Sometimes I Forget That I Am A Whole Person. Like, With Feelings And Experiences.

Sometimes I forget that I am a whole person. Like, with feelings and experiences.

I don't have to feel only one thing at a time. I am a complex person and I can feel as much and as deeply as I can.

I hate when my mum touches me even tho I already told her no.

Not in a weird sexual way, just in a I've already told her not to hug me way and she still does it.

I told her no over and over again and she still grabs me and hugs me and is awfully close to me.

I tell her my boundaries and she's like, oh, these are worthless.

Fuck this. Why can't she respect them??

posting on tumblr cause i don’t have anyone to talk to, tired of burdening my fp with my feelings, it just pushes them further away, im so lonely.

Tw: ed

Why do most of my friends have eating disorders??? And why am I falling back into mineee?

Seeing myself is making me nauseous and I am getting bigger and bigger by the day.

I thought I really beat it. I was doing so great and accepted my body as it is but now I can't anymore.

There is so much fat. I am just fat. So big. So much. I have to get smaller again.

I try so hard not to throw up after I've eaten. I try so hard to eat normal portions. But I see myself replacing food with water and clenching cravings with ice cubes again.

Chewing gum is keeping my mouth occupied while I try and eat something else.

It's getting harder again. And I think I kind of want to be consumed by it.

Tw: sh

Strong urge to cut open my lip. Also the rest of my skin, but mostly just my lip. I also want to sew myself back together after I rip myself apart. Like, literally.

I am so confused?

Tw: mention of drugs

Hello me beautiful people, U am kide drunk right now and I just really crave.milk.

I need some milk. I also wanna sleep and it's cold.

My boyfriend is also drunk.and he.jsut fell asleep and fell to the ground whole sitting, heheen.