Adhd Problems - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
Being best friends with a non ADHD person, when I'm ADHD myself :)
Her: Wanna watch something? *Pulls up netflix*
Me: Oh sure, what though?
Her: I dont know you pick *flicks through netflix*
Me: Nah pick anything, I dont care
Her: No I'm serious pick something
Me: No for real you can pick it
Her: *Sighs* Fine *picks a boring tv series I've never heard of, but she likes*
*Ten minutes into it*
Me: Can we watch Stranger Things now?
*Stranger Things a show we've watched about a thousand times already from season 1 to season 3.*
Her: For fucks sakes you know next time I'm not even gonna ask.
(First I'm sorry for any mistakes, english is not my first language and I'm trying to improve it)
It's so frustrating to forget important things.
I usually remember things while I shower, like something important that I have to tell my psychologist or something that 3 weeks ago I was looking for, got distracted by something else and I completely forgot what I was doing. But on the way from the bathroom to my room to write it down, my brain simply decides to delete the information.
When these events of forgetfulness happen (which are frequent) I feel so defeated, I can't keep a simple information in my mind.
I just wanted to get rid of some thoughts that are consuming me for days, it's probably stupid...
(first I wanted to say that I have ADHD and that may have influenced my behavior)
But I recently talked to my psychologist about my difficulty in showing physical affection for the sensations that bother me sometimes, so I end up avoiding that type of affection (I feel these bad feelings with anyone, even my boyfriend and my parents).
My psychologist said to show more physical affection for people not to think badly of me like "she won't let me touch her because she doesn't like me" and also not to get used to living in comfort. I am afraid about forcing myself to do this and ending up crying in front of people or my day getting horrible due to the great overload of sensations.
But at the same time I think I am a terrible friend/daughter/girlfriend for not being able to show my feelings and end up frustrating them for not getting affection back. And I talked to my boyfriend about it and he was very understanding about it, he said that if I don't feel comfortable in any situation it's to warn him that he will do everything he can (his way of showing affection is by physical contact), but I wonder if he's not ... suffering from it, because he has to stop having physical contact frequently (which he likes a lot) just to "satisfy my wants".
Well, this is what is not letting me sleep at night.
1- my boyfriend and I sometimes meet, even in the pandemic, because it helps me a lot to move on.
2- about showing more physical affection to people, at the moment it is with my parents, brother and boyfriend since we are in a delicate situation.
✨ Dance ✨
Sometimes I get really self conscious about the way I stim thanks to my ADHD.
I’m an all or nothing kind of gal, so it’s really hard to contain anything, especially the happy emotions.
It’s a full body experience for me, I feel it from my head to my toes. Self diagnosed with WBS, Wiggle Butt Syndrome, and I just gotta move.
Sometimes even I feel like it’s too much, so I can’t imagine how other people must feel.
But…then again…I’m the only person at work to get other coworkers to come and dance with me, no matter their age or language. When I see the light that reaches their eyes when they smile at me being silly, the shame burns away under the light of a warmer realization.
That being the type of person who is so unapologetically themselves at ALL times and IN all places to the point YOU encourage people to dance, is pretty tender indeed.
So…it can’t be all that bad right?
Don’t stop stimming friends, you’re beautiful 🧡✨