Well, I Finally Wrote Back To Him!!

Well, I finally wrote back to him!!

I actually feel a little worse now than before. LOL Because he's right, but it is still very difficult bc what can I say??!!

"Oh, my problem is that you are looking at other girls and you are not with me during the breaks." (?????) 😭😭 SIR PLS

I would be ridiculous. But I really love him AHH and I thought I'd share this conversation with you girls 🥺

My childish self has arrived again!!!

He wrote to me yesterday after school, but I was offended and haven't written back since... (yeah I'm idiot) I'm tired of thinking about what if he writes to the rival girl too. UGH

I feel like I'm starting to spoil this.😟 lol *crying*

Unclouded happiness did not last long. pffft😒 According to my inside information, R also gave chocolates to another girl, whom I have never seen anyway (she is in her last year at school) ?!! Damn I might not be the first favorite student after all. *sulk* NEVERMIND😠🙄

GIIIRLS I think I've officially won the favorite student award!😳😭

I never thought Women's Day would be one of my best days ever. I don't want to write at length, I'll just say that today R unexpectedly pressed a piece of paper into my hand and said: "Happy Women's Day strawberry lady" But he was so fast and he didn't look me in the eye, he just went about his business and I just blinked and couldn't even thank him.😭 Then OMG OMG!!!?????🥺️ T--T I looked at what I got… this man gave me a chocolate and a note on which he wrote Happy Women's Day and his short signature. ????!! I died. WTF HE TOTALLY WANTS ME OKAAAY?!!

(btw, I realized afterwards that he called me strawberry lady bc I was wearing a strawberry-patterned knitted sweaters) lol

Hiiii Girls!! I came to tell you a little story. <3

Well, on Sunday, you saw the little screenshot I showed you, and then I talked to him a little more. Then on Monday, I was still a bit withdrawn at school and we didn't hang out as much, bc I was more busy with my friends and school, but ofc I wasn't a jerk, I greeted him in the morning and when we met in the corridor I was scared but smiled at him. I saw that the "rival girl" was sometimes with him and they were talking, but I tried to ignore it. However, I think he sensed that I was a little reserved, so maybe that's why he didn't come to me.

But then, as if something had changed today, since I never once noticed that the "rival girl" was present around R and when I went to his class, he was standing at the door and greeted me with a big smile, he even put his arms around my shoulders. (!!!) I was honestly very surprised and I don't think I could hide it bc he just laughed at me. lol He started talking to me at his desk before class and since he is quite talkative, I mostly just listened to what he said in confusion. I'll be honest, I didn't know what to do at all, it was as if we were having our first conversation. I didn't even understand why I was behaving so differently.

I felt like he could see right through me and see into my soul, as he kept looking into my eyes and sometimes smiled slyly while making me feel that something is different here now. He enchanted me so much with his gaze that I couldn't even react, it was such an inexplicable feeling girls, I can't describe it properly... Here comes the point, when the other students came in, he stood up and looked down at me and said this, which has been ringing in my head ever since:

"Don't look at me with those doe eyes because it's cute." He said teasingly (?) and then loudly asked everyone to sit down.

Since then, I've been sitting at home in a state of shock and only question marks run through my head. What happened?!!

Do I understand this correctly? He was really flirting with me??!😳.... or maybe im just *delulu* lol

he needs me, he just hasn't figured it out yet.

plot twist: I have his hoodie...but I can still walk :(

a relationship should be 50/50, i steal ur hoodie and you steal my ability to walk