of time. 

“Would it be silly if… I wanted to kiss you up here?” You asked quietly. 

Wonwoo smiled at your slightly sleepy request, “No, it’s not silly. Unless I’m silly for wanting it as well.” He giggled softly and turned, making his face visible to you. “Huoyan, sorry.” He said quickly before capturing your lips with his. 

It didn’t last long, as Huoyan started to complain about it all happening on her back. Wonwoo didn’t press for a long kiss and just let Huoyan fly back down to the palace. The rest of the day was spent less excitingly, but still enjoyable. Any moment with Wonwoo was enjoyable. You visited the turtle duck pond again and fed them, and then walked around the grounds of the royal palace together.

Once you were all ready for bed, tucked under the covers with your head on Wonwoo’s chest, he spoke again, “I thought of a question. I probably should have asked you earlier, but it only just came to me now.”

“Hm?”

“Why did you become The Scarlet Shadow?”

You hummed, “I guess it was just… a way to spend my time. I didn’t have anything to do, and I had always wanted to try fighting when I was little, so I just decided to go for it. It was very… fulfilling. I liked being able to help people.” You smiled, “And, hey, I guess I was pretty good at it. I even killed Orin.” 

Wonwoo laughed, “I think I should be worried about what will happen to me if I ever anger you.” He rubbed your arm, sleepily watching you listen to his heartbeat.

“Don’t worry… I love you too much to do anything to you.” You mumbled.

“Me too.” He smiled, thinking back to the events of it all. It had been a long journey for him to end up here; with you in his arms. Among the ups and downs, one thing had stayed steady: your hope that he would change. You still gave him a second chance, even after all the pain and mistakes and broken promises. You still loved him, even when he couldn’t bear to love himself anymore. And as he made sure to heal every wound he had ever given you, you also healed his shattered soul, putting it back together piece by piece.

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heart can't lose [54]

PAIRING. lee haechan x fem!oc

WARNINGS. none

WORD COUNT. 1.3k

SUMMARY. fourth year pre-med student and neo university student council president, haechan lee does not have the time for relationships. instead, he focuses his attention on his studies and extracurriculars, so as not to disappoint his parents. that is until hera seo came along—and everyone starts to wonder if the university’s golden boy would finally let his heart lose

“MIND IF I join you?” Hera asked as she stepped out into the huge balcony on the second floor of the rest house, where Erin had been admiring the view by herself.

Erin smiled at her, shaking her head. “Not at all, feel free to join,” she said.

“Is there a reason why you’re out here by yourself?”

The older girl shrugged. “Just felt like it.”

“Nothing to do with… you know who?”

Erin snorted, shaking her head. “You can say his name, it’s fine.”

“I just happened to notice that you and Mark hadn’t acknowledged each other today, yet you both arrived at the same time this morning before we left to go here,” Hera said. 

“It’s been like that with us since last year, so I guess I’m kind of used to it.” She let out a sigh, a sad smile on her lips. “But we don’t always ignore each other, you know? We live in the same house, so it’s impossible to just… not talk to each other, even for a bit, but most of the time… yeah,” she added.

“But prior to your official engagement, you two were okay?” Hera asked.

“Well—not really okay okay, but it wasn’t super awkward in our house back then,”  she replied. “We argued a lot, since we both didn’t really like our situation, and we were still young, so being mad that we didn’t have a choice was all we could do, but there were good moments. Moments where it was just the two of us.”

Hera noticed how Erin was smiling genuinely as she remembered how her and Mark were back then, her eyes glazed over as she imagined she was back there again. Then, she blinked, shaking her head lightly as she chuckled dryly. “After the engagement became official, that kind of… made things all too real for us, so… uh… well, you can see how we are now, so…” she only shrugged, looking at Hera. 

She smiled at Erin, bumping her shoulder to the older girl. “Sorry for asking.”

Erin chuckled. “It’s fine—but enough about me!” She perked, suddenly turning her whole body to face Hera, making the younger look at her with furrowed brows. “I heard you met Hyuck’s dad.”

“I—yeah. Accidentally, too.”

“How do you meet Yohan Lee accidentally?”

Hera was then reminded about the slightly awkward family dinner that she found herself in a week ago, making her shut her eyes and let out a groan.

She heard Erin laugh. “That bad?”

“It wasn’t bad,” Hera said, “it was just weird! I wasn’t really supposed to be there—no one was supposed to be home when we arrived there. Hyuck said they were on a business trip,” she explained.

“Okay, why were you going to their house, anyway?”

“We were supposed to watch a movie together—already had tickets, too—but he remembered he needed to get something from their house, so we went there, and his parents apparently cut their trip short, so, uh… yeah.” She shrugged, chuckling. “Both his parents were there, his mom insisted we stayed to eat dinner, and we never got to watch the movie.”

“And the dinner?”

“Really awkward,” Hera replied. “Don’t get me wrong, they were super nice to me, despite how intimidating they both were, but it just… felt like I was intruding?” She shook her head. “I don’t know. I don’t even know if his dad liked me.”

“I’m pretty sure he did.”

