High Achiever - Tumblr Posts

high marks are a whole other hunger.

i allow food to run my life.

i always feel so out of place i know its a classic teenage trope but i feel misunderstood i never seem to belong not even with my own flesh and blood. i do not know what is wrong with me although everyone else seems to know there is a fundamental difference that i cannot fix. sometimes i will come across someone just like me we spot one another and keep each other afloat perhaps we are the only ones that can the trouble is when they try to conform like the rest that is how they lose me for i cannot be like them and i know that others see it too. they know that i am different that there is something irreparably wrong.

people always think that i am faking it

something i had never considered

yet they seem to claim it regardless

i have thought of telling them otherwise

but they would never believe me.

i often mistake my relationships with others for genuine connection and feel that we are one and the same yet i still manage to be left behind i truly wish that i could pretend that i could be someone different but i cannot which is something that no one seems to understand to be someone else would be my salvation.

sometimes i feel like a flower searching for sunlight in the soil.

how could you possibly

be so blind

to what you have done

to me?

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how could i possibly

be so blond

to what you have done

for me?