F)

f)

“You know I never wanted this”

c)

“Who have you been hanging out with?”

Blamed for my bruises

Every time he left a mark he became distraught. I would have to invest so much energy into consoling him - telling him it would be alright, I'd wear a turtleneck. No one would know.

He told me that he made calculated decisions about how hard to throw, squeeze, or hit and I was just too fragile.

Marks just showed up on my skin far too easy.

e)

“I keep hearing about those towels from my mom.”

“…you got…. everything.”

“I know.”

The xmas immediately before we separated his mother bought us towels ($100.00).  We had grey and white - he used the white, I used the grey.  So I took the grey ones with me when I left  he kicked me out.  He is stating that she’s lamenting the $40 of her xmas gift that I took with me. 

When I say that he got everything, I mean he got everything:  I walked away from the house that I contributed 50% to financially,  all of our furniture, dishes, kitchen utensils, soap dishes, bed sheets, groceries and our joint account.  He got all of it. 

And he’s saying this as though I should be writing a cheque to keep the peace between he and his mother - as if I owe him that.

g)

“You know I did the best that I could.  I just couldn’t take it anymore.”

He wanted me to brand his initials on my genitals. I would have probably done it 16 months ago.