Eighteen Years Of Sin Is Just Childhood.

Eighteen years of sin is just childhood.

There was so much angel symbolism around Blizo in this new episode. Separating some of it from Stolas, the golden feathers and staircase (staircase to heaven anyone?) are like huge symbols right off the bat. Then the x in place of his eye in Moxxie’s hallucination which we’ve seen the killer angels to have in Hazbin Hotel. Kind of Blizo’s outline matches a bit too with what we saw of angels in Hazbin Hotel. I know there’s like no way Blizo’s a fallen angel (though that would be some cool shit) but it’s interesting to see him with the angel/heaven symbolism. Adding in Stolas though and the staircase, that is still a big heaven-like scene to me. Possibly implying that Blizo holds Stolas to a god-like height.

Tomorrow I face the ordeal of calling a landlord to see if I can get an apartment. It will be the first time I’ve done so and I am terrified. Not so much because of the call but what it’ll mean if I get the apartment. I’ve never lived on my own. I have so many siblings and have never been alone. Will I be able to survive it? I feel as if the loneliness will consume me quickly. Already, I’m close to tears. But I will also never know if I can survive that loneliness or come to love it if I never try to embrace it. What suffering there is in such a mundane thing.

I’m contemplating on working on some very old hobbit fanfics. One I wrote a little bit on here and just never finished. The other is the Ri brothers adopting Bilbo long before the quest to Erebor. Both have got that 2016 vibe. Y’all remember those times, way back in the days of yore? Anyways, because of fucking Dave I actually have three current projects going on plus school work. But I’m seriously considering adding these two old ones to the list.

What’s fun is when there’s even a divide in the state. Like I’m in Illinois but I’m from southern Illinois. And trust me when I say that means something. Every last one of us bristles like a cat if we tell you we’re from Illinois and you ask if we’re from Chicago. Most of us specifically say Southern Illinois just to avoid this because it is hitting the instant rage button with a truck going 90 over the speed limit. And we all talk shit about the state, arguing whose fault it is that it sucks. But God and the Beings in the Corn help you if an outsider insults our state. We will rip you to shreds and plant you with the soybeans.

Do non-americans realize that the United States is literally just a bunch of countries in a trench coat that agreed to be semi-nice to each other in order to sneak into the Big Boy Club? Because let’s be honest that’s just what the USA is

No, no! I asked for interaction :D So it really was all on Jekyll. Besides physical appearances, there was never truly a Mr Hyde. It was the wretched doctor the whole time. This again brings me back to how modern adaptions stray from the novel. (I love some adaptions but here I’m addressing contradictions from the source material.) To get a bit poetic, do people prefer the tortured lie over the harsh selfish truth? Does making Jekyll out as a victim of himself instead of the perpetrator of evil reflect on how many prefer to see themselves? On a lighter note than that though, I wonder how a more true adaption would play out? Oh! I know gritty adaptions are a little outdated at this point but seeing as any adaption of this book has to be gritty, it’d be fantastic to see it turned into a murder show with Jekyll being hunted and slowly forced by outside forces to acknowledge that he is more Hyde than he wants to admit.

Correct me if I’m wrong but in the original text doesn’t Jekyll admit to always knowing exactly what Hyde was doing just not wanting to stop it? Also, that when he woke up as Hyde he was completely aware of being Hyde and had the wherewithal to run back to the apartment he had bought to “house Hyde?”  And I know that he was into shady shit prior and the main motivation for creating Hyde was so he wouldn’t feel any guilt over that shady shit. So if I’m right on the first point, combine that with the shady guilt stuff, I find it fascinating that in many adaptions of Jekyll and Hyde and in the public eye, Jekyll is seen as good if not misguided and Hyde as a truly separate and evil person. When in reality Hyde never really existed, was just a disguise, and Jekyll should be considered a truly horrendous person. The true monster of the story who eventually took his own life instead of facing the consequences of his own actions. I’m sure there are entire papers on this and better ways of pointing this out but it’s been bothering me so I thought I’d share my thoughts.