Not @drarrywords Brain Working Like A Turtle.

Not @drarrywords brain working like a turtle.

Yes, i just very much exposed you and called you an asshole 🥰

Harry: I clearly have a thing for assholes.

Draco: *gasps* did you just subtly called me an asshole?

Harry: No... I clearly said you're an asshole.

You loved me first but I loved you last- Draco’s version. 

We were in second year when I vividly remember Pansy said that doing arithmetic was the easiest she ever had to do and I agreed that day but back then I didn't know you, but now I do and now my answer is different. 

Loving you was the easiest thing I ever had to do, ever. 

I wonder most nights, even after you’re gone, why is it that it was so easy to love you? How did I fall for you so easily when I had always been so cautious of my heart, cautious of who I was loving, who I was giving my heart to? But I suppose I know the answer, its because, it was you. Just you. There is nothing that I should add to it or think of it or describe to it because the answer is only 3 letters, one word. Loving you was like the simplest thing in the world because what was there in you that I could not love. Loving you was like learning moon is a satellite, sun is a star and clouds are just water. You were like the most beautiful wave I had ever seen, the only wave I wanted to be drowned in, you were like the most beautiful set of piano played in the world, you were like all the letters written in calligraphy. It was easy to love you because it was so simple to adore you, to fall for you.

I perhaps was unaware of what I was doing when I started falling for you but I think I took a chance in loving you because you said you loved me first and I thought that maybe, because you fell for me first, your feelings would not change. But I was wrong, more wrong than I had ever been in my whole life.  I thought it could never be possible for you to fall out of love with me because of all the words laced with love you said, all the names you gave me, with the ways you adored me, i thought it wasn't possible but I was so wrong.

But I'm rendered speechless everytime I still think of you, you were and are that one thing in my life that reminds me of gravity, you are my gravity that keeps pulling me down and that made it easier to love you. I loved you from the moment you decided that you didn't want to drink coffee at your favourite cafe because they didn't make tea and you knew how much I rather liked tea better. You changed your cafe for me and it made me love you in incomprehensible ways and yet I wonder where did it all go wrong. Where did it go wrong that in this love story we managed to make, I'm the only one standing with my heart in my hand and you're not here, you're not even close anymore. Where did it go wrong that one day you simply said that you couldn't be with me anymore? I wonder if I was never enough for you. I wonder if my love was not enough to make you stay.

I wish that I could have loved you a little longer or maybe you'd had stayed a little longer so I could have put pieces together, so as to understand why you didn't you love me anymore but you didn't stay and I let you go because I think I suffocated you. I just want to know the moment when you realised that I'm not the one you wanted to be with because every lonely night when I stay up and every morning I wake up, I cry in silence with my heart so heavy because all I ever wonder is when did you fall out of love with me? But I thinking faced with reality, I wouldn't be able to confront the reality because if you told me the truth, the moment you fell out of love with me, I think I'd die a little more than I already have.

But I think the problem wasn't you but me, if you could not bare to look at me anymore because just like everyone else, you too got bored of me, you too understood that being with me was nothing but a waste of time and space and love. Perhaps you too realised that loving me would be a dead end, that it's like walking on a lonesome street because nothing stays forever with me and you understood it pretty soon but the part of me who loves you in indescribable ways, it thinks about what if you had stayed with me, for a little longer and how I could had shown you that you were my entire world. You still are.

I always thought that if there was one person I would never need recovery from, that would be you but you are the only person who has hurt me in ways that goes beyond my power of explanation but I would never reverse time to undo whatever happened because being with you, even when you caused me this insufferable pain, I'd never redo a single moment because you are that rare pearl that you find only in the deepest of the ocean. If I had to repeat us altogether, I would do it all again, in a heartbeat, from the beginning till the end only because I know I'll get you for another time, for moments longer than two and I'll love you all the same.

But I would never deny that this pain that you caused me by saying those few simple words, "I'm sorry but I don't love you anymore," those few words were the hardest thing I ever had to listen and I wish I were even deaf but every night these words repeat itself and I cry myself to sleep in the same pillow I have been confessing my tears for a while now. These words shatters my world, breaks my heart, my soul, my existence but I couldn't make you stay, not with my words, not with my love, not with my affection, so perhaps you looked for something more than this and I hope you may find it in someone that isn't me but if time comes when you run out of people, run out of roads to go on, I hope you remember that in the sunset we painted, you're still all the colours in my sunset and you will always be. So one day if you choose to love me back once again, I want you to know that I'll still be there, painting the canvas of our sunset waiting for you to join me.

Because I got a request to write alternative version with Draco on Instagram.

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Yeah well, we're "built different" like that

Not me and @sorry-i-ship-drarry having a call for over an hour to discuss a new fic that we'll write in collaboration when we both don't even have the time to breathe.

Draco: *looking at Harry’s closet* Your closet is a mess 

Harry: You think that’s a mess, you should look at my life. 

Draco: .... 

Draco: You said you were fine

Harry: I clearly have a thing for assholes.

Draco: *gasps* did you just subtly called me an asshole?

Harry: No... I clearly said you're an asshole.

On the sand

Fluff || Domestic ||

There are moments in life when you look at a person and your heart grows the size of a mountain. You look at that person and no matter who it is, whatever they may do, your heart grows fonder and you feel for them all those things you never knew you could feel. That was Draco for Harry. They had been friends for now as long they can remember and to top it off they don't even remember when and how they became friends, it just happened and things had never been the same for Harry or Draco but they don't complain because to them it doesn't matter, what matters is the moment they live in right now, without a worry of anything in the world.

And just like any other day in their life, Harry had asked Draco to meet by the beach because of the lovely spring that came along and the best of the weather blooming for beach. They had their friends over too of course but when it's just them together, others never mattered.

