I Really Gotta Star To Think About What I Want To Do.

I really gotta star to think about what I want to do.

Because like, someone telling me to do what I want is really overwhelming.

Like, how should I know?? What do I want?

And also, do you want it? How should I know? Yell me yes or no please?? Because I can't read minds and it's hard to decide if I don't know of you want it or not.

I really have to work on that.

But hey, at least my poetry book is going really well. I am sorting through all my poems rn and decide which will actually stay in the book and I already have 23 :)

When he says he wants to see me again >>

Holy shit that is just awesome. Like, the kind of wanted I feel is insane.

My sister and I are just scrolling through her instergram and I see someone I don't know and ask who is this?

And she answers with oh, I was in jail with him.

She is an activist btw, she didn't actually do anything.

My head hurts and I want to cry because of snakes. I mean, look at them!!

They are just so adorable

People, you won't belive it but I just woke up and it's 2 am and I still feel good.

Like, I dreamed about him staying over night and for some reason we were making cookies at night and he fell asleep on the dream.

I loved it. And yeah, I just woke up and am still happy. Hehe :)

I hope he got home safe and sleeps well

I texted a friend that I missed him. Nothing new, but the meaning changed.

We have never met in real life, and the I miss you was meant as in I know we are supposed to be together way.

Now when I text him I miss you I mean it as in I miss you and me. I miss how we were, I miss knowing you the way I did. I miss that it felt like we were meant for each other.

I miss him. So much.