C)

c)

“Who have you been hanging out with?”

b)

“I haven’t received any messages from you since December 20.”

“You told me you blocked me, so I didn’t send you any.”

“Is he from out of town?”

i don't know you but i'm so sorry someone treated you like this. it's not your fault and you didn't deserve it.

It is very kind of you to reach out - I really really appreciate it. As much as this whole thing is for me to cope and process, it has been helpful (despite being horribly embarrassing) to let others see it. It makes it real in a way, and it anchors me on the side of healing.

Thank you for saying so. It calms my 'crazy' a bit to be validated. Rationally I know these things and generally I believe it. But there are times where my brain betrays me and goes rogue.

I hope that your day is going well. Thanks for the kindness.

Can you take a hit to your person without calling out? How about to your heart?

The blinds were always drawn

And the windows always closed. He told me he didn't like people looking in and up in his business. Really he needed some place to hurt me where no one would see or hear.

Self destruct x10

One of the requirements that had to be met before he could "forgive me" and we could get back together was he had to meet and surpass me in sexual partners.

I went through a period of hypersexuality in response to trauma during my youth and my number was higher than his.

He wanted me to find and offer up women ( including friends) for him to "have". Thankfully this never worked out, but he did fine on his own.

After every new woman he would have unprotected sex with me so that if he "got something" from them we would both have it.

That way he wouldn't have to suffer alone. After all, he was never the one who wanted this.