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Reason to Live #6535
For my mom who deserves the whole universe and more, I want to make her proud. – Guest Submission
(Please don’t add negative comments to these posts.)
Make your book so popular that nobody judges it by its cover
Something I posted on my Instagram yesterday:
— how my life has changed in 2019
So I promised to make a caption about this, and while I’m here right now listening to the Dear Evan Hansen Soundtrack and crying about it, I decided to finally write it all down. I have always been rather open about my private life on this account, because I like to be honest and true and I’d like people to know me as I truly am. One thing I mentioned a few times but never went into detail about is my mental condition. I have social anxiety and I’ve probably had it all my life (according to my parents) but it got worse during my early teenage years, due to a toxic friend (according to my therapist). I’ve only come to admit this condition to myself about two years prior. I got a therapist and I’ve been in therapy ever since with sessions every once in a while and it did help me a lot. What helped me even more though was a fresh start, which is what leads me to this year.
At the beginning of this year my ex boyfriend of two years broke up with me. I haven’t realized how much I attached myself to him and relied on him until I was truly on my own again, and god did it help me to get more independent and myself again. A few months later I graduated, so once again one chapter of my life that was behind me. I had to get into university. But before that I had months to find myself, and god did this summer make me happy and confident. I went to see my therapist more often again and he encouraged me to take more risks (risks as in talking to people more often, forcing myself out of my shell, take the anxiety with me and push through it) and I did. I also spend a lot of time reading and painting/drawing which helped me, too, because it calms my nerves and helps me escape my life for a bit.
University started and I knew no one. Awful conditions for someone with social anxiety, great for someone who’s fighting it. I’m still struggling with making friends to this day, but I am learning and I can see and appreciate the progress I’m making. I try to go out more often and take risks and text people even though I’m terrified. I try to go to people I know from class and talk to them, even if it’s just “hi” and honestly it makes me feel powerful, because finally I’m not just letting the fear push me down but instead I’m pushing back, fighting with all my might, even if that might is just a shy “hello, how are you today?”. I try to go out more often, to parties or even on dates or trips from my university. I show up to my classes and lectures as much as I can. I even go to the loo in the middle of class and raise my hand to participate even though I have only known my classmates for a few months instead of years. It’s baby steps, but it’s something. I’ve still got a long way to go but I’m working on it and I know eventually I will get there. This year is solid proof for that, and I’m so incredibly thankful for everything and everyone that helped me get where I am today.
Another thing that changed besides my anxiety is how I view myself. I used to dislike me and my looks like any broody teenager. I’ve grown up. I appreciate my body and everything it does for me. I try to keep it healthy and changed to a mainly plant based diet and go for a lot of long walks. I’ve lost a lot of weight through that, which is good if you keep in mind that I was on the cusp of being overweight for quite some time. I’m now a healthy average weight for my height. I feel so much better and more beautiful and healthy.
So as you see, a lot of things changed this year for the better for me and even though there was a lot of stress and anxiety and heartbreak, it was absolutely and completely worth it and I couldn’t be more grateful.
You will be found, hopefully, and most importantly, by yourself.
Happy Pride Month everybody!
Congratulations on being who you are and remember no matter who you love, the world is better with you in it <3
This drawing took about two hours and I'm not fully happy with it but I wanted to post it anyway so here it is.
"Don't ever compare yourselves to others".
you are BEAUTIFUL and UNIQUE in your own way.
big question. what is your song of the year so far? the one you listened to most, the one that touched you the most, or for any reason. for me its where do we go now? by gracie abrams 🌟
My father recently gave me a really good piece of advice.
“Don’t listen to criticism from someone you wouldn’t take advice from”
I don’t know if that’s from movie or other media but I thought it was helpful so maybe others will too
TW//addiction
I am recovering from my pill addiction, instead of scouring the house for some, I went to my dad and sister. They gave me hugs and said I'm doing great, and said I should do some self-care. So I'm taking a little nap, then I will get up and get some food, clean or homework. It feels nice to be honest and not get rebuked.
🤎divinity at its finest 🤎
Something I found on Twitter that really puts things in perspective as a creator.