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So, after my exam, I went to the class where R exams the students. To be honest, I was a little nervous while I was waiting for them to finish. After everyone left the class, I looked in and R was packing the tests, then I waved to him and said that I would wait for him outside. He was just on the phone when he came to me, but he smiled kindly at me and after he finished he asked if I wanted to have a coffee. I said of course and we went to the nearest cafe, which was next to the university.

Haha it's a date isn't it? *delulu on*🙄

He was so cute, invited me for a coffee, told me to choose what I wanted. Then we sat down at a table opposite each other and it was all so romantic, it really was like a date, but of course It's just in my head. T-T I know I'm starting to think too much about it, but I can't help it when he spends time with me and specifically invites me to coffee to talk.

He asked how my exam went and I told him that I thought I would pass and he said that he didn't doubt it for a minute and that he was proud of me. 😍 after that we didn't talk about studying anymore but like two adults about normal things. He asked if I was planning the holidays and he also told me that he was going to visit his parents but would be home between two holidays.

While we were talking, our feet touched each other under the table several times AHHH 😭😭

We were there for an hour and we talked and laughed a lot and I felt so good.💞 It feels like I've won everything 🙈

I just want to sit on his lap after everyone has left his class and I want to feel I'm his little secret.

Girls, I couldn't take it anymore, I wanted to know what happened, I haven't been able to sleep for days because of all this.😫

So today after school I didn't go home straight away, but I wrote him a message asking where he is and I want to talk to him a bit. I wrote just in time, because he replied that he was leaving now, but we could meet in the yard. I quickly ran out into the yard where I saw him, he was smoking and leaning against the wall, it seemed that he was going to his car because he had his bag and a lot of papers.

So out of a sudden impulse, since I had been waiting so long for us to talk, I ran to him and without even thinking, I just opened my mouth: "I feel like I'm not important." - I told him honestly while trying to catch my breath (bc I had been running so far) lol YEAHHH girls…I told him this without any hesitation. ???!! WTF WHY

And R (I think) expected everything but this, because he looked at me with such big eyes and then started to laugh softly and put down his cigarette. Ofc I got upset bc I thought he wasn't taking me seriously and I told him: "this isn't funny! are you mad at me?" 😭😭 After that, my eyes widened when he came closer to me and raised his hand. "Do you see this?" - he asked and pointed to the bracelet that I had given him... "If you weren't important to me, I wouldn't be wearing this gift." - he said, ruffled my hair and pinched my face again. (i died)

After that, he told me that he had a lot to do and that he had to go now because he was already late. The events happened as fast as always, so I just nodded and he said goodbye.

Honestly, I'm a little relieved that there's no problem between the two of us, but I feel that it's no coincidence that he's been "neglecting" me so far... but it's okay now.

so maybe i don't need to worry?

I hope that one day he won't hold himself back and I can feel his lips on mine.

Be shameless with me sir and let's make a "we can't do it, but we did it" story.