Why Can't You Take The Fucking Hint That I Don't Wanna Be Here Any Longer?

why can't you take the fucking hint that I don't wanna be here any longer?

I don't know what more to say or do to make you worry.

I'm literally so tired all the time

I can feel it seeping into my bones

it's cold outside and I just want to sleep

every now and again I can't help but think that I'm the problem, that I deserve everything that's ever happened to me just because of who I am

I'll never be good enough and I think I'm starting to accept that

Hey, whatever drove you to your eating disorder, I just wanted to say I’m sorry.

Weather it was a fatphobic comment overheard during class, or bullying, or a “health” obsessed parent, or a society saturated in diet culture, or trauma, or anything else; I’m sorry.

You were wronged. You may never hear it from the people or things that influenced it, so hear it from me.

You deserve better.

I’m sorry.

does anyone else hold off their bodily functions until they accomplish something?

like earlier I held my pee in for almost 2 hours until I finished my math homework

it's weird I went for binging like crazy to actually being able to starve myself with having the urge to eat everything in site

it's been about a week and I've only eaten 470 in total these past 7 days

I keep alternating between starving myself one day and then eating very low cal foods the next and so on

I thought I would feel a lot more hungrier but I don't?

weird.