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you’d think I’d run out of tears by now
does anyone else hold off their bodily functions until they accomplish something?
like earlier I held my pee in for almost 2 hours until I finished my math homework
I bought new razors and the guilt of hiding them from my roommate is getting to me
it’s like I know they’re there but they don’t
and that somehow makes me feel worse
they think that I’m doing better
how do I tell them that I’m not?
I just need a month
A month to just fucking lose myself
A month of not being able to get out of bed
A month of not taking care of myself
A month of barely eating
A month of no responsibilities
A month of SH
A month of substance abuse
A month please
And then I’ll get my shit together
I promise
I am in a constant state of mourning
sleep is my only solace
✨🌕✨
guilt consumes me every second I’m awake
what I ate today:
air 💨💗
water 💧💗
weed🍃💗
wow I love binging to the point I feel SUPER full and then making myself throw up for half and hour 👍
why are diet sodas so addicting?😩
I want to be so physically ill that people start to worry
it’s offical
as of today I have officially lost 20lbs
I’ve been starving myself for about a year and I’ve gone from 208lbs to 188 lbs