Sky Or The Canvas?

Sky or the canvas?

"Why the sky refuses,

to lose its colour,

get bleached,

and portray what our hearts feel?

Isn't this a betrayal,

on her part,

to refuse us the luxury,

to display our hearts to the world,

and drown itself in our misery?

Why it has to be so unbothered,

uncaring,

and bring new mornings each day,

making us stand out in the happy looking world?"

"How many hearts must she have?

Before she can feel ya cry?

And how many deaths must she die,

to show your blood on the sky?

Sometimes, your hearts want to laugh till they cry,

Sometimes, your hearts want to lay down and die.

One sky is common for countless of hearts,

Ain't she no illusion, no imagination of arts,

that she will look a mysterious mess of paints,

And like a lovely mother, hear each of yours complaints!"

-Vanshika

Gustav Janouch, Conversations with Kafka

I am in the middle of that road where you discover that no matter if we love/like/admire/adore a person, it gives them no right or license to put us down. We should never let anybody feed onto our insecurities, even if that means loosing that anybody. Because people gone leave a space that can be filled later on. But once that love for oneself leaves, it leaves not a void, but an abyss.

I feel injured like it's the most common feeling of the day,

Like carrying that wound and walking around was not enough,

but feeling the real intensity, with the added burden will only make worth it.

-Vanshika

I want to be authentic. A complete stranger to the world but authentic. Sticking out like a sore thumb, but authentic.

-Vanshika

Character Development

Gone through some vicious cycle,

A frequent breakage of trust?

A series of disappointments,

Dreams reduced to dust?

When shown your truest traits,

Been dismissed with disgust?

And yet when been your kindest self,

the world has been unjust?

Don't ponder much dear beautiful heart,

It's a little hard to adjust.

But once you get the flair of it, you'll know,

Character development is a must.

- Vanshika Singh