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Just saw Spiderman no way home.
One thing
I hate that film.
Really.
And it’s not that the plot is bad… just tere is so many sad moments. Especially the end. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Spoilers alert.
Like- nobody remembers Peter Parker, aunt May is dead. Happy doesn’t remember Peter. MJ doesn’t remember Peter and so she is not his girlfriend. Ned doesn’t remember Peter so they are not friends. And Peter is too afraid to talki with them normally and explain everything. Really?????
Please. Whoever is going to make next film about our dear Peter Parker:
Undo what was done in this one. Please
Soooo I just ened watching 1st season of tlovm. And I love it. I need second season. Please! And this was one of the very few shows I watched with my family. And they watched it because of me!!! Yay, finally we have something to talk about.
I have some thoughts about the show but they contain some spoilers so if you don't want any then don't read. (btw, It was hard not to tell anything to my family about what was going to happen. They hate me because of that.) thoughts below the cut.
And sorry about my english. It can be bad. It's not my first language.
-First scene I was like "and there a great evil came... oh come on, it always starts like this".... but when I saw the fellowshop of the ring getting killed like this and changed my mind. (Please, don't tell me I'm the only one who noticed the similarities.)
-The Tavern brawl scene was just... *chef's kiss*. Especially Vax teasing Agar. -And Percy drinking wine when the rest is playing drinking? And soon after that just taking his gun and pointing it at someone who just attacked him with... whatever it was, a knife? Some weird sword? And smiling? I already knew I loved this guy. But I didn't expect him to be so fucked up later.
-I knew there would be some dragon there. It was quite obvious. And I thought something like this "what if this dragon can change into human?". Then, BAM!! It changed.
-There was Grog, big dummy. But big dummy that can switch between raging goliath and sweet big boi. I know I don't want to mess up with him. Sometimes he doesn't think, like when he entered Anders' house and went right into a trap. But man... when he is raging he's great.
-And his relationship with Pike. It's just awww. Also, Pike is super. Even when he doubted herself, I mean, when she thought she lost her connection to everlight, she was great, but it was also so sad. I love how she want's to help people. And her astral form in the last episodes? it was... WHOA! I loved it. And her healing everyone. Or at least trying. because when she tried to heal that boy, or Kayleth, and wasn't able to do so... it got me. She's too kind.
-Vex and Vax are awesome. -I want to have same bond with my siblings as they have. Even drunk they somehow know what the other one is going to do. -And how they are like "we can run away from you guys... but we won't", because actually they really like their companions. -I already know Vax is bi, and I love his relationships both with Gilmore and Keyleth. -I need more Vax x Gilmore context. -And how he picked that lock and said "Amateurs". I want him as brother too. Please. -On the other hand, Vex seemed to be more... or maybe less, chaotic? I don't know how to name that. -She cares about her brother, Percy and the others. And her reaction at Keyleth getting hurt? It was so sad. -She knows what to do, and is great fighter. The only thing I don't understand is how she gets those headaches when there is a dragon nearby. -Daddy issiues. Great. Family drama. Well, not exactly.
-Kayleth is so sweet. And strong, she just needs more faith in herself. Her powers are wonderfull. That light she created at the end to defeat Sylas? Or made portal back home. And she has some family issues again? That she may not be able to go back home? -Kayleth creating de Rolos crest at the sky. It was amazing!!!!!!
-Scanlan... I like this guy, but at the same time I want to keep some distance from him. I mean, he would fuck everything... everyone? (Is he Pan or something?) - I like, sometimes, his songs. - Casting spells with music? I would definietly do that if I was him, and he is doing this. And how he can use him being annoying for his advance. Also he's the funniest person there. For me at least. And, is there a thing between him and Pike? Please, tell me there is. -Sometimes he reminds me about my friend, loves singing, is short and loves to... ya know.
-Last one is Percy. I love ths guy. I don't know too much about the others pasts, but I think his is the saddest one. Damn, he lost everything. He was tortured. -And then made this weird pact with demon? I don't blame him. And his sister betrayed him, and he lost his will to do anything. -Vex, take care of this man because he wi'll get killed without you. She's his voice of reason sometimes. -No Mercy Percy is hot. But this man Is fucked up. Totally. But when he fight's to not kill Cassandra, he deeply cares about her. And when the demon later takes control over him, but he finally resists. And his reaction when he hears about Briarwoods at the party. He's sad anime boi. -But, was he going to kill himself when his vangeance was done? I guess so.
-Percy and Archie friendship. When he risked everything to get his friend out of jail. -And Archie telling Percy he is not the last de Rolo- I was like- Wtf? So sad Archie later was killed. -Somehow it's hard for me to imagine Percy making pranks. Though when he talked about this I immediately thought about Fred and George Wesley. And Percy looked alive for a while. Without all this bad memories and vengeance.
