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Children Of The Prophecy - pt. 15½

Summary: I wanted to make someone suffer, ok?

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Tw: injuries, hallucinations and more not-children being creepy

"What's the pl—" Meredith started

"—What are you doing here, then?" Jesse cut her off, earning a death glare and dismissing it "Like, do you just go to work?"

Claire Avery chuckled. "No, not really." they swung their feet off the chair and swiftly got up "I mean, it depends what you consider a job"

They approached a small, wooden bookshelf and grabbed something from one of the shelves.

It was a scroll, similar to the one Jesse stole from her father.

They returned to their chair and after unrolling the 'scroll' studied it with an expression of interest.

"What's this?" Jesse asked them, pulling the corner in her direction in order to see it. She noticed a few lines, some of them dotted, some not. There were some X's and circles, but other than that the piece of paper looked like a child's scribble.

"It's a map" Claire Avery said, still focused on the thing "It's usually used to mark down a location, y'know"

Jesse shot a glance at Meredith, who was slumped on the half-eaten sofa, eyes closed and breathing evenly. Asleep.

"Okay, and?" she asked, toning it down in order not to wake up her friend. "What do you need it for?"

This time, Claire Avery looked at her "I'm assuming you don't wanna stay here, in this godforsaken world" a slight smile formed on their face "I'm looking for the closest Gate"

Jesse decided not to continue this weird interrogation and just got up, wandering off into the corridor.

She entered the bathroom and washed her hands. It was more of an unconscious movement, and she paid it no attention. What really concerned her, was a child staring at her in the mirror with two, black as coal, empty eyes.

She stumbled back, surprised. The child stared at her with an unreadable expression.

"What the hell…" she whispered

"Zostawiłaś mnie," the child whispered. It was quiet, barely audible, yet filled with anger "Jak mogłaś?" their voice was getting unbearable "Jak mogłaś?!"

Jesse closed her eyes and slowly slid down the wall. The voice was getting louder and louder "Przepraszam…" she whispered, tears dripping down her face. She was shaking.

"To wszystko twoja wina!" they screamed, making Jesse cover her ears

"I'm sorry, okay?!" she raised her voice a bit, looking up at the child in the mirror "I'm sorry"

They were staring at her with such intensity she felt as if she was suffocating. She couldn't breathe.

"Stop it" she wheezed

The child glared

"Stop it!" she repeated, louder. Black spots were slowly creeping from the sides, clouding her vision

"Jayka?" she heard Meredith's voice "You okay in there?"

The pressure lifted and upon glancing at the mirror, she found it empty.

She coughed, ignoring the nickname.

"Yeah, just give me…" she took a deep breath "…a second"

"Sure"

She shakily got up, heavily leaning on the dirty wall behind her.

She splashed some cold water on her face and glanced at the mirror one more time.

The previously random red-ish patches wrr now arranged to form words.

See you soon

Jesse sank to her knees again.

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"You left me"

"How could you" ×2

"I'm sorry"

"It's all your fault"

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Okay so this was supposed to still be chapter 15 but I'm an idiot and posted it too soon. Oh well, whatever.

Also there's been some tech difficulties since as you might or might not know my phone took a ≈1.8m dive screen down onto some tiles and the replacement is trash. But hey at least it's not gonna spontaneously combust if I use it for 1h like the replecement #1

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Taglist: @heathenwhump @laves-here

I’m actually losing it I need to sleep but the brain kicked in AAAAAAA

This is an appreciation post for my bed...

It's always been there for me, always had my back. It's so soft, warm, and just all around a wonderful bed. It makes me sad that I can't sleep in it right now 😔😔

First Day of Job

So today I started my first job. I work at a produce store in my city, I know it will be difficult to remember the codes to the produce. I can definitely say that the only codes I remember are Bananas(4011) and Yams(3333).

Well it was only the first day of training and I hope to get better within the weeks I work. I will definitely work on the codes but ill will have the code sheet.  

I returned so tired that when my mom returned from getting my brothers medicine she found me asleep with my mouth wide open in the passenger seat. ah well that was only day one. hope tomorrow is better. 

I’m this 🤏 close quitting rn. Like. I’m so behind in my classes, I have too many external responsibilities, and im not and was not mentally well enough to handle all of this.

I wonder what happens if I take my whole box of mélatonin pills 👀

hey can we all just be really cool and agree to stop the fireworks at midnight. thanks

This might be weird but sometimes when i am trying to go to sleep i wish i had someone to just like hold me from behind and tell me comforting stuff and call me a good boy or something.

Praxis Haiku

Evil Praxis test

Consuming all of my time

I want to sleep now

hoh god im so fjukign tired i eepy im gonna passd out i

LOOK AT THIS BACKGROUND IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF

It’s now 5 am, I haven’t slept all night since we celebrated my father’s birthday, I’ve also been sitting in the kitchen for an hour with my nephew because I have because my grandmother is sleeping in my room, she snores damn loudly and we can’t sleep, literally ALL the rooms in my house are occupied by relatives, EVEN THE SWING-HOMAK IN THE BACKYARD (my dad sleeps there).I really want to sleep, but the only available option is an outdoor bench or the kitchen floor.

I truly think that the US should have a quiet time curfew. No more noise after 10:30 pm, or very little noise, until like 6:00 am. Let people sleep and relax or do whatever they want without fireworks going off every 30 seconds or yelling in the street.

There's definitely no correlation between the date this is being posted and the contents of this post.....

I cannot keep myself awake today. I keep passing out on the couch. First when lying down so I forced myself to sit upright, but kept passing out still.

Thankfully my husband will wake up and take over when our eldest wakes up from his nap here in a bit and I can get some actual rest vs my body force-shutting down in the living room. Well, as close to actual rest as I can get.

I hate how today is going. I had tasks to complete plus I wanted to be more involved today with the kiddos but it just doesn't seem to be my day today. (Not that any day is my day when chronically fatigued but anywayyyyy)

I wish rest was.... restful. I wish it was refreshing. I wish sleeping 13 hours didnt feel the same as 13 minutes. Never rejuvenated. Always perpetually drained. Shit sucks. My hands have been mean today especially too. All my joints inflamed. All muscles/tendons/whatever, aching terribly.

I'm so tired. So so tired....

you know it's bad when you stop the true crime podcast you're listening to and you try to understand maths by watching some random youtube videos

i want to sleep so bad but i can’t because i ate too much sweets in my grandpas birthday 🥲