Invisible.

Invisible.

I have sat reluctantly in many rooms that have represented stormy seas because being present amongst human beings leads to difficult breathing But I try everyday to conquer my personal hell I attempt to believe in all the good within myself but wind up incomplete As I walk into these endless rooms, I view the looks of the crowd of people staring at me and judging me, making me feel as though I cannot be myself I often ponder that if I were not human, everything would be safe and sound for I could go on and live my life freely without having to care at all

The glares examine my body up and down and I can see through them, smoke clear with their thoughts that scream so loud I imagine them wishing for me to cease to exist without a sound

You may be wondering why, but the information is as clear as day

I have been beaten, bruised, torn apart and been refused I have been robbed of my peace and I feel so unfree Although I am trying to make it through, all I encounter is darkness and blues because the world can feel so cold when you are invisible

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #3

written by Dan Roberts

Paradise.

I hurt myself because I was bored Good mental health can feel like such a chore but I still love myself despite how I behave I just need a little bit of help Don’t we all?

Darling, I cannot ever escape this dark, this hole, this unpredictable world of unknowns but I pray everyday to awake in a different state

I have spent a lifetime searching for a paradise A place bright blue and true that is so hard to find It turns out paradise was a gorgeous lie but I am holding onto hope I will find it in time I lay within the intentions I send out to the sky, imagining a vision of true paradise

I will find it in time

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #10

written by Dan Roberts

“This is a story of how things were, how everything felt

and all that became of me in the timeframe of that scene

This is a story of how you can change your hues,

embrace the life given to you and turn your blue into serenity"

Blue Serenity is the first poetry book by Dan Roberts which explores a dark period of his life from late teenage years coming into adulthood. It details the many feelings felt when one feels trapped in unfortunate predicaments and follows the process of coming back to oneself, guided by the hope that there is a better life out there after all.

Written by Dan Roberts

Cover photography by Haiming Xiao

Midnight.

Blue, beautiful midnight blue where dreams begin and darkness looms where I find myself staring from my place on shaky ground, longing to be found

Star lights echo down onto me, reminding me of endless possibilities seemingly beyond my limited reach The shadows follow me constantly onto every empty street I meet but despite their sabotaging, I understand that I possess the compass of destiny I wonder, how can I trust its movement when none of this seems to matter anyway?

I will be on my way, someday into something larger than me, something better than all I currently know so well Somewhere where all these colours brighten and all I can see are sunshine and waterfalls I understand that one day I will meet everything except the dark and cold I currently know

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #11

Blue Emissions.

I am lost in between a life lived and a lonely present, struggling to meet the road that will lead me into betterment All that I thought I knew has been wiped away along with the knowledge that communicates who I am I do not seem to know much these days

There is a past I know must exist for I have gathered all the necessary evidence by residing in a body, living at this current moment Yet, I feel disconnected to all its continuity because my brain is unreliable and my mind is preoccupied with constant information overwhelming my system each and every day

What I do know is that I am freshly eighteen, young and alive but my surroundings are constantly bleak and dry, overloaded by undersaturated moods coloured in constant doom If I were surrounded by love and laughter, I would never know Being distracted and hypnotized, I am oblivious to other life forms alive and my memories are fleeting, dissipating from my consciousness as each of my pure petals fall

Soon, I will be nothing at all I already feel as though I am

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Blue Serenity: Phase 0 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #4

written by Dan Roberts

Dreams.

Pacing, racing I never miss a beat Tossing, turning I never seem to sleep The thoughts keep reoccurring as I wonder lately why the world keeps on suffocating me until I can hardly breathe I just want somebody to help me because I am all alone

Drinking, thinking with too much in my head Shaking, aching I can hardly stand I have been wanting to evolve my entire life so that it finally feels good to be alive I want to cease the crying but I am so tired of fighting and feeling alone

I wish I could drift off and create my perfect life I would take you with me to stand right by my side No one would see us dancing with the stars above Our hearts and these scars are what my brightest dreams are made of

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Blue Serenity: Phase 1 Hollow Nights Under Starry Skies #7

written by Dan Roberts