Holding You Gives Me A Different Kind Of Euphoria.

Holding you gives me a different kind of euphoria. ❤

I knew

When you looked at me

with those

stranger's eyes twinkling

knowledge from

a past

I am trying to forget

I knew

I am trapped

How could I

love you this much

baby while

you try to throw away

everything

we ever had?!

-katie, 23:46

You don't know

What it's like

To stare

At the walls

For hours

And hours

Figuring out

How the clock

Ticks so loud

Screaming

A hollow sound

Dead, hollow sound

Ringing all over

Your deafness

Making you shiver

Despite your numbness

You don't know

What it's like

To hold yourself

Together because

Breaking down

Is like a drug

Tempting,

A little consoling

But destructive

So you lie there

Trying hard not to feel

Shutting the faint sound

Of blood running

In your veins

Trying hard not

To go insane

You don't know

What it's like

So stop repeating

Words I've heard

Before

For a million times

"You're gonna be fine!"

Maybe I would be

But not today

Definitely not today

-katie, 20:15

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I bought a one way ticket

to the other side

of the moon

Watch the ocean rise

as I fall

asleep in the arms

of darkness,

a friend returning

from a short voyage

He cradles my head,

traces the cracked skull

with his fingers

until I sigh

with the thunder roaring

over my weeping sky!

-one way ticket,

katie, 22:00

Maybe there's a greater plan,

a better storyline

written for me

That's why

everytime

I try

to circumvent

destiny, I get slapped

by the busy hand

of the clock!

-katie, 23:46

She isn't your answered prayer.

She nags.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She argues.

She questions your intention.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She bleeds.

She crumbles.

She isn't perfect.

She isn't your answered prayer.

Sometimes she crawls back to her hide.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She lets negative thoughts swarm inside her head.

She drains the energy out of you.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She doubts.

She curses.

She remembers her traumas.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She drives you to the wall.

She isn't your answered prayer.

She shatters the illusion of a perfect relationship.

She isn't the ideal girl.

She isn't your answered prayer.

But she chose you over others who pursued her.

She tries to silence her demons when you're near.

She compromises.

She isn't your answered prayer.

But you should love her just the same.

-answered prayer,

katie, 18:00