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You don't know
What it's like
To stare
At the walls
For hours
And hours
Figuring out
How the clock
Ticks so loud
Screaming
A hollow sound
Dead, hollow sound
Ringing all over
Your deafness
Making you shiver
Despite your numbness
You don't know
What it's like
To hold yourself
Together because
Breaking down
Is like a drug
Tempting,
A little consoling
But destructive
So you lie there
Trying hard not to feel
Shutting the faint sound
Of blood running
In your veins
Trying hard not
To go insane
You don't know
What it's like
So stop repeating
Words I've heard
Before
For a million times
"You're gonna be fine!"
Maybe I would be
But not today
Definitely not today
-katie, 20:15
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But where can I hide
when my tormentor resides
inside my mind?
-katie, 02:30
I love you
I do
When you left
this morning
and all I could smell
was your scent mixing
with the aroma
of coffee,
I knew...
-katie,02:45
Sometimes I wonder,
if I ever stop trying,
will we still talk?
-katie, 09:00
I knew
When you looked at me
with those
stranger's eyes twinkling
knowledge from
a past
I am trying to forget
I knew
I am trapped
How could I
love you this much
baby while
you try to throw away
everything
we ever had?!
-katie, 23:46
I am
a woman
a human
person
a soul
wandering
searching
for peace
and quiet
I have personality
I breathe
I exist
I am one
with the living
So don't call
me hot
I am not
a soup
-katie, 10:11
Why is it that when I read poems,
I feel you between the lines
See you through the imagery
Hear you throb with the rhymes
Could it be that the poets
Have known you better
Than I do
That they were
Able to capture you
Into their words
While I trip and fall
Chasing the heart
That you stole
-my love in other people's poems,
katie, 22:00
Go!
The doors are open wide
along with my eyes
staring at the nothingness
that used to be a space
filled with heady scents
of love
of joy
of the future
But everything changed
And the wind
that used to sing
me lullabies
now screams
silence
all around
All the sounds
that used to occupy
my mind,
your voice
the way you whisper
lies I believed
to be promises
disappeared
like they've never
been said
Oh you said
you will never
give up
on me no matter
what happens
So what happened
What made
you realize
I am difficult
to love
to understand
No, I am not
calling you back
again
This is me
telling you
to leave
be free
for I don't need
someone who doesn't see
beyond highs
beyond lows
So be free
It's better that you leave
now than later
For later would cause
a wound deeper
than the one I dug
beneath the ground
where I stand
Go!
-katie,21:45
Now you turned
into the sad
poem
that I wrote
under the glow
of the moon
sulking
with the shadows
dancing
with the trees
while I hum
Oh you turned
into the sad
song
that you sang
under the glow
of the sun
crumbling
with the waves
sweeping
against the shore
while you run
while I hum
Oh we run
while we hum
and I wrote
and you sang
a sad poem
a sad song
Melancholy
dripping
colliding
Oh you sang
Oh I wrote
Yeah we rhymed
then we drifted
as you ran
then I began
to rewrite the ending
-sad poem
katie,22:00
Love slides down your cheeks
gentle and graceful
a dew caressing the tip
of a newly bloomed Tulip
It rolls itself down
and then rests in your lips
touches the curve of your smile
a match igniting the fire
raging inside
my playful mind
-katie
And now I lay me down
to sleep
on your chest, mesmerized
by the rhythm
of your heartbeat
I pull you closer,
can't seem to get enough
of you
as you whisper
sweet nothings
and then play
with my hair
I try my best
to stay awake
a little longer, my love
nuzzle your shirt,
remembering your scent
Since you came
reality has been better
far better
than my dreams
Oh I lay me down
to sleep
but your voice keeps
my mind alive
with all the thoughts
I run with you
Sometimes words
are scarce
but I hope you know
that you resemble
the stars
and that you are
enthralling
Now lay me
down to sleep...
-katie, 22:07
She snuggled into the sheets with him,
the rustle beneath her skin
echoed the fear creeping
as he moved away leaving
her baffled, words she wished
to say retreated
to her mouth as she wept
in silence
-katie, 23:27
When do we remember
a moment?
When we're in it?
When butterflies fill
our chest with bliss,
and we wish
we could linger
in that state of euphoria?
Or do we wait
for the time to be over,
for the person to leave,
for the laughter to turn
into an echo
that haunts us
in our sleep?
Do we wait
for the moment
to become a memory
before we start
to remember
how to feel?
-before we start to remember,
katie, 20:56
We roll on our backs,
feel the lush grasses
beneath the picnic mat
and we laugh, and we laugh
pointing at the sun
then slowly, we turn
for a glance
We roll on our backs,
reach for the bread crumbs
above our heads
and we dream, and we dream
pointing at the trees
then gently, our hands move
for a caress
We roll on our backs,
feel the weight of the silence
stretching
and we sigh, and we sigh
pointing at the clouds
then painfully, our mouths mumble
our goodbyes
But didn't we promise
a better ending?
As we mourned, as we mourned
our past heartbreaks
Yet here we are
aghast at the truth
that we're back, oh we're back
to strangers!
I still love you despite the mess
and I cry, and I cry
until there are no more tears left
I roll on my back,
watch you drift
then you try, then you try
to wish our love dead
-a better ending, katie
20:30
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Forget about the roses
and how well he did
in his speech at the porch
while you lit a cigarette
The smoke danced above your head,
to his direction
but it didn't, in any way, distract
him as he stared his way
into her heart
as yours broke
for the twenty seventh time!
-katie, 11:10
You don't know
What it's like
To stare
At the walls
For hours
And hours
Figuring out
How the clock
Ticks so loud
Screaming
A hollow sound
Dead, hollow sound
Ringing all over
Your deafness
Making you shiver
Despite your numbness
You don't know
What it's like
To hold yourself
Together because
Breaking down
Is like a drug
Tempting,
A little consoling
But destructive
So you lie there
Trying hard not to feel
Shutting the faint sound
Of blood running
In your veins
Trying hard not
To go insane
You don't know
What it's like
So stop repeating
Words I've heard
Before
For a million times
"You're gonna be fine!"
Maybe I would be
But not today
Definitely not today
-katie, 20:15
Image: Pinterest
I was never a halcyon sea
but you calmed my waves
with songs
I've never heard before.
-katie,13:10
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