Sometimes I Just Feel Im Not Enough. Like, Will I Ever Be Good In Some Profession In The Future? Will

Sometimes I just feel im not enough. Like, will i ever be good in some profession in the future? Will someone really like my job? What if, no matter what i do i just end failling in the end?

christine “ladybird” mcpherson said, “i wish i could live through something.”

and i want to do the same.

so here the fuck i am. living through something. living through a feeling in my gut i can never quite shake, despite it constantly being on low tumble in my mind perpetually.

and here i am, living through haze i can never get my flashlight to cut through, even in the thinnest of mists.

so maybe i should’ve clarified a bit more.

i want to live through something good.

 i want to be the main character, fulfilled by the plot and nothing else. i want character development. i want foreshadow you won’t understand until you know rewatch for the second time. i want a cutscene. i want a shot that’s a metaphor for something bad to happen. i want the moment where i just know every single turmoil in my life is over and a sappy song will play as the camera pans onto my face in golden light or as i drive around in a car or SOMETHING. i want a purpose. i want to fall in love.

but if ladybird couldn’t have all those things, whose to say i could?

but i’m not in a film so whose to say they couldn’t?

I think we all need to really suffer in order to be happy and succed in the future. How would we know what is happiness if we didnt have sadness to compare it with? But omg, when does the happiness part begins??

I want to live more, I want to experience new thinks, I want to create outstanding memories. I really don't want to wake up in my fortys, sad, depressed, alone and regreting my youth years. I realise I rather be sad after experiencing a lot of emotions, than to be sad after doing nothing at all

“I love it when I see old couples together, because it makes me believe that true love does exist.”

— Unknown (via resqectable)

“If you look back only at your mistakes, you’d think you were an idiot. If you look back only at your wiser choices, you’d think you were infallible. But if you look back on everything, you realize you’re a human being who has been through a lot, grown a lot, is always still learning, and improving as time goes by.”

— Doe Zantamata