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We Are On Our Challenge Of Don't Text Him Again, Wahoo!
We are on our challenge of don't text him again, wahoo!
Yeah, no, I feel like shit when I text him and bother him and I even mixed up two days and that was terrible I felt so bad.
But I also feel like shit when I am not checking in with him. I have no idea how he is doing?? He could have been kidnapped or be dying right now and I wouldn't know.
I talked to people form dbt (a type of group therapy) and they knew exactly what I was talking about which was really nice.
But I'm just gonna not text him because that seems less annoying?
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When he says he wants to see me again >>
Holy shit that is just awesome. Like, the kind of wanted I feel is insane.
I texted a friend that I missed him. Nothing new, but the meaning changed.
We have never met in real life, and the I miss you was meant as in I know we are supposed to be together way.
Now when I text him I miss you I mean it as in I miss you and me. I miss how we were, I miss knowing you the way I did. I miss that it felt like we were meant for each other.
I miss him. So much.
But what is God compared to him loving me?
I'd do anything for someone to hold me.
the goal is to become somebody my abuser would never recognize. to gain a glossy sheen of joy across my eyes they had never seen when i was with them. to laugh loud in a tone they've never heard before. to be the warm sunshine and the blooming flowers and so, so much more than what was with me inside the box they buried me alive in. every cell regenerated, every square inch of skin revitalized. you don't know me anymore. you will never know me again.