Personal Ramblings - Tumblr Posts
Being an animalistic robotkin is so strange bro. Why, yes, I have a cord for a tail and two antennae that I can move like my ears. Oh, I like to run around on all fours and curl up, too. No, I am not an animal. I am a machine; an android. But yet I still act like a cat or a dog sometimes.
Do you wanna known what else is weird?
Knowing the separation between your AI, soul[yes, robots still have souls; they’re just a different color than biological being’s souls!], and chassis. Saying something like “my body is made of metal” is technically incorrect. It’s more like, “my vessel’s body is made of metal.” This is the same case for my human body, too. A separation between mind, body, and soul[s].
Anyway, that’s all I wanted to rant about. Charge well tonight, remember to refuel[whether that’s with batteries or food!] and keep your body clean from debris and mind clean from any bad thoughts! :]_
I found a Palia community that - from the introduction - should be fine with my playstyle but my social anxiety still takes better of me and I'm too scared to join. </3
bc I only play once in a while, I'm not able to do daily or even weekly. I might log in five days in a row and disappear for the rest of the month and it makes me worried it might annoy ppl too much.
and then, it's still a game that's not a single player in the longer run no matter how much you try, ugh
Omg, so the most heartwarming thing happened tonight 🥹💕
Tl;Dr My nephew is officially a STAY
My oldest nephew, who’s 7-years-old next month, and I were chilling in my room watching YouTube. Well, the video for Circus by Stray Kids came on, and he immediately recognized them from my posters and several photos scattered on the walls and my desk.
So we’re both singing along and doing silly wiggle dances, just typically vibing, right? Well after the song is over, he clicks on the next closest SKZ video from my laptop. He looks at me and says, “I want to be a Stray Kid. They’re so cool! Can we see them, please?”
He gave me the most adorable pleading face, so of course I promised him that the next time they performed close to Missouri, I would try my best to get tickets for us. Then he asked which one was the blue koala, which made me chuckle, so I had to explain to him that Koya was a cartoon character from BTS, not SKZ. He loves BTS too, but he informed me that he loves SKZ “way more”.
Today was quite a set up for what I want to do in the future. What I'm passionate about and want to accomplish. I certainly will have to write and document my journey.
That awkward moment that you have long hair and sometimes a hairdo can give you a headache, so when you just have your hair wrap up in a handkerchiefs is simple, amazing, and comfortable, but your dad says you have a lot of hair to do hairdos with instead of using a piece of clothes 😤😑
I have soccer tonight. I have to go be a 30 year old adult human. I have to banter in coed league speak with straight cis men. I have to talk to people who exist very much outside of fictional fandom culture and act like a normal fucking person and I don’t know who’s literal blood Ed has in his fucking hands!? Who’s blood is it!? Im either going to play like shit or I’m gonna be so full of nervous energy that nobody can touch me. Well see.
How do I translate this into a language that they understand? United and Spurs are in love and Arsenal is coming to ruin it? Yes Spurs are Stede in this analogy. Cringe fail recognizes cringe fail. JFC I’m a mess.
You ever have one of those days where, if you thought about anything other than your fandom/otp/hobby/what have you, you would just fucking kill yourself because the realization that life isn't getting better and nothing else can even make you smile anymore is so crushing, death seems like a preferable alternative? Like there is nothing, NOTHING short of some kind of weird miracle that only happens to people shojou manga, that could possibly make life better. Not even great, just bearable to the point that you don't regret waking up. And the only thing that keeps you from plotting how to NOT wake up the next day is obsessing over something everyone around you calls "stupid" and "pointless". And when someone says, "Do you ever think about anything serious, or do you just spend all your time thinking about your stupid cartoons?" you just want to break their legs and watch them writhe in misery so they can maybe understand what you're REALLY thinking about.
This is something that just bothers me: why do people think Gunther had darker hair when he was younger? Seriously, almost any time you see fanart or a sprite edit of young!Gunther, his hair is dark purple, if not just black. This is a public service announcement- GUNTHER'S HAIR IS NOT GRAY. His hair is a very pale lilac, a little lighter than Camilla's own hair color. And it didn't get lighter due to age, it's always been that color. That's not my head canon, it's game canon. When Kanna is fathered by Gunther, guess what? His hair is that exact shade of pale lilac. It's not dark purple, it sure as hell isn't black, which means that lilac is hereditary and is Gunther's natural hair color. For the same reason, Fuuga!Kanna's hair is russet despite Fuuga being bald, and Shura!Kanna's hair is white, despite that black patch Shura has. It just... it bothers me so much to see people trying to make him look EVEN YOUNGER, because light or graying hair is generally seen as a sign of old age (never mind that lots of people start getting gray hairs in their 20's...) and oldness is bad. It's not kawaii. Get rid of his wrinkles all you want, but don't dye his hair unless you dye Camilla's hair too, since lilac is such an unappealing color. I mean, if you wanna make someone look younger, start with Jakob: he LITERALLY has gray hair.
School starts tomorrow :(
Love when my cat jumps and runs away whenever im chilling and i move like 1mm. Like bro, i feed you, i clean u, i clean ur shit, and I've known you since u were a wee little lad. Why tf would i decide to attack u out of nowhere?? Like why would i do it now???
