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I kinda don't like what i'm doing now. I want this to end, to start new projects, because I've messed up this one. This year I was supposed to focus on my fashion collection to pass my degree, which is the only thing that was supposed to stress me out, but dealing with all the crap things who fucked up my mind make me loose time and energy. Now i'm 3 days away from my final exam, I'm running out of time and I still have a lot of things to finish... I'm really upset.
Vent Post: FRI. Sept. 13th, 2024
I figured today would be bad..
Rainbow is sick and probably close to dying, my mom is stressed and in a really bad mood which makes me very depressed because I hate the bad energy, and she'll take her anger out on me eventually.
The despairing feeling has been here 2 days now and I'm already depressed as f*ck, and it'll be like this for who knows how long.
I don't feel like doing anything, I have no one to talk to, everything sucks. I haven't been keeping track of how many times I've wanted to k*ll myself over the years, but I'll be doing it now.
Day 1 of suic1de ideation
Miwa is so relatable and I love her, heh
Just a little update post for those interested. I'm really investing a lot in the characters and honestly I'm fighting back tears right now :'>
The manga is just so real and I can understand everyone's struggles, which I guess is one part of why I'm enjoying it so much.
To try keeping things short (but I apologize if it turns into a rant), I've had terrible and I mean TERRIBLE relationships in the past. I've had to learn things the hard way, and I've gotten so many things wrong. I look back on my past self and I wish I could tell my younger self what I know now. If I could, I'd love to have save myself from dealing with all the heartbreak and trauma and stuff like that.. But y'know, you also have to be grateful for experiencing all the chaos. Like, yeah, it's awful and I've been close to death a few times due to everything, but all that has made me who I am today. Even though I'm still miserable, I'm happier than I was. And I'm glad I have a better understanding as to what I need in life, y'know?
Anyway, just know that I'm loving How Do We Relationship? because yes indeed, how does one relationship?
Just finished Chapter 30 and I wanted to put my thoughts and feelings out there, so don't mind me
Again, this manga is making me cry a h h h
It hurts me just as much as the other characters while I read this cuz I've experienced the same things and I subconsciously relive those terrible memories along with them T^T Like, I have to limit how much I read before I start going mental
Why does love and maintaining a relationship have to be so complicated? All these different feelings and not knowing how to deal with them, it just sucks. Having a rough past and having it affect your current lifestyle so much.. Just- UGH, this manga is so real and I have a love-hate relationship with it right now
*sigh* I'm hoping things start looking up for the two as I continue reading, but with my luck, I wouldn't be surprised to see more of my life experiences on the pages. Please please please no one start harming themselves and the other is forced to just watch it unfold in front of them and there's nothing they can do to stop it. And then it gets to a point where the person harming themselves tries different ways to kill themselves and then they're in the hospital all hooked up to heart monitors and stuff cuz they went and tried to OD, making the other feel guilty and feel forced to do whatever in order to keep them from self-sabotaging their life further. PLEASE, I can't go through that again