Man Crush Forever - Tumblr Posts

worst thing about liking a tumblr user is that if you put me and his favorite character in a room and ask him to pick who dies, he'd be arranging my funeral 💀

Today we had lunch together at school!!!😳

It was lunch break and I bought a sandwich in the cafeteria and he just asked for a coffee, and when he saw me he greeted me and asked if I wanted to sit down for lunch with him. (he brought food in a box with him) and I say yes sure! (WTF SIR???!) Anyway, I would have eaten with my friends and they looked at me quite surprised when I sat down with R at one of the tables. lol

I was a bit shy but R just talked to me casually. He talked to me a lot and showed me some pictures of the little kitty, which I said was the cutest. Then he asked my opinion about keeping the cat. It seems that he is quite serious about adopting the kitty, he was so cute and enthusiastic about it.

(oh and I might add that he's still wearing my bracelet!) <3

but really girls.. what if he spends Valentine's Day with someone else? He's handsome, funny, smart..PERFECT!! I bet a thousand women are lining up for him.🙄 I urgently need to know what he is doing that day because I am going crazy lol

IM HIS WIFE OKAY??? *delulululululul*

(someone calm me down with a little delulu thank u girls)

I'm sad. I need a man (my teacher) on whose lap I can sit.

It's better to be an older man's darling than a younger boy's mom.

The delusions I created because of him are worth a mass.

I wish him the best, but I am the best.

You can't argue with me, I'll convince you anyway

Hey girls!

I thought I'd give a little status report that I probably won't be able to post my nonsense for 4-5 days because I'm going on vacation + I have to study a lot. So don't worry, I still have to change my panties twice when I see my teacher and I'm not over him.

Will be in touch! Take care everyone! <3

How do you feel about married men?

I'm not an adulterer. If I see an attractive older man, and I see that he has a ring on his hand, I respect that to the maximum and only admire him from afar.

If you have a wife, then respect her, if you are not able to stay faithful, then leave her alone.

Hiiii Girls!! I came to tell you a little story. <3

Well, on Sunday, you saw the little screenshot I showed you, and then I talked to him a little more. Then on Monday, I was still a bit withdrawn at school and we didn't hang out as much, bc I was more busy with my friends and school, but ofc I wasn't a jerk, I greeted him in the morning and when we met in the corridor I was scared but smiled at him. I saw that the "rival girl" was sometimes with him and they were talking, but I tried to ignore it. However, I think he sensed that I was a little reserved, so maybe that's why he didn't come to me.

But then, as if something had changed today, since I never once noticed that the "rival girl" was present around R and when I went to his class, he was standing at the door and greeted me with a big smile, he even put his arms around my shoulders. (!!!) I was honestly very surprised and I don't think I could hide it bc he just laughed at me. lol He started talking to me at his desk before class and since he is quite talkative, I mostly just listened to what he said in confusion. I'll be honest, I didn't know what to do at all, it was as if we were having our first conversation. I didn't even understand why I was behaving so differently.

I felt like he could see right through me and see into my soul, as he kept looking into my eyes and sometimes smiled slyly while making me feel that something is different here now. He enchanted me so much with his gaze that I couldn't even react, it was such an inexplicable feeling girls, I can't describe it properly... Here comes the point, when the other students came in, he stood up and looked down at me and said this, which has been ringing in my head ever since:

"Don't look at me with those doe eyes because it's cute." He said teasingly (?) and then loudly asked everyone to sit down.

Since then, I've been sitting at home in a state of shock and only question marks run through my head. What happened?!!

Do I understand this correctly? He was really flirting with me??!😳.... or maybe im just *delulu* lol

you can't pick who's your father, but you can pick who's your *daddy*

sorry dad but i love your friend

Guys my age don't know how to treat me.

but my teacher... ohh he knows

Guys my age don't know how to treat me.

Unclouded happiness did not last long. pffft😒 According to my inside information, R also gave chocolates to another girl, whom I have never seen anyway (she is in her last year at school) ?!! Damn I might not be the first favorite student after all. *sulk* NEVERMIND😠🙄

I hope you remember my cute face when you touch yourself.

