RFA + Saeran With MC With Depression

RFA + Saeran with MC with depression

these depression symptoms are based solely on my personal experience with depression. everyone experiences things differently if you or someone you love is going through depression no matter what symptoms they show or don’t show, they deserve love, compassion, and help. it does get better. help is out there and worth the effort. you aren’t alone.

Also my depression is almost entirely biochemical, meaning that when I’m on my medicine my depression is generally controlled very easily. This is why medication plays such a major role in these head cannons. Everyone’s depression treatment is different some people benefit more from counseling than medication. Some people require hospitalization some need tender in home care. Find what works for you and stick with it. I promise, it’s worth it.

Jumin

-        his approach is diligence.

-        he was so busy he didn’t notice at first

-        it was when the maid contacted him to ask if MC was okay that he started to pay attention

-        the maid had mentioned the MC had been in bed when she came to clean the last three days

-        Jumin knew MC wasn’t lazy far from it actually if she wasn’t busying herself with one of her many hobbies or planning the next RFA party she was usually visiting a friend not lying in bed.

-        something was wrong. he came home right away to check on her

-        she was surprised and apologized profusely as though she had been caught doing something wrong

-        “love I’m not angry, I’m worried.” she smiled lightly and assured him she was fine just tired recently

-        so Jumin watched closer, noticed more

-        he saw her eat less, sleep more, her knitting didn’t progress, nor did her reading or writing. the party planning came along but even it seemed to go slower.

-        it was when she started to leave sentences hanging that he put his foot down

-        “honey bunny really, please. I don’t need a doctor.”

-        “you aren’t yourself love. you don’t even talk to me anymore”

-        “we, we talk.”

-        “no I talk you listen. I miss you. your right beside me but you feel so far away”

-        “I probably just need my medicine”

-        “medicine. you didn’t tell me you take medicine! medicine for what are you okay?!?”

-        “I, I didn’t want to worry you! It’s not a big deal honestly I shouldn’t even need it. it’s so stupid. I take an anti-depressant or I’m supposed to. it’s hard to remember sometimes and I forget.

-        in an instant Jumin was hugging her carding his fingers through her hair holding her tighter than he had ever held anyone

-        “bring me your medicine. you’re taking it right now. from now on I won’t let you forget”

-        he came to bed every night with a glass of water and MC’s medicine.

-        he found support groups, funded research, sought out the best counselors and psychologists.

-        he hated that he couldn’t immediately fix the problem but if he couldn’t cure her then he would get her the best treatment money could buy

Yoosung

-        his approach is overprotective.

-        he first noticed how restless MC was. she would switch videos before they started, change apps before one had even finished loading.

-        “MC are you okay?” but she assured him she was

-        next he noticed that she wasn’t leaving the house as often, she didn't leave to see her friends and she hadn’t called her family in weeks. messages and texts would either be ignored or answered with single word replies.

-        even their conversations seemed far more one sided

-        something was off so he asked for help.

-        the chatroom was abuzz with worry about MC and Yoosung couldn’t keep up with all the advice

-        then he got a call. from V

-        V worried that MC might be depressed offered to give yoosung some numbers to call, doctors to see.

-        yoosung hung up and confronted MC immediately angry & scared

-        “is it true? why didn't you tell me?”

-        “it’s not bad really. most of the time I just need my medicine and I’m fine but,”

-        “but what”

-        mc see blinked back tears “I, I lost them in the move and I can’t get more till the end of the month. i thought, I thought I could make it but I’m so tired Yoosung”

-        he didn’t know what to say so he just held her. he stayed holding her all night”

-        the next morning, he helped her search the whole apartment and when they still couldn't find them they went to the pharmacy together to explain the situation

-        yoosung watched her carefully for weeks’ afterword to make sure she was okay

-        too anyone else he would have seemed paranoid but MC knew why he was so carful

-        he was shook after rika and wasn't going to take any chances with her

 Saeyoung

-        his approach is patient.

-        he knew the signs already

-        heck he had lived them

-        so when he noticed MC’s jokes had taken a darker turn he decided to watch her closer

-        and he saw it, saw her slowly slip into the habits he had seen so many times in the mirror.

-        so he did what he could. He held her when she shut down.

-        sought her out when she would hide

-        more often than not he simply sat in the room with her like she had with him. Sat near her so that when she felt like talking he would be there

-        after days of sitting next to her as waiting for her to reach out it happened

-        “I’m not okay”

-        this was progress since for days she had insisted that she was fine and simply just tired

-        “what do you need” he asked gently intertwining their fingers

-        “will you help me get my medicine. I ran out. I don’t know when I was supposed to get the refill”

-        this was something he could do and he would do anything for her

-        it does sooth his conscience a bit too know this was something she struggled with before meeting him and not because of him

 Zen

-        His approach is by far the gentlest

-        The first thing he noticed was her sleep.