-And Trinket. I mean the bear. Vex is totally his mommy. And he is her little boi. And that little moment in 2nd episode with the guards, it was soooo cute. I want more of this bear.
-"Darling, take the mask off"- made my day.
-Same about "You fool, now your soul is forfeit"
-The moment when the party changed their minds after seing destroyed village, and not being able to help the dying boy... it was so sad.
-Percy's smile is sooo cute.
-"and ther I thought you were practising your resting bitch face." "Excuse me. My bitch face?" (bla bla bla) "And for the record, I have magnificent bitch face." "You do, now?" "Yes I do. Lots of practice" I love this.
-He's the smart guy, but sometimes his an idiot.
-"DId you just Hiah me?!"- don't tell me guys you didn't laugh.
-Why did they let Vax go to Briarwoods room alone?!
-Grog saying Percy is a bit too small to be a leader.- How does the height counts?! -Just agree that Vex is the leader and Percy is second in command.
-Percy's reaction when Scanlan destroyed his pepperbox was hillarious. I had to play it again.
-So, in the second season we are having dragons again?
-Please, tell me Allura is going to survive this attack cause I love her.
-Who the fuck is Whispered one?!????!!!??
-Were the guards playing DnD in ep 7?
-Vox Machina is just one, quite big, family. Change my mind. With Vex as a Mom. -They care about each other. -And they are worried when something happens to one of them. -They all deserve this. After what they've been through.
-I started watching campaign 1 because of this show. Unfortunately I don't have much time for it. :(
this creative rut that i've been in lately is so annoying and i'm straight up not having a good time. if you have any suggestions on what you'd like to see more from me, please feel free to let me know in my asks! i need to write asap.
English it’s not my first language so if I make some mistakes I’m sorry in advance.
I’m reading again MUTUAL HELP.
And it’s been wild, let me tell you.
And god, I regretting so much the hate that the character of kiko has at the time and maybe still have, she’s not a bad person, she did was best for her, maybe was selfish but at the end of the day she puts her own sanity’s first, and that to me it’s something that I respect her so much, not everyone has the guts to say “I don’t want this” “I’m not ready” I truly think that she love Jk so much but she was realistic, and as much she loved him she put her own feelings first.
I think that maybe we invalidate her so much because we want to bad that Jk and oc stay together, wich I personally I oppose, not because they not match, they’re really make a cute couple (cough, cough) but at this point of the story that’s not makes sense to me.
They’re not love each other,( not romantically) or not are they’re yet…
At some point of the history, i was like “we need a POV of Kiko and try to understand her better”, and when MH was on Wattpad I was comment every time that I could, because I saw how hard the fandom was on her, but at the same time was “ no matter what she says we always se her like hurt Jk because she lie to him, she hidden things from him” so I stopped but every time that I read some chapters I’m like she was and still is a good girl, she always was really understanding towards the friendship of Jk and oc, she only questioned once and the answer that Jk give to her was enough to trust him. (because the last thing we know it’s that she came back to her parents and it’s doing therapy)
I always thinking that if I was on Kiko position I never could, my boyfriend having a friend like that? not a chance.
So in conclusion, Kiko don’t deserve, never once the hate and the rage that people put on her.
I just wanna say FUUUUUUUUUUUCK 👹
Cuz I knew it, bitch, I KNEW IT
The craving that I have to squish Namjoon plushy cheeks, and make him pout 😭
“Siempre nos verán fumando MaryJane”🍃🚬
God, my seven finally, damn it
I missed you guys so much
See you at 2025 💜
Heronie of the slaves - Song of fire and sand "I See you in another way"
Shapur (Pars Era 310)
Shapur (Pars Era 310)
Marzban of Pars, loyal, sharp, ambitious, hot-headed.
A man who at the age of 24 received from the king the highest rank in the Parsian military. A man who obeyed the rules and never broke them or shaped them to his will. A man who cared for his subordinates but also a man who knew that in war he would have to sacrifice them in order to achieve victory.
Shapur was a man who would never question the authority and the decisions of the king and he would defend this decision with all his might against outsiders. Even if he disagreed, because Shapur Marzban of Pars was loyal. Loyal to the royal family, loyal to the king of Pars. His comrades would call him an idealist, even uptight. If he was saw in a bar or a brothel with them after a battle and rejected any approach of a woman. After two cups of wine he already excused himself and retreated to his chambers. Such was Shapur Marzban of Pars, that was what his men, his comrades said of him.
But for Kayra he was more than that:
Kayra could see the sides of Shapur that his comrades, his men, the royal family, even the sides that his brother Isfan did not know. But Kayra knew them
She knew the small wrinkles around his eyes when the first sunlight fell on his still sleeping face, softening his striking features. His black hair, which fell like fine silk over his shoulders and shimmered in the light. His gentle smile, which he gave her when he noticed how she watched him sleeping.