The pair turned their heads at the sound of Donghyuck’s voice, seeing him with his arms crossed while leaning on the frame of the entrance to the balcony. 

Erin smiled as she looked in between the two. “Ah, I should leave you two alone now,” she said.

“What?” Hera asked, “Why?”

“I want to go on a walk around by myself,” the older girl replied, shrugging. “I’ll be back before dinner time, just text me,” she then added before waving at Hera and walking towards where Donghyuck was standing. “You’re welcome,” she whispered before walking past him, leaving the two alone.

“Are you just going to stand there or are you going to join me here?” Hera asked, raising a brow at him.

Donghyuck smiled, letting out a small laugh before he walked towards her, falling to a stop in the spot beside her where Erin had been standing earlier. They were facing different directions, With him leaning his elbows on the railings and looking ahead at the view, while Hera had her back against it, but her eyes were focused on the boy beside her.

“You know, my dad asked about you during Christmas,” he suddenly said, surprising Hera.

“He did?”

“Mhm,” he hummed in response, “Surprised me too, honestly. Most of the time, despite any occasion, he’d only ask about my classes, or my plans in the future.”

“What did he say?”

“He wanted to know if we were dating.”

“Oh?” Her eyebrows shot up at his reply. “And what did you say?” she then asked, looking away and crossing her arms as if to show that she wasn’t that curious as to what he said to his father.

(She was very curious.)

“I didn’t really get to answer it.” Hera’s shoulders sagged at that, eliciting a chuckle from him. “He immediately went on to talk before I could—which is typical for him, I guess? Although, this time it wasn’t about med school, or my studies.”

He finally took his eyes off the view ahead of him, turning his head to look at her, instead. “It doesn’t matter much if I decide to be in a relationship with someone, I was old enough to manage my priorities—to know my responsibilities. That’s what he said to me.” He shook his head lightly. “You know, I never thought I’d see the day where my dad would be okay with me adding another… non-medical related… thing in my list of priorities, but here we are.”

Hera laughed at that, while he only smiled at her. “Well, he’s okay with it. Are you?”

He paused, humming as he looked up and rested his chin on his right hand, as if he was giving it a deep thought. “I don’t know. Am I?” 

She rolled her eyes, punching his arm playfully. “What did I say about answering questions with another question?”

“Oh—“ he narrowed his eyes at her— “you sounded like a teacher just now.”

“Shut up,” she muttered, rolling her eyes at him while he only laughed.

It was silent between them after that—a comfortable silence. Hera liked this—being comfortable enough with someone that she felt at ease just spending this moment of calmness with him, no words spoken.

Her eyes found his as she turned to him again.

Since when had they been this close?

She thought about how she had been looking at him for a considerable amount of time, enough for it to seem uncomfortable—but it wasn’t. Her eyes roamed his features, from his brown eyes that she almost found herself lost in, to his cheeks, then to his lips.

Her breath hitched as she looked back at his eyes, and had she been a second late, she would have missed how his own flicked down her lips quickly before meeting her gaze again. Noticing the closing distance between them, she closed her eyes and tried to turn away, but he was quick to pull her towards him, his hand resting on her cheek as if to tell her that this was okay.

“Hey, dinner’s—oh.”

Hera sprung away from Donghyuck at the sound of her best friend’s voice, while he remained in his spot, a flash of disappointment on his face before looking at the entrance of the balcony, where Jaemin was standing with his eyes wide.

“Dinner’s, uh, dinner’s ready,” Jaemin managed to say, pointing his thumb over his shoulder. “Chenle said we should all eat together,” he added.

“Right, uh, let’s go.” Hera nodded, making her way towards Jaemin and turning him around, pushing him out the balcony.

Donghyuck watched in amusement, a small smile on his lips before shaking his head and following after them. “Maybe next time,” he mumbled.

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Hi Asheer!! (I don't know if it's okay to call you that)

Got a question: How do you feel about OCs that ship themselves with Qin Shi Huang? (The same character you do)

For example:

Jade

Moon

Carolina/Atreyu

Hi! Of course, you may refer to me as either Asheer or Huī.

How do I feel about other Qin Shi Huang x OC? The answer is relatively easy. I love them! I actually want to become friends with everyone and just like talk between us about our own headcanons, OCs and anything that comes up.

Seeing other people's OCs is like my best moment of the day, and tho sadly I'm way too shy to properly interact with them, I'm more than pleased when seeing them.

@foreuthenia 's OC is absolutely pretty. I find it curious how both of us seemed to have taken a similar approach between our OCs but I find it lovely. I would love to be her friend.

@anonymous-moon-is-here . Her OC Is mostly for Roleplay, isn't It? Either way. I also love It. She's quite unique. I've never seen an OC as beautiful and unique as hers. Would also love to become her friend, tho sadly I ain't into Roleplay.

@atreyushortcake . Carolina!! From her character I can talk even more because I'm friends with her. I love her design, and the artstyle of It! The story/backstory is also quite unique and it always enlightens my day to see an Art piece of hers and Qin.

However, in conclusion, I absolutely love people's OCs, I don't really care if their OC are shipped with the same as mine, as I don't really mind it nor I am the owner of Qin Shi Huang or his design.

