Oh, To Live Here All Alone

my mother was like 'don't you want to play subway surfers or something' i had several tabs on Google open on articles about coelacanths and other stuff idk why nine y/o me wanted to write an entire essay for no reason maybe it was just my inner writer starting to bloom or i just wanted to write about my current special interest i'm writing this mere days after i reawakened my childhood special interest about prehistory the insomniac archives autism actually autistic neurodivergent neurodiversity special interest autistic special interest autism special interest childhood memories

the insomniac archives the brothers karamazov Братья Карамазовы tbk russian literature ivan karamazov this is way too accurate ivan has always been one of my top kins fyodor dostoyevsky indu reads dostoyevsky

sure i'm a greyplatonic and loveless aroace but girls are just built different (affectionate) the insomniac archives lgbtq lgbt oriented aroace loveless aroace loveless oriented aroace aroace aromantic asexual nblw

sex-negativity (hating sex as a concept and shaming others for liking it) sex-repulsion (being disgusted by the idea of having sex yourself) i'm tired of seeing sex-repulsed 'positivity' posts where they confuse these concepts newsflash buddy; you can be sex-repulsed AND sex-positive. i do agree that shaming others for liking sex is bad but at least inform the right people but there are barely any sex-repulsion positivity posts that don't go 'it's okay to be sex-repulsed as long as you aren't sex-negative!' every time i go to the sex-repulsed tags whenever i need positivity for my internalised aphobia these are the types of posts i see lgbtq lgbt asexuality asexual asexual pride ace pride ace sex repulsed sex repulsed pride sex repulsed positivity sex repulsed asexual the insomniac archives

just to clarify that when i mean love i mean loving another person. not being facinated by an object or anything the insomniac archives voidpunk lgbt lgbtq aroace aromantic asexual aromantic aromanticism aro asexual ace asexuality loveless aro loveless aroace moon night sky space mooncore