His amused smile when he lowered his eyes and shook his head slightly when Kayra told him about a book she had just finished reading. His caring smile when Isfan played in the garden pretending to be a great warrior.
Kayra knew that Shapur was loyal, he was loyal to those he loved, to the people he cared about. Shapur was less loyal to the king of Pars than to his own people. But she also knew how afraid he was of losing the people he loved. The fear of incurring the wrath of the royal family by a thoughtless act, a thoughtless word, and losing everything. Not his title, not his castle, not his money, but the fear of losing the people he loved.
That is why Shapur kept his opinion to himself, that is why he rarely criticized the king's decisions. Kayra knew this, Kayra knew his thoughts, knew his concerns. She knew that Shapur often spent nights hanging over the king's orders, she saw the deep wrinkles that stretched across his face and looked like deep gorges in the light of the burning candles. Gloomy and frightening
She saw the deep circles under his eyes, the tired look when he looked for another strategy for the repeated time. A strategy that would be less risky and require fewer lives, a strategy to convince the king to deviate from his plans. Kayra knew he was doing this in secret, without much fuss, and without ever getting credit for it. He did it so that the king would save face and so that he would know the ones he loved were safe. Yes, Kayra knew this side of him and many more. She knew that sometimes he was hard on her and Isfan because he wanted to protect them. Protect them from the cruel world that ruled behind the high walls of the fortress.
He did not want them to see the things he had seen, to be forced to do the things he had done. He would never admit this to anyone, but Kayra knew, she knew because he had told her himself.
One night when it all came crashing down on him, one night when the deep circles under his eyes took their toll. On a night when Shapur Marzban of Pars looked not like a young man of just 28 years, but like a man who carried the weight of the world on his own shoulders. A man who had seen too much and done too many things to ever be forgiven for them. Kayra knew this side, the fragile side, the side when his eyes didn't shine with drive and determination, the side when he didn't look at her lovingly and tenderly brush a strand of hair behind his ear with his fingers.
The side when he didn't hold her protectively in his strong arms on the cold winter nights. She knew the side of him that was afraid, the side that knew despair. Kayra knew that some nights he could not sleep, the nights when he came secretly to her chamber. On those nights he didn't speak, he just stand at the edge of her bed as if to make sure she wouldn't just disappear. Sometimes when Kayra woke up, she would move a little in her narrow bed and he would lie down with her. He would hold her tightly, as if she would vanish into thin air at any moment, as if she had never existed.
Kayra knew all too well how stubborn Shapur could be, but she also knew how much compassion he could feel for someone. She knew how hot-headed he could be at times and how insightful he was when he had had time to review all the arguments. Yes Kayra knew that Shapur was like a little insecure boy when he apologized and how relieved he could be when he was forgiven.
Even if his comrades did not see these sides of him, she saw them. She knew that after a battle he did not party until the early hours of the morning, which did not mean that he slept. No, he would stay at his workplace until the early hours of the morning and write letters to the families of the fallen soldiers. Over the years these were many letters and many fallen, but she knew how important it was to Shapur that the soldiers he commanded were not just numbers or faces lost in the crowd.
They too had families, parents, siblings, lovers, children. They now had to deal with this loss, while for him it simply went on. Kayra did not know if this letter helped those left behind or if they would ever receive it, but she also knew that it was more for Shapur. It was his way of dealing with the loss of people he himself had sent to their deaths. Shapur knew how quickly life could be over, how quickly one wrong decision could cost the lives of hundreds, even thousands of people.
He knew it and he knew that Kayra knew it. Kayra also knew why he rejected the women who wooed him. She knew the women who threw themselves at him, it was not only the rich and fine ladies who were taken in by his reserved and friendly manner. No, it was also the prostitutes who waited for the men in the bars and brothels to give them a little pleasure after a battle won or a hard day on the training ground.
Kayra knew that Shapur rejected her, all of them. Shapur was loyal, not only loyal to the royal family, not only loyal to his men. No, he was loyal to her A simple farmer's daughter who had been sold into slavery, he was loyal to her because she knew how precious his time with her and Isfan was, how he soaked up every happy moment, how with every laugh his worries disappeared a little bit more.
Kayra knew this and she also knew that she was his anchor, even if he had never told her this, but she knew it. She knew so much about Shapur Marzban of Pars and for this reason she could tell him. For this reason and many more she could tell him "I see you in a different way than you ever could" and his astonished face, his incredulous smile, the eyes which he cast down and then he laugh out loud only to take her in his arms and steal a secret kiss that was for only for her
For Kayra this was Shapur, Marzban of Pars.
If I'm honest, I know, I'd give it all back
For a chance to start over
And rewrite an ending or two
For the boy that I knew
Who was reckless just enough, who gets hurt
But who learns how to toughen up when he's bruised
And gets used by a woman who can't love.