Tomorrow I Face The Ordeal Of Calling A Landlord To See If I Can Get An Apartment. It Will Be The First

Tomorrow I face the ordeal of calling a landlord to see if I can get an apartment. It will be the first time I’ve done so and I am terrified. Not so much because of the call but what it’ll mean if I get the apartment. I’ve never lived on my own. I have so many siblings and have never been alone. Will I be able to survive it? I feel as if the loneliness will consume me quickly. Already, I’m close to tears. But I will also never know if I can survive that loneliness or come to love it if I never try to embrace it. What suffering there is in such a mundane thing.

The Insta of Dorian Gray

There’s something so painful about loving someone too late. About realizing you loved them in a moment that, if you’d known, could have changed yours and their future. Or maybe not. But things would have been different anyway.

There was so much angel symbolism around Blizo in this new episode. Separating some of it from Stolas, the golden feathers and staircase (staircase to heaven anyone?) are like huge symbols right off the bat. Then the x in place of his eye in Moxxie’s hallucination which we’ve seen the killer angels to have in Hazbin Hotel. Kind of Blizo’s outline matches a bit too with what we saw of angels in Hazbin Hotel. I know there’s like no way Blizo’s a fallen angel (though that would be some cool shit) but it’s interesting to see him with the angel/heaven symbolism. Adding in Stolas though and the staircase, that is still a big heaven-like scene to me. Possibly implying that Blizo holds Stolas to a god-like height.

So uh.....Fuck, am I right?

~I’m too sexy for this virus, too sexy for this virus, too sexy for this virus. So sexy I’m sick!~