"So, I got the concert ticket." Draco confessed.

"Wait- you- don't tell me?" Harry gasped.

Draco nodded enthusiastically, "Two tickets to NSYNC, Friday night next week."

"How did you get it?" Harry asked equally enthused and partially not being able to believe it.

"Let's keep that confidential. Pulled some strings here and there." Draco bragged.

"You stayed up all night waiting for 2 tickets to get cancelled and took it right when it got cancelled?" Harry narrowed his eyes at Draco who at this point refused to meet Harry's eyes and continued eating his hot dog.

"Draco?"

"What?" Draco whined, "we both wanted to go and I did what I had to do."

"But all night? Don't you sleep like normal humans, you vampire."

"One, I'm not a vampire because have you even seen them, they are so weak that they'd probably die in sunlight, while me, I am surviving absolutely fine. See, I've even got tan lines from my watch. And second, I do sleep, but sometimes comprises have to be made."

“You’re ridiculous, Draco. All night, that’s a lot.” Harry shook his head. 

“If it takes all night to stay awake to take you to a concert that would make you happy, then I’ll stay up every night.” Draco smiled. 

Harry only however wondered if Draco ever knew what his words did to Harry and his heart. It was impossible for Harry to not have his heart racing every single time Draco said something like that, hell, he left his heart racing most of the times. 

Harry smiled as he looked away because right now he didn’t trust what may leave his lips. 

“Do you think we should have asked the others?” Harry asked after a while. 

“I mean we could have but then we would not have been able to spend time alone, you know.” 

“And whatever do you think we are doing right now?”

“oh, you know what I mean.” 

Harry chuckled, shaking his head, “Oh I know exactly what you mean.” he teased. 

Draco nudged Harry off, “I hate you.” 

“But you love me.” Harry laughed and all Draco could do was adoringly roll his eyes at him. 

“For whatever its worth they all are not a fan of NSYNC anyways.” Draco said after a while. 

“Whatever floats your boat.” 

“I really do hate you.” Draco narrowed his eyes at Harry then decided to get up. 

“Where are you going?” Harry asked as he got up.

“Away from you.” 

“That pissed, are you? How would you like me to make it upto you, sunshine?” Harry teased further which only made Draco all the more interested to go away from Harry. 

“You’re insufferable.” Draco said as he decided to walk away. 

“Fine, i’ll stop.” Harry laughed but Draco had already walked far away to not have heard him which left him with a little choice than to follow him towards the ocean, and so he did follow. 

Harry walked towards the ocean, towards Draco, watching him watch the ocean from behind and somehow Harry thought Draco fit so well with the view, like he was a part of the ocean himself, so serene, so calm, so beautiful but shame it was that he never had courage to say all these things to Draco. He wanted to but the moment he would want to say something, his words would die in his throat because he was always afraid of whatever might happen after that.

“Hi, sunshine.” Harry said as he reached Draco. 

“Not quite done, are you?” Draco rolled his eyes at Harry once again. 

“But aren’t you a sunshine?” Harry teased further. 

Draco sighed and almost walked away when Harry stopped him by grasping his wrist. 

“I promise I am truly done.” Harry smiled. 

Draco raised an expectant eyebrow and Harry nodded, giving him the reassurance that he was truly done. 

“Sunshine is an awful nickname by the way.” Draco said after a while. 

“As if sweetheart was a nice nickname to give. That’s the purpose of giving names Draco, they’re supposed to be fun.” 

Draco could not say anything otherwise, he has always quite enjoyed giving names to people and receiving one as well because it showed how much a person cared. It kept a memory of that person in a unique way. Not that he would ever forget Harry but he enjoyed the fact that whenever he’d think of the word sunshine, Harry was the one he thought of and he liked having that thought. 

After long moments of staring far ahead towards the ocean with waves wetting their feet, Draco finally spoke up.

“I don’t want anyone else to go.”

Harry remained confused by Draco’s revelation, so he remained silent. 

“The concert. I don’t want to go with anyone but you.” Draco turned to face Harry.

It was impossible for Harry to not see his soft features, his eyes shining with the red of sunset and the orange of the sky. In that sunset, in that moment, he just knew he loved Draco and there was no denying it. 

“Why?” Harry asked. 

“Is it really not obvious?” Draco asked with a soft smile. 

Harry couldn’t help but smile as he turned to face the ocean. That was perhaps all Harry ever wanted to hear, all he ever wanted to know and now that he knows, he can’t stop thinking otherwise. Now he knew that if there was one moment he wasn't afraid to say anything, say anything that his heart desires, it was this moment.

“Its never obvious with you.” 

“Ah, would you like me to lay the words out for you then?” Draco smiled. 

“Yes, on the sand if you must.” Harry teased. 

Draco shook his head and without even a doubt he knelt down and wrote ‘Go on a date with me?’ before Harry could had even stopped him. 

“Unremarkably fast.” Harry said as he knelt down beside him. 

“Well I did practice 6 times last night.” Draco boasted. 

Harry shook his head with a fond smile and wrote on the sand himself, ‘Go on a date with me too.’ 

Draco smiled, “Technically I asked first, so I should get an answer first.” 

“If we’re playing by technicalities, Yes I would go on a date with you. Now you answer.” 

“I would like to go on a date with you too.” 

Harry smiled at Draco who reciprocated it the same way. 

Yes, Draco made Harry’s heart grow more fonder each day, in a way that he didn’t even know could happen but it did and with every morning that turned over after that day, Harry only knew one thing, that if there was one person he could ask a several times on a date on sand at a beach, it would always be Draco, even if the beach would be crowded with people or if they had their friends around or the dogs ran haywire at the beach, it didn't matter because when it was them, nothing else ever mattered.

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