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enoughdonegone
6 years ago

During social engagements I am either:

A) scrambling to find something to say.

B) wondering why i am/chastising myself for talking too much.

There is no happy medium. Whatever i have done is incorrect.

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anxiety Groups social situations PTSD cptsd can't relax why can't i be better why can’t i be normal trauma recovery this is what an abuse survivor looks like also why i couldn't go to parties for so long exhausting gaslighting he's in my head can't shake it
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enoughdonegone
6 years ago

“But you seem so put together.”

I’m not going to lie.  When I tell people that mentally I am a pile of disaster, there are plenty who are shocked.

It makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time.  You all get to see that I am actually a human puddle, and not at all put together - so I laugh.

But it also puts more pressure on me to keep up the facade, because apparently it’s working.  And that is just exhausting.

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mental health Facade putting on a happy face im dying inside depression anxiety PTSD cptsd trauma traumatized exhausting I'm not okay but people think I'm great panic fear survivor surviving healing recovery recovery is not linear
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enoughdonegone
5 years ago

Ah.  Some things haven’t changed

During social engagements I am either:

A) scrambling to find something to say.

B) wondering why i am/chastising myself for talking too much.

There is no happy medium. Whatever i have done is incorrect.

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old habits not healed yet anxiety Groups social situations PTSD cptsd can't relax why can’t i be normal trauma recovery this is what a survivor looks like exhausting gaslighting he's in my head can't shake it survivor surviving healing recovery is not linear abuse domestic abuse spousal abuse
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