Allthehumanflaws - AlL THe HuMaN FLaWs

THE MOON

The moon is my only friend

For he stays long after the very end

I talk to him for days

And he nods with understanding okays

The moon is my only lover for my night sky he covers

In all my dark times he shall shine

and even when no one else he'll always be mine

The moon is my only hater

for now he only says later

Why does he get all the stars

while I only the scars?

 For a minute, it seemed like you could look right at me

For a minute, it seemed like your eyes understood mine

And then you looked away, not wanting to know

You turned your head in the direction of simpler things

My eyes speak my truth They speak a language only those willing understand

You were so close, the shine in yours

Matched mine so well it seemed like it was meant to be

Alas mine weren’t the eyes you were trying to read

You only ever looked for hers

Your smile belongs to her and so does your gaze

Your eyes might shine every time they look into mine

But they lighten up when you look for her

You think no one notices but

Every now and then

Your eyes wander towards her

How do I even know any of this you might think

Because I only ever look at you

For a minute, our eyes dance in an unspoken conversation 

For a minute, it seemed you were looking right at me 

The next I understood you never do

A Lowly Servant

Summary -

Merlin feels he is not a friend of Arthur or the Knights. He is just a servant. Just a lowly servant. Why would they even be his friends? He is just Arthur's manservant. Nothing else.

I've always pretended to be happy to not worry others

My facade is so strong i sometimes fool myself into believing that I'm happy

But in the dead of the night

Alone in my room it hits me like a train

I'm not

I'm not happy

I'm not okay

I'm not