I Hate The Cycle Of "Oh I'm Actually Gonna Lock In Tomorrow" Cuz It's So Annoying. Like If I Actually

I hate the cycle of "Oh I'm actually gonna lock in tomorrow" cuz it's so annoying. Like if I actually wanted to lose weight I would've started by now but it's so hard to when your literally surrounded by food 24/7.

And it be a big ass meal too

i be like “i’m not gonna eat today” then i eat 🧍🏽‍♀️

Yeah idk why I got so excited...I binge and ate alot.BUT I won't beat myself up cuz I've fasted for 30 hours and that's the longest I've ever fasted.

25 hours into my 36 hour fast, I'm really proud of myself cause I had work today and I work at a fast food place and almost everyday i bring food home but today I didn't!!! If I make it to the 36 mark I might push it to a 48 hour fast.

The food isn't even that good why do i keep eating it?

I finished a 24 hour fast that was supposed to be a 48 hour fast (I changed it) and I ate a while bunch of fast food after and I sometimes feel like I just have a binge ED which makes me feel so worse cause why can't I have control over food? Why can't I look at food and just say no? Why can't I just ignore my hunger and actually finish my fast that I set instead of cutting down the hours?

It honestly gets on my nerves.

Do yall ever have those days where you just eat and eat knowing you shouldn't. Like I've been eating alot for the past few days and I honestly can't stop. I'll be almost done with a fast and then I'll just break and eat a whole bunch of junk that I don't even need.

I wish I had self control and discipline.