Abuse and trauma survivor - these are my stories in no particular order. Content warnings and triggers everywhere. Adult blog; 18+ only.
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The Blinds Were Always Drawn
The blinds were always drawn
And the windows always closed. He told me he didn't like people looking in and up in his business. Really he needed some place to hurt me where no one would see or hear.
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Blamed for my bruises
Every time he left a mark he became distraught. I would have to invest so much energy into consoling him - telling him it would be alright, I'd wear a turtleneck. No one would know.
He told me that he made calculated decisions about how hard to throw, squeeze, or hit and I was just too fragile.
Marks just showed up on my skin far too easy.
Self destruct x10
One of the requirements that had to be met before he could "forgive me" and we could get back together was he had to meet and surpass me in sexual partners.
I went through a period of hypersexuality in response to trauma during my youth and my number was higher than his.
He wanted me to find and offer up women ( including friends) for him to "have". Thankfully this never worked out, but he did fine on his own.
After every new woman he would have unprotected sex with me so that if he "got something" from them we would both have it.
That way he wouldn't have to suffer alone. After all, he was never the one who wanted this.
The ultimate.
He didn't think the way I masturbated was the right way to do it. He expected me to change my methods.
b)
“I haven’t received any messages from you since December 20.”
“You told me you blocked me, so I didn’t send you any.”
“Is he from out of town?”
A text message he sent me some time in 2016. I saved it in my notes as I switched phones in early 2017. I saved it at the time because it gave me hope that we would date again.