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I’m finally back here but guess what

No fucking weight loss!

I’m still trying

Never give up

Won’t give up

this is exactly how i wanna look

Wieiad <3

Breakfast: Single bread w butter- 120kcal

Lunch: Another 2 pieces of bread w butter (240kcal) and a plum (46kcal)

Snack: 2 cookies (236kcal) plus 1 appel (80kcal) and tea 2x (16kcal)

Dinner: Chicken (300kcal), traditional african food w rice (around 800kcal I think)

Burned- 514kcal

Total- 1324kcal (This is the beginning of my journey that's why it's a bit high)

This is my third account I’ve made since the others got terminated lol

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This account will be used as a venting place for anything, to talk about my ed, diets, thiinsp0, etc.

I am NOT pro ana/ed

I am PRO recovery

Please do not report and just block me, this account is simply a way to share my feelings and connect with other people who feel the same way.

If you are triggered by ed themes or anything along those lines…please just block me. I don’t want people getting triggered from the content in my account.

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someone please tell me this doesn’t just happens to me. Every time I want to fast and I start the timer, my parents go out and buy me food or make me something at home without asking me or letting me know. Like any other time I don’t wanna fast they don’t give me shit😭 why is it just when I wanna fast I’m bombarded with food😭???

Hoping that losing weight will do something about the state of my face cuz this is ridiculous

I ate a bit too much today after a week of only eating 300 kcal a day, im such a pig wtf

I need to maintain staying skinny AAAAAAA why did i listen to my boyfriend, he did this to me today

Watch me tomorrow eat nothing

Update: i am gonna eat tomorrow but 500 kcal max so that my body doesn't give up on me and i wanna function well when i see him friday

Ps: I'm already pretty skinny and he likes my body. Its just i wanna look good for myself but he doesn't get the way i think but that's just an ana thing ig

Love you peeps who relate this

challenge 2000kcal in 5 days

who wants to join me doing a restriction challenge

i have planned out how to challenge me or you if you wanna try it out too

so in a spam of 5 days that you already ate and kept in a foodlog, see first if you haven’t eaten above 2000 kcal cuz try to stay under 2000 kcal in 5 days

i have already eaten 1445 kcal in 2 days which means i got 555kcal left to spread in 3 days 

so now it’ll get interesting cuz then i only have 185 per day to consume but who says i need to eat in a day that’s the challenge 

staying under budget is better

who else is interested in this can dm me for motivation to lose their appetites, just anything even if you are not doing my challenge you are welcome

we can help each other out

stay skinny luvs <3

Update

Day 1

I ate broccoli broth soup with lots of veggies with vegan sausages n udon noodles 385kcal, next time im not gonna add the vegan sausages if i wanna stay under 2000kcal in 5 days

Day 2

I ate cereal with strawberries and some nuts 350kcal and that was already too much for me

I also ate a wrap with mozzarella and tomato pesto and half another wrap, puked it out cuz that was 700kcal never again, that shit aint safe for my challenge so -400kcal

Day 3

I ate 2 slices of cauliflower pizza and that was surprisingly just 250kcal i consumed, i threw away the rest while eating that i had the thoughts to puke it out but i couldnt cuz i was at my bf house, but i can burn it off today

So far i had 1285kcal in 3 days

Im so excited to succeed my challenge, yass girlies let's goo

Update 2

Day 4

I made pho soup with vegetable broth and veggie sausages with lots of veggies added too and that was only 265kcal, i got sick cuz its getting colder and colder outside so i need some nutrition to keep my immune system working

Day 5

Still sick but i made it, i ate broth soup again without pho noodles, this time I added a handful of nuts and broccoli and more veggies 145kcal Next thing i had cuz i felt a bit snacky, i made a fruit salad with strawberries and an baby apple with a bit of nuts to top it off and some cereal and that was 190kcal

I made it 🫶

challenge 2000kcal in 5 days

who wants to join me doing a restriction challenge

i have planned out how to challenge me or you if you wanna try it out too

so in a spam of 5 days that you already ate and kept in a foodlog, see first if you haven’t eaten above 2000 kcal cuz try to stay under 2000 kcal in 5 days

i have already eaten 1445 kcal in 2 days which means i got 555kcal left to spread in 3 days 

so now it’ll get interesting cuz then i only have 185 per day to consume but who says i need to eat in a day that’s the challenge 

staying under budget is better

who else is interested in this can dm me for motivation to lose their appetites, just anything even if you are not doing my challenge you are welcome

we can help each other out

stay skinny luvs <3

Having to maintain your ed with when you have ur period is hard

Any tips?

