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Made to love, but not to be loved; made to understand, but not to be understood; always the poet, never the poetry.

I wish my life was still mine, like when I was a kid felt so good to get home from school and have something to be passionate about doing but now it’s getting home from school and feeling like I have no privacy, no place where I can destress and be alone without someone else being there, it’s feeling like I have no life outside of what I do academically and that while I have a body, I’m not a person. I’m more of an object to fulfill the expectations of others. Someone that needs to respect everyone except myself. Someone expect to throw everything I know and believe aside to dial down myself and make me digestible for others. It hurts.

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I often forget my life isn’t some fictional story to be viewed by others, and I assume that’s what spending years in your head pretending to be someone else in 15 different realities gets you

I just realized I’ve spent at least an hour trying to find a tumblr post that conveys how I feel right now or at least encourages my thoughts out of the jumbled up mess they are currently in and it’s like, why can’t I make that post myself? Why can’t I just unravel my thoughts the way I usually do in my journal? Why must I, in a way, torture myself today? Trying to fill I void I already know how to fill and trying to rid myself of a feeling I already am well aware of how to get rid of but I am currently just choosing not to. Like I guess it’s because today was one of those days where it sort of sinks in more than usual just how trapped I feel in my life, but even then I know I don’t have to make it worse. I don’t have to binge eat, I don’t have to force myself to do exercises I very well don’t have the energy for, and I don’t have to starve myself either. There’s other ways to go about my sinking feeling than self destructing.

Chat drop tips or hints to know if I like girls in the comments please😔

Just found out my priorities were so out of wack I can’t even recite the atla opening bar for bar 😕

I hate when self help tips are right because why does self care actually work, like literally get out‼️😠😟😒

Hi, I’m Amira from Gaza, 23, and supporting my family after my father’s death. My mother is ill, and our home was destroyed in the shelling🍉🍉.

We are now living in tents. Please help by donating or sharing our campaign link to find safety. Thank you and God bless. 🙏🙏

Her go fund me is linked on her page!

I’ll never be me again, not like I remember who she is anyway.

I feel like an old beaten up dog that is just wandering around looking for someone, anyone, to love me.

HAI IK I WONT GET ANY SOOO...

____ Amount of notes and ill.... (5 notes per person)

5: Clean my room :]

10: Eat 3 meals a day :/

20: Clean my closet TvT (SOBS)

30: Get enough sleep (10 hrs)

50: Let myself take breaks

100: Tell my mom I need a phycologist :] (She said she'll try and find me one :3)

300: Finnally write my story I've been planing

500: Throw away sh blades

Me when my thick thighs

Me when other women's thick thighs

In case anyone is having a bad night

(The best of this post and its reblogs, but with links that work)

Here is a website where you can scroll down to all the different levels of the ocean 

Here is a website where you can see the future of the universe (can get a bit bleak just a head’s up!)

Here is a website where you can press a ‘make everything okay’ button, over and over, until things really are okay

Here is a website that you can read if you feel like a burden

Here is a website where you can look at strobe illusions (TW strobe/flashing)

Here is a website where you can cut stuff up (TW blood/sh)

Here and here are websites where you can play with sand

Here is a website where you can draw with macaroni and other fun foods

Here is a website where you can paint someone’s nails

Here is a website where you can grow a garden with emojis

Here is a website with hundreds of videos of people hugging you (rightfully dubbed ‘the nicest place on the internet’ because it really is, y’all, it made me cry)

Here is a website that will take you to other useless websites

Here is a website where you can make a tiny cat play bongo drums (and other instruments!)

Here is a website to help give you gentle reminders <3

Here is a website where you can grow a tiny farm

Here is a website where you can take a bunch of scientific personality tests

Here is a website of calm rain noise

Take a breath. It’s going to be okay, I promise.

Comfort show

have you eaten yet? (I love you I love you) do you want a snack? (I love you I love you) what's your favorite food? (I love you I love you) can I make you a cup of tea? (I love you I love you) can you help me with dinner? (I love you I love you) I'll bring you some soup for the cold (I love you I love you) I made these and thought of you (I love you I love you) I'm sorry for your loss, take this it was my mother's recipe (I love you I love you) congratulations! let's celebrate with dessert! (I love you I love you) can I get you something to eat? (I love you I love you) no one can make it like my grandmother's (I love you I love you) I made sure it was dietary restriction friendly for you, I hope you like it (I love you I love you) love is stored in food (I love you I love you I love you I love you)

It’s important to remember that affirmations are not meant to be said just when you’re ready to believe them. We practice affirmations so that we can offer ourselves reminders of kindness and do our best to act on them. It’s okay if you can say “I deserve good things” but can’t believe it yet. The goal is to gently work yourself up until you can.

Your body is on your side. Your body is not the enemy. Your body is supposed to keep you safe. Your body is not meant to whittle away.

This post exempts you from any and all “If you don’t ___ this post, ____ will happen.” You are hereby immune to it all. You are now protected! Be free!

Just a semi-regular reminder that you do not have to wait until it is "that bad" in order to start pursuing recovery. You don't have to let it get worse in order to count. If it's happening to you, it counts. You matter and you don't have to put yourself through more suffering and a longer, more arduous recovery process (and more lasting damage!) in order to prove that it was bad enough. If you want to get better now, you do not have to get anybody's permission to do it. Healing can start anytime, anywhere, and you do not have to endure any worse in order to deserve better.

You have to stop ruining things for yourself preemptively because you believe they’ll fail anyway. Give yourself a chance to succeed.