This!

This!

It's your 29th birthday today. I wished I was there to celebrate with you, make new memories with you. But I'm not. Someone else is. You've moved on and have someone new in your life. I no longer occupied your time, space, mind or your heart. Those spaces now have a new occupant, I no longer live there. I've been replaced with someone else. Someone younger, prettier, maybe even better than I was for you. Still hard to accept the reality of it, but it's the truth that I must face and accept.

I'm letting you go, in my mind and my heart. You've been physically gone, but emotionally you were always here with me, although you have already moved on from me. Now I have to emotionally let you go. You've moved on. I need to move on as well.

Happy birthday. I hope your day will be filled with love and happiness. I hope you're happy and at peace. I hope you found what you're looking for in your new home and environment. Should have told you that but I'm telling it to the universe to deliver you the message.

Today will be hard for me but I need to remind myself of my blessing and the good in my life.

Positive thinking, positive energy, positive light, positive me.

Good bye B.

Sometimes they were not the right person for you. Even though at the time you thought they were.

Still can't believe his new gf was born in 2001. Funny how you went up to now down. Must be nice to date someone so much younger than you are. Must have a lot in common too since you're both in your 20s.

Funny how things turn out the way they did.

It happened like its supposed to happen. Can't change it, can't deny it. Can't say it's not happening cause it is. Can't compare either. At the end of the day I was good to you and I'm still good and worthy.

Did a tarot card reading today, she happens to be a life coach as well. The reading was positive. Good things to come. This break up for me hasn't been easy and will continue to be a work in process but the session with her reaffirmed and assured me that I'm heading in the right direction and this experience was meant to happen to me.

This is my experience and it's going to make me a better person. Makes me be better for my next relationship. Makes me aware of what I'm looking for in my next relationship. I've found love once and I'll find love again. I loved and was loved and I'll love and be love again.

I really did loved him and I really did want us to work out. We might have been right for each other but the timing wasn't right. Maybe in our next lifetime things will work out for us.

I'll miss him, I'll miss us. We had love and were in love. We have beautiful memories to look back on.