Uggghhrhrhrhh im so mad about something

There's this girl in my class who is soo nice i actually really like her, we're good friends and all but theres one thing that randomly really bugged me.

She posts her stomach often on her stories, she does that quite often but just now it bugged me so much because her stomach looks so flat but i know in real life it doesnt look exactly like that but still on that picture she was able to look skinner and ive been slacking lately but im soooo mad now that ive been on hungerstrike

I need to look better, ive been working out for a good solid month too, my booty is well formed if i say so myself and now its just cutting my fat off my body and then im prettier than ever

Im gonna femme fatal anyone's expectations of me

femme fatal

brand new me 

i feel a spark in me that’s so daring to find myself again. i had to go through thick and thin to know, i’ve discovered that it’s okay to let go of the burden. i had to focus and become a lotus

i got rid of being in constant relationships, it was slowing my growth down for 4 fucking years. now it is me time, i’m still young and beautifull so i’m gonna  have fun discovering myself without having to think of ‘’a’’ him or she. peaceful and quiet decisicon making 

continuing my journey to have my dream body and mindset in life

Every day, im becoming more like myself again ❤️

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The past 2 days have been so high kcal, im honestly not so proud about it but my mind and body needed it to recover from my wisdom tooth removal or else it won't heal fast :/

But now im good, my body has enough to last a week without food

Wish me strength to shake me awake to get control back

How do i get back in the honeymoon phase 🫧

I am gonna lose 8kg this month to get back to look my best for my trip to Berlin!!

I already lost 2kg by eating less for a week and working hard at work, distracting myself a lot by skeelering and hanging out with my boyfriend

More to lose is on its way

Back to basics

Im back to having control and seeing changes. The numbers are going down, and my frown upside down. It feels so empowering because I'm gonna feel so good at the end of the month. In berlin, im gonna party hard and lose more. Also, my bf noticed im getting thinner, which i absolutely feed on. You see, this all makes me so empowered

I fucked this days up. Im gonna starve for 4 days, I HAVE TO LOSE 5KG QUICK!! Im actually losing my mind, i used to be so thin and fragile, i really want it back. Please brain do as i say. I'd fucking do anything to have it back

I feel so bitten in my core

Desire for sweetness

I’m fasting a month, if this doesn’t bring me back to my honeymoon then honey I will pray to the moon, I’ve been on this road. Sylvia Plath once said “ I act and react, and suddenly I wonder, ‘ where is that girl that I was a year ago? Two years ago? What would she think of me now?’”

My dream is to be satisfied and have familiarity within me, I don’t seem te reconnect with my body and mind, one is off or the other. When weather changes, I want change

my muse ^

Book Review | Midnight Feast

Author: Martina Evans

Cover Art: Ben Warner

Publication date: September 3, 1996

Genre: Catholic school fiction, coming of age

Rating: ⭐⭐⭐⭐/5

Midnight Feast is the dark and funny story of love in a convent boarding school. When sixteen year-old Grace arrives at Mayo, she immediately falls for the mercurial and glamorously thin Colette MacSweeney. She soon finds herself descending with Colette into life-threatening anorexia, entangled in the dysfunction that seethes below the surface of Colette’s family.

Midnight Feast is Martina Evans' first novel and even before its publication it won a Betty Task Award and was optioned for a film - which unfortunately never happened because this is such a masterpiece of a book.

This is the story of a 16 year old girl named Grace Jones when she's put in a Catholic boarding school in Ireland. And during her time in the school she meets Colette, a very problematic girl since she induces Grace into thinking that she is fat and that she should want to be as skinny as herself. Both get as skinny as a corpse and are diagnosed with anorexia. They also create a strange relationship - it's so weird I'm not even able to explain to you what it is.

I loved this book. Everything about it is fantastic. The plot is intriguing enough to get you addicted, and the words chosen to report the action and to describe the details are perfect. While reading I became so disgusted by anorexia and what it does to you that I insisted in eating well and regularly so that won't end up like them.

This is also a great book to spread awareness about eating disorders. I recommend it to young girls and boys who are entering secondary school since it is a time in your life in which you tend to follow everything that your friends do and you become really insecure about yourself.

As to the cover, it is just beautiful. I tried to find the name of the painting, but I couldn't. All I found was the name of the artist.

To conclude, this is a fantastic book and you should read it ;))