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WHY. WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME.

I-

I may never recover from this.

i keep seeing sad posts talking about "may castellan making sandwiches every day waiting in hopes that her son will return" and.

guys.

there is no hope for may castellan. she is not waiting at the door with lunch and a tentative smile, waiting for him to come home even though he didn't yesterday, or yesterday, or yesterday, or yesterday. "in hopes" implies that there will come a day when that hope fades. in hopes implies she knows the odds are bad. in hopes implies reality will eventually catch up to her.

there is no hope for may castellan.

she is not waiting in hopes for her son to return. she is preparing, day after day after day (after day after day after day after day after) for the inevitability that luke will return to her. she does not know he is dead. she does not understand he is gone. she does not realize that time has passed; to her luke is nine, still. to her she is still placidly awaiting to return of a fourth grader. luke is not nineteen and betraying his camp. he is not twenty and housing a titan. he is not twenty one and watching his friends get slaughtered in an arena, twenty-two and forcing his sister to hold up the sky, twenty three and realizing, soul shuddering in his chest, that he has made a mistake he can never take back, that he can never undo what he has done.

luke castellan to his mother is a child who has not yet lost all his baby teeth. the cookies she makes for him are soft, because she remembers that. he still leaves the crust behind on his sandwiches. he has scrapes on his elbows and dirt on his nose. he flinches before he hugs her. he spends a lot of time outside, but he comes home before dark.

may castellan's tragedy is not that she is penelope waiting for odysseus to one day return and we know that he will not. may castellan's tragedy is that she does not understand her hero has left at all. may castellan's tragedy is that she will never understand, and she will continue to age, and continue to deteriorate, and one day she will die and she will spend eternity walking the dying poplar fields, whittled down to the memory of something missing from her.

there is no hope for may castellan.

Zodiac Contradictions

Aries: are fiery people, not known for a melancholy nature but when sadness hits them, it strikes deep and can result in self-harming actions

Taurus: are very self-reliant and they will never reveal how much they need someone emotionally but letting go of people can be the biggest source of hurt and pain for them

Gemini: are written as noncommittal types but they love to constantly communicate with loved ones and that can easily become a form of clingyness

Cancer: are often written off as clingy when in fact they need a lot of time alone and don’t want to be disturbed

Leo: are very confident but they care a great deal of what people think of them and a poor reputation can hurt their pride

Virgo: are not the most social of people and can be quite awkward but internally they contain a natural psychology of people and can dissect people’s actions into machine parts

Libra: are people-pleasers but they also have an innate sense of justice and fairness and will protest unfair treatment in hopes of helping the relationship

Scorpio: are highly aware of others’ behavior with nothing going over their heads yet they lack self-awareness of how absurdly intense and dramatic they can come across

Sag: love to party and seek joy but they have a serious side that is not readily obvious that seeks meaning and belief in their experiences and can become quite philosophical in their approach to life

Cap: usually have little side projects that helps them relax after a long day of work. these worker bees have a latent reserves of creativity that they may be shy about showing

Aquarius: is arguably the most individualistic and independent sign but they also are the most linked to group activities and causes, akin to a social activist

Pisces: sadness is often associated with this sign but they are also very silly, charming and funny people. they build their own world that operates with its own amusing sense of time and logic

dirty girl soup

"Burning, stinging pain,

Like fire in my veins.

Curled around me, the serpents tail.

Gushing venom over my body so frail.

Agony, grief.. I must've felt,

Disappeared in a beaming light.

It must be my end, it gave me a fright.

No! There she was, my healing hands.

Holding a bowl as my defence.

Soothing me, that sweet creature, my wife,

For she is the love of my life."

Poem: Loki's savior -Babette Kuijpers

it’s so cool that generations of people have experienced mental illness while listening to simon & garfunkel in their kitchens

I fell from Heaven.

I lost my stars, my precious creations, that beautiful nebula.

I lost my faith in God, my smile, my light. I felt unworthy, violated, scared.

It hurt. Not just the fall but everything that came after that. And everything I lost in the process.

But none of that could prepare me for my second fall. The most frightening one. When I fell for you.

And none of that hurt me more than losing you.

🥹

Never not crying during That Verse in Central Park.

Now the years are rolling by me, they are rocking evenly

I am older than I once was, and younger than I’ll be, that’s not unusual

his shirt is holding on to dear life and so am i

x

woozi for billboard korea

the first, and the last hug.

Good morning! Here's a quick Calvery concept I sketched yesterday while figuring out a new style. I'm trying to come up with designs for the more obscure(ish) wiki characters and I really like Cal's here so thought I'd share :>

San is proof that heaven is real idk… he is an angel that makes me wanna sin.

231231 sannie ᨒ mbc gayo daejejeon fairy

IZ*ONE - Buenos Aires [190621 TV Asahi Music Station]

Someone: hey, if you’re a writer, why don’t I ever see you writing?

Me, a writer who’s been daydreaming about three characters, two unwritten chapters, some scraps of dialogue, and a partial plot that still needs to be heated up in the microwave before it’s usable:

Nathan Explosion in my 2019? More likely than you think

Joe Keery for WWD preview [X]

nothing destroys me more than when someone skips a song I have queued

i swear to god

I am thinking it's a sign That the freckles in our eyes Are mirror images And when we kiss they're perfectly aligned And I have to speculate That God Himself did make Us into corresponding shapes Like puzzle pieces from the clay And true it may seem like a stretch But it's thoughts like this that catch My troubled head when you're away And when I am missing you to death “Such Great Heights by The Postal Services” um... excuse me??? who gave you, the right, to right such beautifully poetic lyrics, and not have anyone serenade me with them??? how dare you??? who let you walk into my house and just sing this and leave???