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Absentia Presentia
What a psychic effervescent satisfying experience that my Being is aware of my origin, "incipit-vacum Quod" (i.e., "the Being begins in absence").
In other words, my Being begins as the "Absentia Presentia" (i.e., the "Absence Presence"). Absence in the sense that my beginning as a presence was amorphous in absence (vacant): Even way before John Locke's epistemological theory of the Latin phrase, "tabula rasa" (e.g., a "clean slate",) which is a condition of the human mind before ideas and information have been imprinted on it, by external facilitating factors: Which is an indication of an "outset" (a start for the human mind,) something that my Being is absent of, in terms of my aware existence, sentience and experience.
Truly, my beginning (before any outset and any offset,) is "Absentia Presentia": even before the start of any "tabula rasa"!
Indeed, it is great to understand my 'nonhumanity'!
Truly, it is satisfying to be aware that my origin is without the start of any start at all (even without the start of any "psychologization", and "mentalization/memorization"!)
Begin(Jungkook-BTS)
Requested by: TaeTaeKookie
~The fifteen year old me who didn't have anything. The world was so big, I was so small. Now I can't even imagine it. Now I can't even imagine myself who used to have no scent, who used to be empty. Love you my brother, thanks to my brothers I now have emotions I became me. So I'm me. Now I'm me~
"Jagi~"
"Yes?" You absentmindedly asked your boyfriend, who was trying to get your attention again, as you focused on writing your paper.
"Jagi, come on it's no fun when I have to carry on the conversation by myself."
You smiled and held back a laugh as you pictured him half laying half sitting on the couch at the boys' dorm with a pout on his face. "Awe, I'm sorry sweetie but I've got to finish this paper for class up."
"Yah! Don't call me sweetie, you make it sound as if I'm a child."
"You are a child, Kookie~" You teased him as you finally finished and sat back with a sigh. "Ugh, finally done."
"Really?!"
You laughed at the sound of his excitement and shook your head, "Yes and you tell me you aren't a child. Could've fooled me."
"Yah! Do I have to show you how manly I am?"
You laughed harder and heard him laugh along with you, "How exactly would you plan on doing that Kookie?"
He paused and you checked your phone screen to see if the connection had been lost, it hadn't though and you brought it back to your ear as soon as he began to talk. "Uh, uhm, you'd have to see..? Yeah, you'd have to be here to see."
You narrowed your eyes in suspicion and said in a almost scolding tone, "Jeon Jungkook what exactly would I have to be there to see?"
He sighed and you could practically see him roll his eyes, "I'm hanging up first."
"Wha- Jungkook?" You heard a beep and your mouth dropped open slightly in shock when you saw that he hung up.
~You make me begin. You make me begin. You make me begin(Smile with me smile with me smile with me) You make me begin(Smile with me smile with me) I can't stand you crying. I want to cry instead, although I can't. You make me begin. You make me begin. You make me begin(Cry with me cry with me cry with me) You make me begin(Cry with me cry with me)~
After about five minutes of you sitting in the same spot, having not moved since he hung up, and wondering what you had said that had made him hang up on you. You sighed and tapped your fingers against the table top, looking to your phone quickly as you heard your notification tone.
"Jungkook-ah," you said softly as you quickly opened up the text he had sent.
Picture message from Kookie🍪😍😘
You looked up at the wall staring at it blankly for a few minutes and wondering what picture would he have sent you. Finally sighing you clicked the receive button[A/n: Idk if you guys' phones show you this option but mine does x'D].
Am I manly yet?? I can cook....that's manly....right?
You laughed loudly and leaned your head onto the table, holding your stomach as it started hurting from how hard you were laughing. Leaning back you answered your suddenly ringing phone and wiped tears away as you calmed down slightly.
"So? How's that for manly?"
"Oh my gosh, I love you so much! That was so cute!" You said, knowing he'd hate you calling him cute.
"Yah! It's not supposed to be cute! You're supposed to faint from my manliness, your heart is supposed to flutter!"
You stopped laughing and your eyebrows came together from confusion, "My..heart is supposed to flutter..?"
