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In today's episode of ADHD:
Okay so the phone isn't in the refrigerator which is an uncommon but reasonable place to check.
Anyone just ever hyperfocus on something? Like you can't stop thinking about it until you finally do it and then the days fly by and you go, "oh shiz, It's already (insert date)? I started this 3 weeks ago!"
It's what I do with video games. It's probably not good that I play so much of them but it's a release from this world for me. If I could have a job doing it I would. But I'm not good enough for that.... Still have no idea what I'm gonna do after highschool.
Me writing a rough draft of The Lucky Batch pilot today…
but my animatic is at 50 frames now so maybe i won after all
Do you ever put on some music, but you are so focused on what you're doing that you don't hear half of the album so you decide to relisten to the album when you know that the same thing will happen again?
No ?
Just me?
What if I..... rewatch...........Voltron...............................again...
As someone with adhd, this passage feels like a warm hug
Not even mentioning the anxiety thats comes with that second part. Folding laundry is too hard but the pile of laundry needs to be folded and the longer I stare at it the worse I feel about myself.
ADHD at night: I could write a book. I could get my Master’s Degree. I could go to the club and come home with 12 new friends. I could get a job at that club and meet the mother of my children. I could cure every disease and use my wealth to bring world peace.
ADHD during the day: Fold laundry too hard :( Come back next week
Eleventh Classroom...
It’s been a year…
Still AroAce…
Still a teacher…
Still barely sane…
I went from being a ‘traveling ESL teacher’ to a paraprofessional at a Montessori school. I am not impressed. Oh sure, Montessori is a wonderful learning philosophy but it is not for everyone. It is certainly not for a teacher with ADHD that struggles with hyperfocus. The individualized lessons given are often at the cost of classroom management or vice versa.
The parents who send their kids to a Montessori school do so in lieu of seeking out professional help for their unique or troubled child. I have TWELVE out of twenty-six students who are either obviously ADHD or obviously Autistic to some degree. Two have IEPs and the rest are ‘busy kids’ in their parents’ eyes.
This is a challenge that I have no problem with. I LOVE my students.
BUT I am not thrilled with their parents…
‘I want to focus on this pregnancy’…Yeah, but while you’re doing that you could LAY in bed and work with your son on his letter sounds.
‘My parents are in a motel getting their act together’…AKA, drug addicts.
‘My mom says that this rule is dumb’…Sorry, it’s a SCHOOL rule. No sweets.
The only thing worse than the parents is how this school is run…
The double standards and obvious favoritism is what REALLY pisses me off.
I do my job, I get yelled at by THREE different people.
Someone else DOESN’T do their job and they get praised…wonderful.
Oh yeah, and we have FOUR Montessori teachers out of FORTY.
me: okay brain we have to do things
my adhd brain: IT’S HYPERFOCUS TIME
me: ...really? wow. thank you for actually working for on--
my adhd brain: MANDALORIAN HYPERFOCUS TIME
me: wait no
Taocc
Hazbin hotel
Helluva boss
the rookie
current hyperfixation(s)
six the musical
Tadc/taocc
Hyperfocus can be scary...
Like, you do stuff and do some more and more and just like that hours have passed, you're tired and hungry and thirsty and really have to pee, and when you stand up you get dizzy and all your joints ache and you're like, 'how on earth did I not notice this?'
It's a really weird feeling...
I've been pretty busy lately, but here's an old vent drawing I made. Sometimes I go into episodes where I can't stop whatever it is I'm doing, even if I hate doing it, or want to go to bed. It's hyper-focusing, but like 💖𝓮𝔁𝓽𝓻𝓪💖 ya know?
Anyways, I was stuck on too high a dosage of adderall (my doctor was booked) when I made this, and that was making these episodes worse, so I made some art to cope lol.
Wait- I thought this was normal???
WHY AM I LIKE THIS
Me: So yeah. I've got an outline that covers the first 15,000 words or so. I'm not exactly sure what the rest of the novel looks like, but I know the general shape of it.
Pre-Reader Friend: Looking forward to seeing it.
Pre-Reader Friend: Have you read Romancing the Beat?
Me: No.
Pre-Reader: You should check it out. It's a great resource for structuring romance stories.
Me: Cool thanks. [immediately downloads eBook and devours it in one go]
Me: This is really helpful, but also doesn't completely work for a triad romance. Also there's some straight nonsense baked in.
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The next day:
Me: Help. I've spent every free moment not parenting or doing family stuff plotting the novel.
Pre-Reader Friend: Maybe take a break?
Me: No, I'm fine now.
Narrator: No they weren't.
[Finishes plotting 80% of the novel in four days]
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I'm very tired now.