Arthritis - Tumblr Posts - Page 2
I never use this blog for anything but lurking but I need a place to vent for a minute so here we go.
I’m very new to the chronic pain game, and it’s only been like 3 weeks of the current intensity, but I’m so darn tired of it already. I’ve upgraded from the low-level stiffness to flu-like dull aches in every joint to today’s new layer of stabbing pains in my hips, knees, hands, wrists, jaw, and lumbar. I had bloodwork done a few weeks ago and my ANA quant was positive so I’m meeting with a rheumatologist in a couple weeks. From everything I’ve web searched (main grains of salt taken), it might be rheumatoid arthritis or lupus. I have a family history of both so it’s not improbable.
I grew up in a household where my feelings and thoughts were constantly invalidated so I don’t have a lot of experience listening to my body. So I tend to underestimate my pain. But at the same time I worry that I’m hyperfixating on the pain and that that’s exaggerating my experience. *shrug*
Ughhhhhhh
Just had a burning pain sear through my knee that made me audibly say “ow” so I guess it’s not all in my head.
But like... how would I even rank my pain from 0 to 10? In my mind 10 is like...childbirth. And if I scale from there I can’t be experiencing more than a 4, right? And at the same time I feel like I might need crutches or a cane to help me get out of bed in the morning.
Grrrrrrrrrrr
when you just layed down in a position that makes the pain more bearable but have to use the toilet and now you have to decide what to do. fatigue and chronic pain are just so damn exhausting i wish i could just take a shit
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Me when I take my medication: :((
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I am not fighting an autoimmune disease.
An autoimmune disease is fighting ME and I am losing!