Sadness Resounding

Sadness resounding

from the piano kills

all of my dreams

I sing

as you wrap yourself

in a blanket

I scream

I asked you to love

me deeper when I'm sad

You promised, I was glad

But why did you sleep

while I bleed?

Do lies taste better,

darling

when the love is dead?

-katie, 23:01

Holding you gives me a different kind of euphoria. ❤

I am

a woman

a human

person

a soul

wandering

searching

for peace

and quiet

I have personality

I breathe

I exist

I am one

with the living

So don't call

me hot

I am not

a soup

-katie, 10:11

But the parts that you claim

to love so tenderly

are the polished parts

Those free from flaws

covered in rich foundation

My love,

those are the easy parts

to love

How about embracing

the scars

the unsightly stretch marks

the eroding wave of sanity

all of the dark?

-katie, 21:00

If you look back far enough, you can see…

tears stained on stars

hearts contained in penny jars

words queued on my tongue

trying to roll themselves out

Also there are blisters on the moon

a laceration on its side

scribbles of who we are

decorating the path where I stride

Helpless yet still devoted

to the corpse that you are

Mindless of the pouring

of the gust whispering

"He is gone."

It's time to move forward

but my eyes keep looking backward

to where we have talked

our last few sentences

such a painful farewell

I am trying to get by

If you looked back far enough,

you would have seen

me crawled

picked my pieces scattered

all over the floor

But you stared far ahead

Cold, uncaring heart

turning into a memory,

a scar taking niche

into the skin

that I wear

-katie, 04:00

She isn't your answered prayer.

She nags.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She argues.

She questions your intention.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She bleeds.

She crumbles.

She isn't perfect.

She isn't your answered prayer.

Sometimes she crawls back to her hide.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She lets negative thoughts swarm inside her head.

She drains the energy out of you.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She doubts.

She curses.

She remembers her traumas.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She drives you to the wall.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She shatters the illusion of a perfect relationship.

She isn't the ideal girl.

She isn't your answered prayer.

But she chose you over others who pursued her.

She tries to silence her demons when you're near.

She compromises.

She isn't your answered prayer.

But you should love her just the same.

-answered prayer,

katie, 18:00