Would love to become friends with them and all other OCs that weren't mentioned here ♡

Yao Dàiyù [姚黛玉]

«"I [朕, zhèn] lack appreciation towards those who deemed themselves worthy of my [朕, zhèn] presence".»

Basic info here.

Yao Dàiyù is the head of the medical department for both humanity and divinity. Her complete knowledge in various medical areas makes her respected by both factions, thus saving unecessary discussions.

Her title of most usage is "Qín shì ruanyù" (秦のネフライト, Hata no nefuraito), being a title which translates directly as "Qin's Nephrite". She's the wife of Qin Shi Huangdi, and co-founder of the Qin Dynasty.

Other few titles she's been referred to are "The Queen where It all was reborn" (再生の女王, Saisei no joō), the "Queen of humanity" (人類の女王, Jinrui no joō) and various other titles.

Yao Dàiyù Is a woman slightly taller than chinese average stature (155.8 cm), with a fragile-looking overall body composition.

Her clothing right now is under construction, sorry for the inconvenience.

Yao Dàiyù is shown to be a very calm and collected yet cunning and apathetic individual.

She also seems to be well versed in multiple medical areas and politics, knowledge she uses throughout the Ragnarök rounds, demonstrating her deep intellect as she responded to Brunhilde's plea of a complete round's analysis with perfect accuracy.

Dàiyù, when encountering Odín wandering throughout the medical halls, showed no real fear for his menacing aura, just responding with wariness.

Her past seems to have made of her a fearsome and cold-hearted individual whose only concern isn't humanity's survival, but her husband and descendants, for what she'll do anything It takes for them to live.

Overall abilities: Yáo Dàiyù's knowledge makes her an opponent to be wary about. Her medical knowledge isn't just used to heal, but also for harm, which is shown as she easily dislocates an intrusive god's arm with the single movement of her wrist.

Brunhilde did consider her for Ragnarök, but declined to it in favor of having her as the head of the medical department and as a strategist in favor of humanity.

Average strength: At difference of the einherjars, she lacks the godlike strength to take against gods' or destroy structures with singular strength.

Godlike speed & reflexes: To complement her lack of strength, Dàiyù possesses a speed matching the likes of Gods as the ones participating in Ragnarök.

Godlike endurance & stamina: Dàiyù possesses a great degree of physical and mental fortitude. Her inhuman appliance and experiments on herself forced her to feel a great amount of physical and mental pain to the point she has grown careless of her own pain.

Martial arts master: Dàiyù Is a very skilled martial artist. She uses her family's signature fighting style and a more tactical approaching of said martial arts.

She's also shown to be a master Hand-to-hand combatant, quick to adapt to other people's combat styles and create a quick counter attack that favors her.

Medical knowledge areas: Greatly skilled in many medical areas, her área of most knowledge and skill Is the pharmaceutical and toxicology area, being really skilled when It comes to the creation of poison and toxines.

Musical knowledge: Having learnt since a young age, Dàiyù possesses a maestry with the guzheng, the xíqin and many more instruments.

Golden age: As a soul in the afterlife, Yao Dàiyù possesses the same appearance and skills that she did when she was at her peak.

✧ In chinese culture, jades were associated with Immortality. Therefore, her name represents and reflects her and Qin Shi Huang's pursuit for the Elixir of life, known as Xiandan (仙丹), throughout his life.

✧ Dàiyù's title as the Beauty of chaos Is thanks to her enemies' underestimation. Being a female, she was often disregarded and not taken into account until too late, when they were at the brink of death.

✧ [朕, zhèn] is the Chinese imperial pronoun that the Emperor Qin Shi Huang used on himself. It works as an I and also as a variation of the imperial 'We'.

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So cute!! How so I'm looking at this just now? 💖

⚠️ Canon x OC

Love that you like it!

-How would I not have him with his funny hat? Like hello?

- Hahaha, Not yet, he's getting there. Hi earns freeckles for every lie, mischief or borhs so when he returns to Ithaca it would be more freeckles than skin! Hahahaha

No but I'll die every day of the week for them, they're so cute and so healthy, that they're my standard, (clever, funny and loyal) so yeah all my respect and admiration for the Royal Couple of Ithaca!!

"My Odysseus design" has a shitton of freckles, something he got from Anticlea through Hermes' line.

When young and first courting, even when Penelope really likes him and knows it, she's mostly afraid to take the "final step" of "Hey, I like you." but she'll still do silly shit.

 "You have 56 freckles on your face." "...You counted?" "...Yeah O_O" "..." "..." "I got some on my arms-" And she starts counting them but he's a little shit and flexing and showing off. "Stop that, you're making me lose count >:( "

Since she's memorized the placement of his freckles, (photographic memory. Benefit of being one of Athena's pets) she weaves them as the stars in her tapestries. 🥲

"That's not...That's not how the stars are mapped-" "They're MY stars, asshole >:( "

Bible being a guest in Build's Wan(day)

Bonus:

Cuddles💘

made a little thing for my tik tok. its my favorite song and boys, so i needed to do this!!! ✨️

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