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I haven’t taken this as seriously as I should. I could do better

I will do better

Y’all can’t enjoy being skinny when you’re dead

The feeling of going on Tumblr after eating<<<<<<

I have literally failed the last weeks. My lowest weight was is literally on the 06/29, how embarrassing

Pinterest is such a little bitch, like I love it with my whole heart but then it goes and tells me to stop saving pins that are ‘promoting insert what we’re all doing here type behaviours and dr*g affected bodies’ will in fact get my account deleted. Um no thank you, anyway I now have so many photos downloaded that if anyone opens my gallery I’m getting locked up

Valentines Day is here 🩷,

Okay cuz I actually love it since I’m a hopeful romantic, also lowkey flexing this but it’s my second year in a row with a valentine lol. That being said uh I have very little other happy stuff going on rn so I’m making the most of today.

Also definitely about to try using it as motivation not to eat since I want him to think I’m hot

Valentine’s Day update; well I’ve gotten the crying done with for today, wasn’t over anything too serious so yeah

Part of being on edblr is accepting that I have the most thought provoking, sensational and well-written drafts ever; yet my poetry skills and deep reflections have to stay drafts otherwise I lose my account for “promoting unhealthy and unsafe behaviours”

Also my pjs now smell of cigs so that’s great. Words of wisdom from someone who’s been awake since 4pm.. it’s almost 5am

Pacing up and down my bathroom rn, it's 3:01am, I brused my teeth and I'm about to workout cuz I have a life but it's nocturnal now so not a real life

Main blog: @luxies-babydolls

I'll make this longer when I can but please, if you don't already have an ed or are trying to recover from one then please leave my blog. This is not the sort of thing I'd want anyone else to deal with, my life is no longer mine it sometimes feels and I've made peace with the fact that this is my struggle to survive. For anyone who’s just starting out, please try talking to someone or doing this the healthy way; this is coming from someone whose life has been somewhat ruined by the not-so-fun aspects of having severe body image issues and strong negative feelings towards food. Your want to lose weight and be healthier is okay, and can be done in a way that doesn’t sacrifice your very sense of self.

My blog is a space for me to talk about all the aspects of my ed; im not trying to tell anyone to do what I do, simply sharing my experiences with a restrictive ed and trying to find people who understand the complicated, crazy, addictive, controlling mess that this can be. Stay safe everyone 🩷

Lila xx

Basic info about me~

Age: 17

Fav colour: pink

Fav diet drink: ultra strawberry dreams (sugar-free monster)

Hobbies/interests: reading, exercise, fashion, writing, dancing, makeup, thrifting, calling my bf, hanging out with friends

Fav singers: Lana Del Rey, Britney Spears, ElysianSoul, Hole

imma be honest, i think im like actually becoming some breed of noctural

problem; im paranoid af and all the sounds i've been hearing outside are convincing me crazy is claiming me soon. please sleep and drink ya water, don't do dummy things

(lowkey think these lil disclaimers for anyone reading these to not necessarily follow in my footsteps is gonna be my new thing)