And So I Write

And So I Write

You will undoubtedly find pieces of myself littered haphazardly among these pages. You will find them strewn about in every paragraph. Every Sentance. Every phrase. In every word. 

Sometimes when I need to give, pieces of myself, and I have lost all the people I throw myself away to... I turn to these pages. To lose myself to. And yet, when I know I must, I cannot. The words will hit a roadblock somewhere. My fingers itching and yet unable to find the words. 

And so I write anyways.

I write this. I write that. I write it all. Nonsense and gibberish. I write. When I have words but do not know what they have to say. Put pen to paper and find release among lost pieces of myself. Let the backlog of thoughts disperse through words and ink. Incoherent and Intangible. 

Whether or not it makes sense doesn't matter in the moment. All that matters is the words flowing through me, thrumming in my veins, making up all that I am. ANd so I make them real. Give them a place to exist so that they may grant me temporary peace, and so that I may exist without a buildup of unsaid words chocking me. Building up in my chest, filling my lungs, making it hard to breathe.

And so I write. 

I write the nothingness into something. Let the thoughts I can not articulate flow out through pieces they do not relate to but rather let their tortured vocabulary enlighten my release.   ‘

And so I write.

And leave a couple more pieces of myself folded in these pages, stained in ink. So when I am not whole, I can remind myself that once I had excess parts of myself to give. And I left them behind.

So now and then, I write.

And she swore she lost pieces of herself to the wind. 💛

Magnus Bane ladies and gentlemen. For bi pride week? day? 💙💜💖

The accuracy is painful...

that awesome moment when you finished reading a really good book and you see it at a store then you cunningly smile at it as if you had an affair with it.

I say this alot. It's okay to rant. To be upset. To joke to you're book friends about it. But try to remember that publishing a book alone is hard. It's an accomplishment just to get in on shelves. You don't have to love it. But you do have to tolerate it. 💜💙💜

Just because your favorite character isn't written the way you wanted to, doesn't have the storyline you imagined or isn't with the love interest you shipped them with, doesn't make the author a shitty writer.

Updated List :)

Books I've read

Series:

Series of Unfortunate Events Series (Lemony snicket )

Chronicles of Narnia (CS Lewis)

Uglies series (Scott Westerfeild)

Matched trilogy (Allie Condie)

The selection series + happily ever after (Keira Cass)

Twilight saga + life and death (Stephine Myer)

Delirium Series (Lauren Oliver)

Shadow children series (Haddix)

Divergent trilogy + four (Veronica Roth)

Legend trilogy (Marie Lu)

The lunar chronicles + Fairest (Marisa Meyers)

Fifty shades series (EL James)

The hunger games trilogy (Suzanne Collins)

Slated trilogy (Teri Terry)

The giver quartet (Louis Lowery)

The darkest powers (Kelly Armstrong)

Juliette chronicles/shatter me series (Teharah Mafi)

Destroy Me + Fracture Me (shatter me)

Daughter of Smoke and Bone Trilogy (Lani Taylor)

The mortal instruments (Cassie Clare)

The infernal devices (ll)

The dark artifices (ll)

Shadowhunter academy + the shadowhunter codex+The bane CHRONICALS (ll)

Unwind Series (Neal Shusterman) Wake Series

Half Bad Series (Sally Green)

  Duoligy:

If I stay + where she went (Gayle Forman)

Slammed + point of retreat (Coleen Hoover)

End of days + regenesis (Eric Walters)

This Dark Endevour+Such Wicked Intent (Kenneth Oppel)

Hold Me like a Breath+ Break Me Like A Promise

Incarceron + sappique (Catherine Fisher)

  Single Books:

The host (Stephine Meyer)

Power Play (Eric Walters)

Chains (Laurie Halse Anderson)

How we fall (Kate Brauning)

Thirteen Reasons Why (Jay Asher)

Sins of the mother (Irene Kelly)

My heart and other black holes (Jasmine Warga)

Speechless (Hannah Harrington)

Eleanor and park (Rainbow Rowell)

November 9 (Coleen Hoover)

The girl with all the gifts (Mike Carey)

Dove arising (Karen Bao)

Red wolf (Jenifer Dance)

Enthralled (Kelly Armstrong, Melissa Marr and other authors)

Room (Emma donoghue)

What happened to goodbye (Sarah Dessen)

The Handmaid’s Tale (Margret Atwood)

Half Brother (Kenneth Oppel)

Diary of Anna Frank

Brave New World

We are all Made of Molecules

  Discontinued Books:

Red queen series (second book) (Victoria Aveyard)

Rule of three (first book) (Eric Walter)

You are mine (first book) (Janeal Falor)

Crewel World (first book)

  Currently Reading:

Half Wild - Sally Green (Half Bad book#2)