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“Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing.”
1 Thessalonians 5:11
Spring clean, sailor.
I have been doing a lot of life cleaning lately. What does that mean? Simply just decluttering of my used to be's. Life has been so rollercoastery but this time it's in a good kind of way. I'd like to thank the universe for conspiring something that would create a new version of a lot more secure person myself.
I've felt lost for the longest time (that explains my compass tattoo) but I never felt the need to stop even if it had made me thinking I was deteriorating along the way. It wasn't easy and it still is not easy.
Although this time I'm really learning how to appreciate everything by living in the now. Which is great because I think, despite it all. I'm living it right.
I’ve been wrong for a couple of times. There was a certain point that I actually believed that I am never capable. That I'll be stuck at a hole of disappointments and I'm never getting out. It sucked. It sucked so bad that I begin hating myself and with that I tried to shut everyone out because I didn't want people to see me dark.
But you know what? It worked.
With a little prayer every single night, doing the things you were once good at, and meeting new people with the same intense hunger to find themselves back. I really redeemed myself and right now I feel a lot like a brand new person without the need to pretend that I'm doing super well. Because nobody's really 100% fine. We're all living anxiously thinking we can lose it all again that's why we work harder, that's why we find ways to be a little bit better than we were yesterday.
Remembering it all too well t'was probably close to being labeled as depression because I remember crying every single time whenever I was alone whether that be at work or some place else not knowing what I'm really crying abt because t'was all crashing inside all at once and I can't do anything abt it because it was all there. I didn't want to call it depression then, because I knew I can fight it off. And, I did. I really did.
Pretty sure it wasn't an easy year for me. But, here I am now trying to start over a different life, with a different vision and bigger dreams I hope I get to fulfill day by day. Nonetheless, I hope people who are experiencing and/or experienced the same thing realize that life is never easy but we can always sharpen our weapons; our mind and heart.
That we, are going to get better. This is you fighting it in level one and this is never the end of everything.
:)
Take care of yourself; give yourself what you need.