Ight So Remember When I Made A Post Saying Jons Grandmother Might Have Tried To Lock Him Out? Yeah I

Ight so remember when I made a post saying Jon’s grandmother might have tried to lock him out? Yeah I still think she probably did but after re-listening to A Guest for Mr. Spider, I have fleshed the idea out more. And it made me sad!

Jon said, “By the time I was eight, the police had had to return me from my explorations at least three times, and my grandmother swore that if it happened again she would begin locking me inside the house. And I fully believed her.”

Well, for one, it doesn’t sound like she went looking for him. Or called the cops herself. I believe they found little Jon, so curious, with more questions than he had room in his body, trespassing where he shouldn’t, searching for answers. Grandmother Sims probably didn’t notice whenever Jon disappeared, most of the time. So yes, sometimes he was locked out by accident. She wouldn’t have checked his room, when he was quiet he wasn’t making trouble so why would she risk breaking that silence by peeking in on him? The first time she had to let him in from locking him out, she was furious. Threatened to lock him in his room. The next time, she did lock him in his room. For a whole day, which drove him almost insane.

So he learned to come in through the window, at first, to make sure he didn’t get caught. After the first time the cops brought him home though, he decided to stop doing that. Jon became quite vigilant about keeping his grandmother informed when he went out. Sometimes he still snuck out, because she’d say no and that wasn’t the answer he wanted, but for the most part he knew she knew when he was out.

Which made finding the door locked a surprise. He knocked but his grandmother didn’t come. He climbed in the window. Grandma Sims was there but he didn’t say a word, chalking it up to her forgetting he’d left and not wanting to risk getting in trouble. Jon just made sure to tell her multiple times the next time he went out.

But it happened again. And again. Twice more after he was brought home by the police again. It didn’t stop until the third time he was brought home. This time, a “neighbor” (they lived on the other side of town) had called the cops because he’d wandered into her yard. Jon’s grandmother threatened to lock him inside. Jon stopped being brought home by the cops. He didn’t entirely stop exploring but he learned not to get caught. And the door was never locked again.

Jon doesn’t think about his grandmother often. He tries not to, not that he’d admit to that. But whenever he does, a part of him wonders. Just as little Jon, a child less than eight, had wondered. Did she lock him out on purpose? And when the door stopped getting locked, by accident or by design, was it because she finally accepted she had to raise him? Was he such a burden that she hoped he would just go away if he couldn’t get in?

But Jon doesn’t think about his grandmother often. So he doesn’t think about that. Or what could have happened to him if he hadn’t learned to climb through the windows, and remembered to keep his bedroom window unlocked.

Correct me if I’m wrong but in the original text doesn’t Jekyll admit to always knowing exactly what Hyde was doing just not wanting to stop it? Also, that when he woke up as Hyde he was completely aware of being Hyde and had the wherewithal to run back to the apartment he had bought to “house Hyde?”  And I know that he was into shady shit prior and the main motivation for creating Hyde was so he wouldn’t feel any guilt over that shady shit. So if I’m right on the first point, combine that with the shady guilt stuff, I find it fascinating that in many adaptions of Jekyll and Hyde and in the public eye, Jekyll is seen as good if not misguided and Hyde as a truly separate and evil person. When in reality Hyde never really existed, was just a disguise, and Jekyll should be considered a truly horrendous person. The true monster of the story who eventually took his own life instead of facing the consequences of his own actions. I’m sure there are entire papers on this and better ways of pointing this out but it’s been bothering me so I thought I’d share my thoughts.

Still on this, didn’t get all of it out. Anyway, I completely understand the appeal of a tortured soul struggling with their inner demons. But Jekyll doesn’t come off as that to me. He’s a dodger. He blames everything but himself. He’s not a bad man, it’s society and temptation. It’s not me! It’s Hyde! I will acknowledge it’s been a minute since I read the book and maybe I need to do that again but this is how I’m remembering the character and the narrative at the moment.

Honestly if anyone wants to get into a literary discussion about Jekyll and Hyde I am here for it.

Correct me if I’m wrong but in the original text doesn’t Jekyll admit to always knowing exactly what Hyde was doing just not wanting to stop it? Also, that when he woke up as Hyde he was completely aware of being Hyde and had the wherewithal to run back to the apartment he had bought to “house Hyde?”  And I know that he was into shady shit prior and the main motivation for creating Hyde was so he wouldn’t feel any guilt over that shady shit. So if I’m right on the first point, combine that with the shady guilt stuff, I find it fascinating that in many adaptions of Jekyll and Hyde and in the public eye, Jekyll is seen as good if not misguided and Hyde as a truly separate and evil person. When in reality Hyde never really existed, was just a disguise, and Jekyll should be considered a truly horrendous person. The true monster of the story who eventually took his own life instead of facing the consequences of his own actions. I’m sure there are entire papers on this and better ways of pointing this out but it’s been bothering me so I thought I’d share my thoughts.

There was so much angel symbolism around Blizo in this new episode. Separating some of it from Stolas, the golden feathers and staircase (staircase to heaven anyone?) are like huge symbols right off the bat. Then the x in place of his eye in Moxxie’s hallucination which we’ve seen the killer angels to have in Hazbin Hotel. Kind of Blizo’s outline matches a bit too with what we saw of angels in Hazbin Hotel. I know there’s like no way Blizo’s a fallen angel (though that would be some cool shit) but it’s interesting to see him with the angel/heaven symbolism. Adding in Stolas though and the staircase, that is still a big heaven-like scene to me. Possibly implying that Blizo holds Stolas to a god-like height.

So uh.....Fuck, am I right?