-        She tossed and turned when before she would happily snuggle into his arms and stay there happily all night

-        Then he noticed her smile seemed more forced than before

-        She didn’t cry much but she also didn’t laugh like she had before

-        When she started having trouble falling asleep he sang her lullabies

-        When she started eating less he started learning to cook

-        When she left in the middle of his play and hid in the theater bathroom. He asked for answers.

-        Gently trying to coax her out of the bathroom to talk to him

-        The second the door is open he’s inside and holding her. She sits in his lap and cries for the first time

-        He sings to her gently and helps calm her down until her breathing evens out and she can talk

-        “I’m just so tired. I’m tired of everything Zen. I want to go home. Even when I’m home I want to go home I know it doesn’t make sense. I know. I’m just, I’m so tired”

-        He holds her tight telling her that it’s okay. That he’ll fix it.

-        Once she’s asleep he’s calling Jaehee. She’s smart and if anyone could find the help MC needs it’s her

 Jaehee

-        Her approach is slightly clinical

-        The first thing she notices is MC skips movie night

-        Then she sees her sleep in and skip a lot of her self-care

-        MC is still working as hard as ever but she’s exhausted all the time

-        She’s worried and when MC refuses to go to the doctor she does the research herself

-        Then she confronts MC too ask if her guess is right

-        when MC admits to getting off her meds jaehee goes rigid

-        jaehee is worried. everything about this feels uncertain and she hates feeling uncertain

-        So Jaehee does what she does best.

-        She plans. She learns. She works.

-        She knows the medication and how it works.

-        She sets up an entire routine for MC taking her medicine and doing all the self-care things that are supposed to help

-        She insists that MC see a councilor since she admits emotions aren’t her strong suit.

Saeran

-        His first tip-off is when she forgets to refresh the water in the flower vases

-        The second is when she skips walks in favor of staying in bed

-        It feels like he’s losing her and its making him panic a bit

-        he sees how lifeless her eyes are when he tells about the newest garden blooms

-        she’s not her positive happy go lucky self anymore

-        he hates it when she smiles and it looks so broken

-        he makes her a bowl of ice-cream and she only eats a fourth of it

-        he’s getting worried and trusting relationships are pretty new to him

-        but secrecy and information hacking aren’t so that’s what he goes back to

-        he finds your medical records and see’s you have an expired prescription for anti-depressants

-        he confronts you angrily and questions what’s wrong with you

-        how can you expect him to get treatment when you won’t even take your medicine

-        you explain that you were on your way to get your meds when you got called to mint eye

-        and then in all the chaos you forgot, and at this point you’d have to see your doctor again

-        your tired it doesn’t seem worth it

-        he looks guilty and ashamed but you pull him into your arms

-        he apologizes for everything with mint eye again and you can feel him shaking

-        you assure him it isn’t his fault, it was bad circumstances and bad timing not him

-        he makes you promise to go to the doctor you make him promise to go with you

-        you could do anything together after all

-        he wants you happy if you need this medicine then he wants you to have it

guys

MC who owns an ice cream shop that searan regularly visits gives him extra ice cream wheneve he comes in and after their first date names his regular order “ray of sunshine” (heh get it ray but also) because she likes the way he blushes when he orders it even though he’ll never admit he thinks it’s sweet

don’t worry its her favorite flavor. bull****

Happy Birthday Jumin Han! 😂😂🎁🎉🎊🎆

RFA karaoke and the songs they sing with MC

Jumin

-        he is hesitant at first so he just sits back and sips his wine while everyone else sings.

-        Then you ask if he’ll sing a song with you.

-        You give him that look you know he can’t say no to and he agrees.

-        you two start with a cute little love song

-        Something stupid

-        then he can’t deny he enjoyed singing with you so he sets out to find another song.

-        The best is yet to come

-        You two end up singing a couple of duets together mostly slower love songs with a more vintage feel.

-        The way you look tonight

-        On the way home you admit that his singing voice sent shivers down your spine and he decides he’ll have to sing for you more often.

Yoosung

-        Yoosung is so down for the karaoke night you suggested and he’s already got a hundred and one songs he can’t wait to sing with you

-        but then zen sings first and wow Zen is good and Jaehee chimed in a little during the chorus and her voice was pretty good too.

-        Maybe he shouldn’t sing after all. Wasn’t he a little out classed? Now that he’s thinking about it even Jumin had a nice voice that was really manly.