"A-Ah, I-I mean.."
"Ah, Kookie-ah you're too cute!! Oh my gosh!" You started laughing again when you heard your doorbell go off. "Oh, one sec Jungkook-ah someone's at the door."
You got up and set your phone down after hearing him make a noise, walking towards your door. The doorbell went off again making you sigh, "I'm coming!"
As soon as you got to the door you opened it and your eyes widened in surprise as you turned and looked to where you phone was laying on the table, your call with Jungkook still going. Then you faced the person once again and looked to them in confusion.
~I feel like I'm going to die when hyung is sad. When hyung is in pain, it hurts more than when I'm in pain. Brother let's cry cry let's just cry. I don't know sadness well, but I'll just cry. Because because you made me again. You made me again. You made me again (Fly with me fly with me fly with me) You made me again (Fly with me fly with me)~
"Jungkook?"
Your boyfriend smiled widely as he waved with his free hand, his other hand still holding his phone up to his ear. "Jagi," he stepped in and bent down slightly to kiss your cheek, "Surprised?"
"Well, yeah. Definitely wasn't expecting you to show up at my front door while talking to me on the phone."
He laughed and wrapped his arms around your slightly smaller frame, hugging you close to him and laying his cheek on the top of your head. "I missed you."
"Pabo," you said as you hit his stomach lightly a blush forming on your cheeks. He may have been a younger than you but he still knew how to make you nervous and blush so much you'd think you were going to catch on fire. "We were just talking."
"On the phone~ That's different. I missed hugging you and-" he said as he trailed off making you look up at him with confusion.
"And?"
He smirked and gave your lips a quick peck before pulling back, "And I missed kissing you."
You hit him again and got out of his hold, covering your cheeks with your palms. "Yah~"
"See, I told you jagi."
"What?"
He laughed and sat down, pulling you down onto his lap and tightly wrapping his arms around your middle. "I told you I could be manly. If you didn't see me as a man you wouldn't be blushing so hard."
"Yah!"
Laughing he grabbed your chin and pulled your lips down to meet his own, "Just admit it."
You sighed and rolled your eyes, "Fine you're manly."
"Thank you~"
You joined him and laughing and wrapped your arms around his neck, happy for the time alone you two would get to spend together. "I missed you too, goof."
His arms tightened slightly and you felt him smile against your head. And that was how you wanted to spend the rest of the evening, and how you did spend the rest of the evening, wrapped in his embrace and neither letting go of the other. All in all it was a very good day.
~You make me begin. You made me again~
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I am such an awful author! I've been so frigging brain dead from babysitting, helping my dad, helping my sister with hw, and writing chapters for my book that I completely forgot to frikin post this!! Throw tomatoes at me! I deserve it!! Mianhae~ (o'д｀)o
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Wings, album by BTS
Note: I am a baby Army. I recently discovered BTS Wings album and I think it’s phenomenal. This album is what you call art. Apart from the hyped Blood, Sweat and Tears, I think each member’s solo songs were great too, since they were too personal to them.
1. Begin
“When you cry, I want to cry instead”
How surprising it was when I found out that Jungkook said his only struggle in life was seeing his hyungs’ suffering. It proves two things: 1. Jungkook is selfless and 2. His hyungs’ are caring. I love their bonds so much more now.
2. Lie
“The me from before is still here but the lie that’s gotten too big is trying to swallow me up”
Let me first appreciate this song’s music and Jimin’s angelic voice. It gave me chills down my spine. And when I saw the lyrics I totally fell in love. Jimin’s struggle to express his true self while this whole world expects him to be perfect is something we can all relate to.
3. Stigma
"Are you calling me a sinner?"
Stigma; a mark of disgrace. Probably the most mysterious song of the album, it has some deep meaning which can be interpretated in many ways. I personally think it has something to do with Taehyung hurting his siblings in some ways. Hence producing the song as an apology to them.
4. First Love
“I will get to meet you again no matter in what form, greet me happily then”
This was the first song I heard among these seven. And believe me when I say this, I literally cried. Falling in love with music had saved Suga at the most difficult time of his life. I wish I had something like this to hold on to.
