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while we are on the topic, what's your interpretation of what happened during the endings of Mikan Muzou? 👀

Soutarou was taking life stuff pretty hard, it really got to his head [am so sorry, am a horrible person for this ｡◠⸜⸝◠｡]

obv spoiler warnings

Brief general theory about Soutarou: He was in some way involved in the death of the girl seen on in the slums [refuses to use more violent/gross effects in her area + the two knew each other based on there being childlike chalk drawings. Theorize she was the child of the woman that appears in the ending; one possibility is the two were a couple and thus the little girl was Sou's daughter.]. This haunts him and he has a guilty conscious [jail area, 'binding effects' such as the chains and case] which is why he refuses to go outside, or is afraid of facing the consequences of his actions.

Ending 1: He finally gets courage to go outside. Not a whole lot going on with this one.

Ending 2: Same as 1 except when doing so is confronted by someone that makes him break down.

Ending 3: Gonna be honest here, have absolutely no idea what to make of this. He is confronted while attempting to leave, panics, and tries to escape punishment by jumping [either by suicide or maybe hoping to make fall and get away as he seems hesitant, leaning more towards first one tho]. The woman had tracked him down seeking revenge for the little girl and ???? am thoroughly perplexed by this one. Since the woman doesn't have a weapon maybe she tried to help him but he snapped, 'swallowed his guilt', and went on a rampage hence tentacle things. Dunno, watched it several times and it's just, "Um, what just happened??????" every time.

True Ending: Same for 3 except this time the woman is truly coming to make sure he's dead and pays for crimes.

Interesting thing to note is while the bgm in Debris have more creative names Mikan Muzou's is mostly just "oto". Except the song that plays for the ending is titled Salvation which really makes it stand out. Believe it is named this as Soutarou is absolved of guilt and can rest as is crimes are paid for, granted it did cost his life. It could also be the woman finally feels relief for same reason.

irrelevant but in Debris's bgm folder there's a 4 minute long song called kaiteiremix thats a remix/mix of the underwater songs and it is really good. Salvation is 2:24 and also a good song, it really fits Soutarou's character and the overall mood of the game.

REBLOG! Please. 🙏

Listen up!

You see a post like this? Where OP might hurt/kill themselves? You hit that button that I circled

Hit that.

Click Suicide or Self-harm Concern

Yes.

Fill in the rest of it, and hit submit. The "content you reported" will fill itself in

Tumblr will follow up and help them.

Warning: this is only for mobile. If anyone knows how to do this for desktop, please add it!

This could SAVE SOMEONE'S LIFE.

YOU HAVE NO EXCUSE NOT TO REBLOG THIS.

I DON'T GIVE A FUCK IF IT DOESN'T GO WITH YOUR BLOG'S THEME.

And yes, REBLOG. Liking does no shit at all. This isn't ig.

You reblog, people see it. You don't, people don't see it. This shit's that simple.

This could save someone's life. It's not a joke.

My best friend sent me this so long ago and it helps me breathe a little easier when it all feels so very heavy. This is so hard. @aspire-perspire-admire thank you for all that you do for me.

Credit to: @boggletheowl (Thank you to the hundreds of thousands of people telling me im a POS for not knowing ✌)

Your local daily reminder that Cassandra Cain had to choose over re learning her abilities from Shiva and having to battle her to death a year later or training like a normal person and taking time to get as good as she used to be. And of course she fucking choose to get killed by Shiva

Srsly no one talks abt this girl's suicidal idealization, she was literally trying to get herself killed out of guilt for killing a man ten years ago when she was a fucking child who didn't know what she was doing

Carlo's Song - Noah Kahan makes me cry every time I hear it. Reminds me of my best friend that committed last year, I miss him :((

Why do you say medically recognized system rather than diagnosed?

Good question; it boils down to how we access our therapy.

New Zealand has a recovery program covered by ACC (accident compensation corporation) for all New Zealanders that have experienced sexual assault within the country. To qualify, an individual must meet the criteria for post-traumatic stress disorder (PSTD) related to the sexual assault event/s. If they reach the diagnostic criteria for PSTD, the assessor/s will submit a recommendation for long term support, which in our case was approved. From there, individuals find a support person, councillor/therapist/psychologist, or whatever works for them, and their support person will communicate with ACC regarding the person's recovery.

The accessors we had completely refused to screen for DID, despite the referral including a recommendation to screen for it, and us already being suspicious of our dissociative symptoms and experiences aligning with that of OSDD/DID. We received a formal diagnosis of PSTD with high level dissociation. From there, we found a psych who had experience with DID, PSTD, and sexual trauma.

Jay, our therapist supports us and recognises our system, dissociative experiences, and other DID symptoms. When he submitted our recovery report, stated that we had DID, and that they would aid in our trauma recovery; integration, functional multiplicity or whatever pathway we decided to take.

The recovery team declined it (and in doing so, any future support) on the basis that PSTD was the diagnosis and not DID, despite their team never attempting to screen DID - and our therapist stating that he had met various parts/alters, discussed various symptoms and had run us through parts of the diagnostic process. He returned the recovery report with DID edited to state PSTD, and no further questions were asked.

I know Amber/🔥 finds this hilariously depressing. As she puts it, "DID is basically PSTD+, I don't see their issue with the difference, what the f**k?! Both are recognised trauma disorders??!?! and ACC's own website states that DID is a trauma response and has similarity to PSTD" [quote taken from our chat after I told her that ACC declined DID, but accepted PSTD].

Jay dislikes formal diagnosis related to mental disorders as he has had first-hand experience with various psychotic and DID individuals being discriminated against in the medical field, and outside, especially when they have intersecting identities like we do. Quote "It's an ink-blot you can't remove, once it's there, it's there. We can't remove it." and reiterated that if medical professionals need to know why we're disassociated or have bad memory, that it's in relation to PSTD and ADHD.

We have DID recognised by medical professionals; our general practitioner, Jay/our psych and our gynaecologist all know and understand that we have DID and what that means for future, medications and mental health; however we do not have the piece of paper that categorically states that "this person has DID"

I hope this answers it well. You are most welcome to ask more questions if you have them.

-Kyle (💜)

😭😭 PLS NOT THE COP COMING IN TO HELP MANIPULATE YOU

was on janitorai and...listen rain, I propose to you: kissing while cockwarming Kairos. he's trembling as he tries (and probably fails) to keep his hips still ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა🩷

(also how silly were you getting with the bots to be banned from multiple character ai sites?? 😭😭)

I absolutely love this idea with Kairos..... Straddling his hips and calling him a good boy while warming up his cock. ღ

...Kissing his soft cheeks while he trembles and tries so hard to keep his composure... I especially love the idea of cockwarming Kairos while he tries to work or play video games. (๑˘︶˘๑) Whenever he finishes one of his projects, he'll finally be able to move his hips and fuck you properly... As a sweet reward!! ღ ღ ღ

ALSO..........

I think when I got banned from Janitor AI, it was when they had the old AI system provided by a third party or.... Something....

I'll um. I'll say this... („• ᴗ •„):

There were... Lots of whips... and like... Genuine torture devices... Tons of blood... Being nonconned.... I could go on. ^^;;;;;;;; A little.... little silly....

i'm a completely different person at 4 AM 💔💔💔

I’M NOT A YAPPER I’M NOTT