-        You saw him get progressively quieter and you knew something was up so you stepped in.

-        “yoosung their really good. I don’t think I can sing in front of them.” You pouted scooting closer to him

-        “I can’t do it alone. would you, would you mind singing with me?”

-        he’s a little red and nervous but he nods and you chose a song you know he loves.

-        Heart beat song

-        Halfway through the song you see him let go and start to have fun and so do you laughing and dancing to the music.

-        Shake it off

-        You’re watching him get more comfortable and his enthusiasm is infectious

-        You haven't seen the RFA this happy and lively in quite a while

-        You’re so happy you suggested it.

-        Your never fully dressed without a smile

Saeyoung

-        The second you saw it you queued it up before anyone could stop you

-        All star

-        How could you not choose it

-        the second it started you locked eyes with saeyoung and tried desperately not to die laughing at how ecstatic he looked

-        “some BODY once told me”

-        He chose the next song for you and you couldn’t help but laugh this time as he belted out

-        Take me on  (absolutely don’t watch the video and think about saeyoung making it into the real world like that)

-        Everyone is groaning. their ready to kick both of you out but you cross your heart “no more meme songs”

-        The grin on both of your faces never leave as you laugh at each other’s antics

-        So when the last song plays everyone looks ready to fight saeyoung before you step in

-        “Sorry! Sorry! it was me! I picked it before the promise it’s the last one I swear!” You manage between giggles

-        Secret agent man

Zen

-        He knows all the musical numbers and he is ready to rock them

-        But he sees you itching to sing and finds you too a good duet

-        You’re the one that I want

-        He swears he’s never heard anyone sing that part so well

-        He almost takes you home then and there

-        But you find another song to sing with him

-        Ten minutes ago

-        he’s never been as in love with you as the moment you sang

-        “In the arms of my love I’m flying”

-        You sit in his lap after that and you can tell he’s really struggling to focus on anything but you

-        So you push it a little farther with one last song

-        Lay all you love on me

-        This time he really does take you home immediately

Jaehee

-        Jaehee may have only come to see zen sing

-        she is not planning to sing. 

-        but you offer to sing with her and she agrees nervously

-        9 to 5

-        Jumin keeps a straight face

-        Zen is laughing at what might be the best musical roast he’s ever seen

-        After that she has a little to drink to help her relax

-        And maybe to avoid looking at jumin “maybe 9 to 5 wasn’t such a good idea”

-        As the night goes on she gets more and more drunk confident

-        riot

-        Her song choices are getting a little worrisome so you steer her away from “i’m overworked and angry. let’s kill somebody” and towards girl power songs

-        The night ends happily enough with you two singing

-        Run the world

-        The next day she asks what songs you two sung. a little afraid of the answer. You smile sheepishly before telling her she got a little edgy in the middle there

-        She groans and covers her face explaining that work has been very aggravating recently

-        You console her and make sure to help her work through some of that aggression outside of her regular Judo classes

bonus  songs MC chooses for her S/O

Jumin you ask him to sing “sharp dressed man” because you think its practically written about him “I am crazy for a sharp dressed man”

Yoosung Cheerleader whether you or yoosung sing it. its perfect and cute and makes you both happy

saeyoung take me to church you may wait to get home to sing this to him. or not just to tease him

Zen young and beautiful you chose this because you knew it would hit him hard. he’s always a little worried people only like him for his looks so when basically assure him that you will still love him “when he’s got nothing but his aching soul”

jeahee “i kissed a girl” did you just unfriendzone yourself? well at least you hope you did. at the very least you made her think about kissing a girl. 

you've killed me with the headcanon of Zen will wake up beacuse he can sense youve moved too far away 😊😊😊

Im so glad!! he strikes me as the kind that enjoys you useing him as a pillow like it makes him feel strong (not to mention he thinks it’s super cute) so i imagine after getting used to having you with him he would find the feeling of you against him comforting and the lack of it would jarr him awake

not to mention there’s still a part of him that worries about what would have happened if he were too late getting to you so waking up to you missing would freak him out a lot

the first few nights together i like to think he held you almost uncomfortably tight against him but slowly it turned into an arm slung loudly around your waist while your head is on his chest

you said you wanted jumin fluff so i have a headcanon that jumins hair is very very soft. and fluffy

omg!! yes. he def has the best shampoo and conditioner so his hair would be sooooo soft and fluffy

oh imagine MC teasing him by fluffing up his hair when he gets home or how soft it is when he lays his head in her lap and she runs her fingers through it gently

and it being all fluffy and messy from towel drying it after a shower and he looks all serious under all his fluff

thank you that really brightened my day and gave me some good ideas!!