it's my drama. appreciate my flaws & learn from my mistakes. it's okay to cry your heart out but don't forget that there's always a second chance. be strong but don't forget to be yourself. you can be wild and carefree but don't forget to be serious at times. oh remember to laugh too! life is amazing and unfair at the same time... deal with it even if it's not the reality that you wanted!
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Just One Hug.
Just one hug.
I want to ask my mom to give me a hug right now but i couldn't bring myself to do so. I badly need her hug right now...
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Hahahaha i'm crying while sitting on one of the benches in the hallway...
I bet the people sitting across me are already giving me weird looks... I wanna go home right now and hug my pillow or go to sleep. I am so worn out already but i still have a class later. Jeez what kind of life do i have?!
Day 43 of this battle: i'm praying for her fast recovery.
I just got the news that Umpe had her surgery. Now, i know why i was feeling so uneasy last night. I just hope everything went well for her and sana she'll have a fast recovery. Ninang Carol told me she had a fever last night. Nanginginig pa nga daw ang Umpe eh. Hay kelan kaya aayos ang lahat? She does not deserve all of this! Sana Umpe is doing and feeling better na. I trust my mom and i believe they are doing all their best to make Umpe feel better amd comfortable. Sana. Sana. God, Kayo na po bahala magpagaling sa Umpe. Huwag nyo po sya hahayaang magsuffer. Pabilisin nyo po ang recovery nya. Let her know na mahal na mahal ko sya. And i would really love to be by her side right now. Paramdam nyo po sa Umpe na nag-woworry ako sa knya pra magpagaling agad sya. Paramdam nyo din po sa knya na gusto ko tlga xang gumaling agad at makita ulit sya na healthy. Mahal na mahal ko po ang Umpe. Gusto ko lng nman po eh ung makabubuti sa knya. God, heal her agad and kunh may sakit man syang nararamdaman ipasa nyo na lang po sa akin ng mabawasan ung suffering nya. God, kayo muna po bahala sa Umpe ko ha. Umpe, pagaling ka kaagad! Palakas ka and be healthy! Mahal na mahal kita! Magkikita din tayo.
i saw her smile again.
just as what we planned, we used skype awhile ago and talk for a couple of minutes. i saw her smile. she even said i am pretty. It only means she is happy to see me too. I bet she didn't realized how much i wanted to cry when i saw her. i was thankful to God for giving me another chance to see her smile genuinely at me. the short talk just between the two of us was the best part. i get to hear her voice as if it was just us and no annoying bg sound at all. when she said i look pretty, i gave her my best smile knowing she likes it when i am happy. I hope that made her really happy and somehow ease whatever pain she has right now. I love Umpe so much and i am willing to give up everything even my life just to see her smiling happily an healthily. Thank you God for this day i spent with her. I know we are a thousand miles away from each another but it's enough for me to spend time like this if i will always see her smiling and this will make her happy. Of course it will be much better if i am by her side. but for now, i am already grateful for a chance like this. Dear God, please make Umpe healthy and away from any pains and sickness all the time. Please allow me to show her how much i love her and give me a chance to be with her again. Thank you for today. I am looking forward for a better tomorrow with Umpe again. Thank you dear God. Thank you.
Day18 of this battle: talking abt it only breaks my heart.
I started talking abt what i feel abt the situation right now and still, it breaks my heart. I try not to let any tears fall coz i dont want them to see how bad & weak i am feeling right now. I am still in the state of shock and just as what my kuya said earlier... my emotions are still high. It's true. I am still in the verge of tears whenever i am alone, i am thinking, or whenever i am not doing anything. And as much as i want to focus on what is happening at tge moment, i can't help but missed out something. It feels like i am not myself. It's crazy coz my attention just shuts off and i keep zoning out. And before i went to bed, i learned that Umpe is nanghihina daw. Nagsuka sya. Ang sakit malaman na wala akong magawa for her. Tawa ako ng tawa kanina, smile ng smile, salita ng salita nung nasa school and after school. Pero ang Umpe ko masama na pala ang lasa. Ang sakit kasi hindi ko alam kung anu na tlga ang nangyayari. Everytime na i try to get on track, some unwanted stuff comes up. All i am asking lang naman is for Umpe to get better and be healthy again. I know i am asking for too much. But i swear, she doesnt deserve this illness. She deserves to live longer and happier. Please God, wag nio pa hayaang manghina ang Umpe. Tulungan nio po sya. Make her stronger and healthier. Please be with her. Please send the Holy Spirit and some angels next to her para po hindi sya mahirapan. Please make her better. Please dear God. Umpe, be strong! I love you and I will continue praying for you. Kukulitin ko si God na pagalingin ka nya. I love you Umpe ko, always and forever.
