
Ash/Ashton (they/them)- putting the 'pan' in panic- BIG TW I post whatever, mostly going to be a vent blog for trauma, abuse, MaDD (probably)
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Ya know, me and Loki have a lot more in common than I thought... I too, am a cosmic disappointment.
I’m sorry I failed you. I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough. I’m sorry for always being sad. I’m sorry for over sharing. I’m sorry for talking to much. I’m sorry for everything I did that you hated. I’m sorry for not trying to change myself sooner. Maybe if I had done that, you wouldn’t have left.
so many murderers out there and I’m still fucking alive smh
What do you do for a living
i try my best
Tf do you mean I'm "not in control"?? I just told myself that I'd cut my thighs tomorrow because I did my arms today and now I'm too tired. That's being in full control if you ask me 😤
Might just fucking end it (or try to, again). I don't have anyone to stay alive for anymore and they clearly didn't need me to begin with. I'm such an idiot to think I could ever be wanted, I'm completely alone again, there's nothing for me here
Omg! Twinning!!!!

It's okay, I'll be here for you to use until you get bored ☺️
transwomen donation masterlist
aka for every transphobe i had to interact with i found a link to help donate to trans women. you can definitely send me more because i bet im gonna need more.
trans women of color collective
homeless black transwomen
black transwoman transition fund
help a transwoman escape yemen
save the gully queens of jamaica
memorial fund for bree black
transwoman of color seeking housing
memorial fund for chyna gibson
black transwoman gender affirmation fund
transition fund
medical funds (tw: r*pe)
poc transwoman transition fund
transition fund
support trans asylum seekers (usage of q***r)
major surgery transitional fund
medical support (diabetic coma)
transitional funds
trans pride march
hrt fundraiser
reentry fund (help with housing, clothing, etc)
transitional surgery
transition fund
memorial fund for lisa bryk (tw s*icide mention in description)
transitional fund
bottom surgery fund
help two transwomen get on their feet
supports transwomen of color in legal system (and reentry)
help a transwoman escape a bad household
support a transwoman after being attacked
help for medical treatments + better living
Like it or not; those big, fancy oil paintings of Gods that you see in museums and places of worship are literally just fan art and no one will ever know which version is canon
Me: going about my day in my paracosm, noticing a new face slowly start appearing more and more
Me: okay, guess there's a new para moving in, okay I -
*starts having tics*
"oh NO"
Ya ever just really need a fucking hug but u realise no one is ever gonna be there to give u a physical actual real hug or wants to?
Reminder for everyone here:
Wishing death or harm upon someone for their interests, sexuality, gender or race doesn’t make you better than them. It makes you an asshole.
“all cops are bastards doesn’t mean all cops are bad”
no. fuck you.
every single cop is a piece of shit. every single one.
I'm really tempted to start doing it on my arms again. It helped more when it was there

The saddest moment is going to self harm and realising you have to look for clean skin to cut...

ouch
why is there so much food around throughout the entirety of december,leave me alonee


I found + stole this off of facebook and thought y'all would appreciate it ah ha ha ha ha

Text reads: "I've been trying so hard to stop myself from having these episodes from this condition for so long now but today it REALLY needs to come out and I'm so scared of everything and everyone at the moment and I just need to dissappear into my head but I can't talk to you about it because you refuse to believe or even listen to me because you don't understand, and you don't want to understand, but you need to know that I physically cannot function right now".
Sorry, I know it's blurry aha
Double Bind is a situation where a victim is offered very few choices, and each choice will end up in victim getting hurt and abused.
Abusers then simply tell the victim it was their choice to get hurt.
Victim will live in conviction that being abused is their own fault and that they hold the control over it, that only if they chose a different option, reacted differently, gave a different answer, made a different move, they wouldn’t have gotten hurt.
It’s a clever and cruel lie. There was never any choice in the first place. Abusers would have damaged the victims no matter what choice was made. And then they would say “if you chose the other thing, this wouldn’t happen.”
It’s also a systematic training to lead the victims to always decide what abuser wants them to. It’s affecting all of the victim’s decisions because the victim knows instinctively not to choose something abuser wouldn’t be happy with. Then after they get exploited, used, humiliated, taken advantage of, tortured, and continually hurt, they’ll get thrown in their face it’s them who decided to take it, it’s them who decided to “let the abuser” do this.
There is no real consent. A victim does not have a choice. Any choice is an illusion to make them feel guilty, to force them to take responsibility for being abused. Nobody consents to being abused. Nobody “lets” someone abuse them.
Abusers know this, they know the victim never had any choice, they don’t want victims to know this, they want victims to blame themselves forever for abuser’s actions, and for suffering a psychological torture that compromised their ability to make decisions for their own benefit, and were forced to make it for abuser’s benefit. Every time a victim is forced to make a decision for the abuser’s benefit, they get hurt, they lose some of their integrity and ability to nurture and value themselves, every decision that benefits the abuser hurts the victim, the decisions that didn’t result in obvious abuse are still hurting the victim in subtle, passive ways victim will not be able to acknowledge, because they feel they made that decision. They didn’t. It was made for them. They didn’t even get a say. And then they were blamed for it. That’s what abuse of power looks like. You have no say, no way of making your decisions, no actual choice, abused no matter what you do or say, and then blamed for the entire thing.
i’m gonna get kicked out before i turn 18 i swear it’s either gonna be for the fact that i’m a raging lesbian or the fact that i do witchcraft
When someone catches me in the middle of a full on pacing, talking to myself, making facial expressions MaDD episode