Story time! The gathering. pt.2

I was angry, tense, I had all sorts of problems and maybe I slammed the glass on the counter too angrily because it was quite loud, but I didn't know what to do, I was so freaked out. Plus, I already had so much alcohol in me that I reacted much more sensitively. It seems long written down, but it happened in a few seconds and took place inside me, but I was listening with a thousand ears to see how R would react to this question. I will try to recall verbatim what he said: "I think it's nothing, she's a very nice woman, but she didn't manage to steal my heart."

Girls, I'm so stupid. I should have been happy about that at that moment, but all I could think about was that R could be stolen from me at any time. What's more it turned out during their conversation that the woman is 37 years old, so older than R! lol OKAY

This is where Soah got herself into a very uncomfortable situation. Yes, that's me! KILL ME I couldn't keep my mouth shut and specifically said this: "Why don't you date someone younger?" Of course, when I realized what I had said, I regretted it.😭😭 R immediately turned back to me and laughingly asked: "What do you mean?" and that's when I started to save what I could... I started to say something like "I mean, I don't interfere, it's just that a 37-year-old woman wants to start a family too quickly because of the biological clock ticking, etc" (that's all I remember, which was a meaningful sentence) lol 💀 You should have seen my blushing akward face while R just listened curiously to my monologue. I will never accept vodka from anyone again!!!😖 BRUHH

BUT then I was very surprised because I couldn't even finish my nonsense. R took my hand and said "Come dance with me" but I immediately stopped and told him that I can't dance. ????? AAA "Just follow my steps" - he said and started dancing with me to some old retro music, but it didn't really go well for me, although he spun me around twice and then he even danced with my father. (this was funny) this man knows how to kill me.😭

I'm actually glad that R brushed off my awkward speech and surprised me by asking me to dance. At least that way I didn't put myself in an even more unpleasant situation. Then of course, we were not only busy with each other, I will only describe those parts to you. So he wasn't just with me all night, he also talked a lot with other people and so did I. But I was brave enough to hug him and maybe I hugged him longer than I should have, but he didn't mind me hanging on him. And what is worth mentioning is that while I was hugging him, after a while he said: "You drank too much huh?" - he said while pinching my face, then I told him not to pinch me all the time and he pinched my face again. Sir...sir..

The problem girls is that I fell too much in love with him and I think he can see that too..(?) (maybe idk??) maybe He sees but does not push the boundaries, but I noticed that if I step and I approach he does not reject it and allows it... so idk So much has happened, but now I'm really going to stop girls, because I'm writing too much. These were the important ones and the ones I remember more precisely.

There were still a few things that happened between us that were inexplicable, but maybe I will share them later...

(I would also like to say that now that I have written this down, I am a little relieved that he is not going on another date with that woman and that he rejected her.)

Hello girls!! <3 Little status report:

I never had the best relationship with my mother, it's no coincidence that I'm with my father a lot, and my mother lives in another city with her new boyfriend (whom I also hate because he's an asshole) I was with her one weekend, but not for long, because my mother drank and when she drinks she says things to me that she regrets the next day, but it's a huge trauma for me. I won't even elaborate on this. Dad quickly came to pick me up and now I'm staying with dad for a while. (I have a small apartment that is closer to the school, but we discussed with father that it is better if I stay at home for a while) However, father's house is huge and he works a lot, but he tries to be with me, but now he has gone on a business trip, so I am alone. The loneliness and what happened between me and mom took a toll on me so much that my depression got stronger. I lost a lot of weight because of this. Since dad was afraid that my condition would worsen while he was away, he informed his close friends about the situation and that I was now with him. (very cute) So R also knows everything, who calls or texts me almost every night. Anyway, imagine, at school, R immediately noticed that I had lost weight and has been very caring for me since then. At least he tries to stay within limits at school, but he makes it clear that he is here with me. Since he lives closer to father, he has taken me home three times so far and sometimes he stayed with me for a while. So after every bad thing comes something good, if i can call it that. However, mother takes a toll on me, but the fact that R is here for me and I can hold on to him means a lot. Now it feels like he is replacing my father. I love him very much, but now our relationship is not developing romantically, but to put it…mental support. I'll write you girls some details later, because a few things happened between us, but I thought I'd write you all quickly about what's going on. Don't worry, I'm getting better and dad won't be away much, and I'll be going back to my apartment soon. And I will sort out my relationship with my mother somehow. (I'm sorry if I worded something wrong, but I'm very exhausted)

Thank you for being here for me girls and for the many inbox messages in which you expressed your support!!! Love u all!! 💓