Mixed Mania Mood Be Like: Im Crying But Im Real Excited About It

Mixed mania mood be like: I’m crying but I’m real excited about it

My friends really have that “go be sad somewhere else” vibe

thanks to my doctor I now have to ask myself

am I faking the mania? is it just stress? am i really vibrating or just hallucinating that i am? i am really hallucinating or am I hallucinating that I’m hallucinating? am i just hypomanic with delusions? am i just making everything up?

or am I actually manic and it’s just that no one believes me?

Dude I am literally perfect

being mentally ill is just *gets the same diagnosis over and over again* *gets out of bed* *gets back into bed* *stresses over not studying* *stresses when u do study bc its not good enough* *takes 500 tests online of conditions that could be comorbid* *worries abt a future psychotic break*

Manic thoughts fo tonight:

-The world is mine and I can do whatever I want

-I hate you guys you just ruin my fun by getting all worried

-I SWEAR the trees are speaking to me amidst this midnight walk

-Why is everyone trying to kill me

-I’m so under-desired for a person who’s completely superior

-I’m going to break the world record for smartest person alive, just let me get my textbooks

-I’m going to spend my money on crack, clothes, and coffee

-My manic anthem playlist is on full fuckinf blast and I don’t want to turn it down

-My heartbeat is rocking me back and forth very very notably which is entertaining

-Speaking of entertainment OH MY GOD THINGS ARE FUNNY

-Why are all my friends asleep :( FAKE* friends

-I want to s/h because it is fun and so damn enlivening :-)))))