Tw 3d Diary - Tumblr Posts
tw vent
anxiety is seriously kicking my behind :/ im so so anxious and its not like i can take anything so it goes away it js lurks in my gut and its debilitating sometimes im wearing a romper and its a sleevless one so i have nothing covering up my fat arms i can feel my arms flex and jiggle every single time i move and when i look down at my legs the wind is pulling my clothes back so everybody can see that my thighs touch i wish i was 52kg again id give anything to lose 7kg right now i just want to be frail and small and easy to carry like i know if i lose weight im gonna look a lot fitter and just overall better why the hell cant i just lose all the weight really fast and look good now ;-; get me out of this hellish loop and let me be naturally 100lbs PLEASE BODY PLEEEEASE T^T
tw 3d vent
holy shit i havent had hunger pains like this in so so long i missed it so much i ate today tho hmm ,':/ i had cereal with milk for breakfast and a tangerine for lunch i should be pretty satiated this is why i dont eat breakfast bc this always happens
i love doom scrolling bc then i get to accts like these that make me love tumblr a lil more i love following extremely different people and i love how diverse the entire world seems on my screen. ah yes ultimate equality and kewl profiles that are designed literally so amazingly
youre not even 21 and already into hard kink? why dont you try normal sex see if you like it first 💀
BOOO 👎 BOOOOOOO 👎👎👎 throws tomato at you
tw rant/vent
im higher than ur damn grandma rn totes literally fuckin me PUP RANT chat am i perhaps otherkin? alterhuman? therian? idk ik i feel like a puppycat (get it bee nd puppycat) but like is that valid? i wanna be a puppy kitty human person being thing yk? idk how to explain it ;-; like i feel like a puppy and a kitty but also a boy hmm is it the pet regression? is it cuz im higher than someones grandma? i actually need help though like im currently questioning if im entirely a boy and i need someone who knows more things than me to help im js gonna keep this as an online thing i dont wanna tell people about this irl because ik a large amount of people dont really fuck with this and idk who to trust with this piece of information about me
im still doing the lazy workouts and omg its actually doing so well ive been getting compliments about my legs xP
tw rant
chat my pronouns are he/him/it/its/pup so outside of the internet i use he/him pronouns but now that im finding things out about myself i feel this inate urge to make it so very known that im a pupcat therian petregre boy ofc these pronouns will only be seen and used on this site but yk that urge is still there lolz :3 now that im doing whatever tf i want i feel a bit more free i find comfort in not fitting whatever expectations are built for me and i find comfort in being very weird and offputting i like being a puppy kitty boything :3 i think it suits me and im glad that i can find comfort in my own authenticity :3
saying something.... slightly.... controversial..
everyone is problematic....in their own way....you can't escape that....no matter....how hard...you try...
and that's ok.... obviously not if your....doing things...that harm...others directly.....but...regardless...we are all problematic
we are all....human (mostly) it's only natural....
as long as you...aren't hurting others...it's okay
afraid I..worded this wrong...and am...gonna get cancelled hehe...
love you all...<3
js finished working out feelin good :D i did 300 jumping jacks and then tmrw i gotta do core yippee time to grind and lock in so i reach my gw before winter
tw 3d rant/vent
i wish i had a phone right now so that i can track fasts better when i was fasting i lost so much weight and i did it all the right way i fasted 16hrs everyday, 700c omads, 100-500 jumping jacks a day, 3-5k steps daily, like cmon man now that i have none of my tracking stuff i cant tell if anything im doing is working i feel a bit out of control in that sense bc istg i want to lost the weight but idk if its working bc my scale broke, my eating gets monitored from time to time, and i have no damn phone >:( if i had a phone istg i wouldve been at my gw by now it took me a damn month to get 6lbs away from my gw BUT THEN I BINGED AND GOT MY PHONE TAKEN AND BAKERACTED RAAAGGGHHHH GET ME OUT I WANT TO BE IN CONTROL OF THIS FOR FUCKING ONCE IN MY LIFE i js want my cute tracker that reminds me to drink water, my scale that shows both lbs nd kg, and my safe foods ;-; if i had all of that then id be set id have the perfect skinny fall anyway im getting a phone soon so hopefully i can literally lock in more than i am now and start making some damn progress and then after that i can go raving and wear cute small fits that show off my hips nd collarbones
my boyfie deserves some bites rn BUT HES NOT HERE XRYTDCFVGYBJHN
OMG! SOMEONE I LOVE! bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you bites you bites y
i wish i kept up drawing as a hobby :/ i dont draw anymore and my skills have seriously depleted i failed at the one thing i was good at ive always been known as the art kid, always picked on for projects, always boasted about to family all because i knew how to put shapes together to create a person now i really have nothing that im good at im not good at dancing, i dont read anymore, i can barely sing, and now i dont draw which makes me feel so shitty bc now what do i tell interviewers about myself? what do i tell people who want to get to know me? how do i tell my family that my hobbies arent mine anymore why do i have to fail at the things im good at??? why do i fail at loosing w^!ght, why do i fail at art, why do i fail at dancing, why are my skills nothing compared to what people my age are doing there are people younger than me who do the same things i used to love doing but better everyone else is better than me and now i feel like theres no point in continuing it all i hate feeling competitive
boyfie rant
I MISS MY BOYFIE bro ts is worth then med withdrawls if i took a nap on his chest rn i think serotonin and oxytocin would course thru my veins the entire time im wearing his shirt today and its js makes me miss him so much more ;-; looking at all the photos of him smiling makes my heart so warm his smile reminds me of that small bit of warmth u feel from the sun on a really cold day or when u try a new dessert and u get all jittery bc of how yummy it is
I FORGOT PADS CHAT I KNEW I FORGOT SOMETHING THIS MORNING PLEEEEASE GOD NO IM RAGING AND SEETHING
jesse, jesse, im busy making out with minecraft youtuber dream youll have to cook without me
ik love like mines exists bc my boyfie exists
YES and poached egg in soup goes CRAZY wait omad idea bone broth + poached eggs = lowc4l omad did the math and its insane
scrambled eggs just aren’t that good I’m sorry. soft boiled eggs and fried eggs both mog the fuck out of them