I Feel So Dumb I Have Like A Panic Attack I No Longer YSve One Of My Old Computers And The Files For

I feel so dumb I have like a panic attack I no longer ySve one of my old computers and the files for the Catz game

And that I think I thriout dogs 3 cd because I had to move. I should of not done that or any of my outdated tec but I had to be fast. Why do I have to be this way? It hurts souch

It's so stupid. It's been so long. And I want to reuse pet names from Catz for Xanje .

I'm also upset I lost a cool dog becayibwss greedy doin the glitch where you get your babies early by forwarding your computer clock

To long. I lay down. My ears have a feeling. Like being boxed. Maybe 3 times. Maybe a minute in between. Before my heart feels startled. Then, maybe 5 min later, a limb twitch. Months ago before that would have a sensation like my head filled up and expelled something.

And now, after eating these cannibis gummies that are supposed to be trollie worms, every now and then make a chomping movement.

Sometimes all 3 at once.

Since maybe July. T has been going on. The chomp and worm thing was from a few weeks ago.

This goes on every night multiple times a night.I thought I would try not thinking .clearing my mind, and I injured myself. Or maybe it was going from .25 to .50 resperidone. Or maybe it was space candy damage. I do not know.

I am so tired. I wonder if I have paradoxal insomnia. I’m doing a medicine reboot, so after 20 years. Am f the lamotrigine. Thinking that is why I am akways jarred

Seeing all the AI is n Facebook and the whole Israel Hamas Palestine issue and thinking. Need to ruin everyone’s day with faces do not help an anxiety. A frustrating, twitchy, thing

I’m laying there with my arm by my head and I scrape the pillowcase with my nail. The sound sends me jumping with a big flinch. Like my whole body jumps.

In the back of my mind I keep thinking I need to completely break, and then I will get bettter. Mental health Phoenix

But that is not a thing. Only struggling with IFS, CBT, DBT therapy and medication does. Maybe diet ….

And I almost feel like I a, going to break.

I feel like I am loosing myself.

Twice this month, nausia headache chest pai

Then throw up. It happens at least once a month. Ate some tomato soup before

I should of kept a diary. I was like this pril 2. Nd

I feel powerless overwhelmed.I can’t calm down and grapple my state. It’s asleep in a frozen haze. Someone else smashing the panic button. Trauma,stress, it physically damages the brain. I do not understand .