5. Reflection
“I wish I could love myself”
Who doesn’t love themselves? That’s a statement we are all used to. But if we think carefully, it should be the other way around. Once we grow up and see the fault within, we slowly start to hate ourselves, don’t we? Namjoon can really make the most relatable lyrics.
6. Mama
“You are my eternal placebo”
It was so heartwarming to experience something so beautiful, as the relationship between Hoseok and his mother, through this song. No wonder Hoseok has such a motherly aura around him.
7. Awake
“I can't fly like the flower petals over there”
Jin really went through a phase thinking he was walking while the other members flew like flower petals. He was always underrated and people failed to see the talent inside him. I can tell, Jin’s thoughts are far from the truth.
YASSSSSSSSSSS
If you could describe each of your mutuals with a kpop what would it be? 💖
These are all BTS songs because why the hell not 😏 I LOVE YOU ALL PLS ACCEPT MY LOVE!! 💜 by the way these are all based on vibes 😌
@taelepathic - mikrokosmos
@flowerseok - spring day
@hoseoknysus - home
@ughjmn - friends
@namkook - go go
@kookiesjoonies - jamais vu
@ppersonna - respect
@taesjpg - DNA
@kutemouse - begin
@utopiajeon - 21st century girl
@scevery - scenery (hehehe ily)
@kimtaehyunq - wings
@sweetpeajeon - euphoria
@moonpjms - lights
@extrataedinary - jump
@flowerkth - crystal snow
@parkjimni - fire
@jeonsweetpea - best of me
begin | jjk (m)
Summary: “Being a human isn’t that bad when he gets to be one with you by his side.”
Before everything shatters like a mirage of an impossible dream, you teach Jungkook how to live a fulfilling life far from Heaven. His numb heart starts to gradually light up again; you make him begin believing in love and hope when not even starting afresh could. But then… everything shatters.
pairing: Jungkook x reader
genre: s2f2l, fallen angel / fantasy!au; fluff, angst, smut
warnings: major and minor character death (but the fic has a happy ending nw !!), themes of death / rebirth / illness, bad childhood / foster parents, not exactly biblically correct - i took some liberty with these themes (no insults or anything offending tho), jk is mean at first but softens up and becomes the sweetest guy ever, swearing, unrequited love for like… 5 seconds; explicit sexual content: outdoor foreplay, handjob, oral (f. receiving), groping, fingering, soft dom!jk, lots of kissing, unprotected sex (reader is on pill just for him, be careful guys), praise kink, marking, some manhandling, dirty talk, jk’s goddamn muscles and moans gawd
word count: 26.6k
a/n: first of all, look at this banner by @ddaechwita, I’M SO IN LOVE, TYSM !!!!! T_T this fic was written for the wings collab hosted by @missgeniality who also beta’d this fic and listened to me ramble about it for months, along with @jimilter, my talented lil goofball !! thank you for making fallen angel jk (and the summary smh) so much better <3 PLUS, ash and @ressjeon, i love you babies for lending me your beautiful names for some of the scenes *cries* !!
uploaded to AO3, too (for those who prefer pdfs or mobile readings!)
MASTERLIST | WIPs
Angels fall with a dull thump and the flash of a light.
A human ear registers the sound as a small whimper, a soft wind blowing and howling in a somewhat strange way for only moments before normality returns. But differently from mere mortals, Heaven and Hell shake at the disturbance, the rare happening indicating the failure of another superior creature.
Jungkook doesn’t remember the thump and the fall, but he remembers the brightness vividly - a striking and blinding light before he entered the life he’s gotten used to now. The punishment he’s wandered into would certainly be less frightening if he knew how he’d gotten to suffer through it and how he can fight it.
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“The World was so big and I was so small” — Jungkook, Begin
I love his solo song in Wings, is sooooo amazing! Full of feels <3
DID JK CONFIRM THAT “BEGIN” IS ABOUT TAE?!
BTS Wings Theory
Why do I get the feeling that after the circles will be shown, the shape in the middle could be a bird? Look closely!
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